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SIMKIN: The buff and the beautiful have come out to play. New York City is celebrating its gay pride week and more than seven thousand men are swaying and sweating to the beat. Some conservative Christians think this is a sea of sin. They reject the theory that people are born gay, believing instead that homosexuality is unnatural, preventable and curable.Cohen: I believe that
men and women fit together. This and this it works. These two things and these two things, they just dont fit. So natural law shows us that men and women work and fit together naturally and beautifully and two men or two women, its just incomplete.
SIMKIN: Richard Cohen is one of Americas leading conversion therapists. Inside his small suburban office, a transformation is underway.
Cohen: Ive asked you to do the inner child workbook in order to get in touch with the little boy inside that you used to be.
SIMKIN: Lee Brundidge is gay but hes having his sexuality reoriented.
Cohen: This is to help you externalise, express feelings that are trapped in your body to make you a more powerful man.
SIMKIN: There are more than one hundred conversion clinics in the United States. Richard Cohen uses a variety of techniques to knock the homosexuality out of his clients.
Cohen: Lee.. Lee, why dont you take care of things tidily like that.
SIMKIN: Smashing a tennis racquet apparently helps people dredge up repressed memories from as far back as the womb.
Lee: Lee, Lee why did you do that?
SIMKIN: The therapist says hes helped hundreds of clients overcome their homosexuality, and Lee Brundidge says hes one of them.
Lee: Im confident I found it, man. Im at peace. Im happy. Im enjoying life successful.
Cohen: Heavenly father thank you for this
SIMKIN: Richard Cohen believes anyone can be straightened out if they try hard enough. His evidence? Himself. He was once gay but says hes now happily heterosexual, married with children. Cohen calls himself ex gay.
Cohen: Can you imagine a thousand, million pound weight being lifted off ones shoulders and that gnawing at my gut that was there my whole life, felt like my whole life, craving a guy, was gone. It was like a bird getting out of a cage. It was like a prisoner being released. Now Im exclusively heterosexual . Im, not interested in guys.
I feel my guy-ness. Im attracted to my wife.
SIMKIN: Reorientation therapy isnt just the realm of independent counsellors. We travel west, to Colorado Springs.
This is the headquarters of Focus on the Family, the countrys most powerful Christian lobby group. Its so big, it has its own postcode and an annual operating budget of $200 million.
Radio host: Tell me about these horrible childrens books that we really need to be aware of?
SIMKIN: Tens of millions of Americans listen to its top radio program each week, and it wields enormous political influence.
Radio host: And yet here we have something that could actually be very destructive to them, both emotionally and spiritually.
Haley: I never want another 16 year old boy that struggles with same sex attractions to not to know that walking away from homosexuality is possible for him and thats my life calling, thats what Im committed to.
SIMKIN: Mike Haley runs Focus on the Familys homosexuality division. Hes ex-gay himself.
Are you still attracted to men in any way then or are you completely changed?
Haley: I might see a man at the gym that has big muscular, masculine legs. Well, 20 years ago I would have wanted to sleep with that man.
Now what I do is I look at that man with envy I wish I had his legs. I no longer sexualise that unmet need in my own life.
SIMKIN: Miami vice city.
SIMKIN: This is the latest stop for Mike Haleys ex-gay road show the conversion conference hes taking around the country.Haley: So for the very first time, at the age of 16, I walked into a gay bar and let me tell you I thought Id come home.
SIMKIN: The congregations told thirty percent of gays who try to change fail, thirty percent have partial success and thirty percent are completely reoriented.
Haley: And like I said, I began to notice things that Id never noticed about women before. I guess the easiest way to help you to understand this is if you think puberty is hard enough once, you ought to try it twice.
SIMKIN: Seven hundred people have turned up the curious, the concerned and the confused.
Haley: For instance, if you have a daughter that struggles with homosexuality we have put a packet together. It talks about female homosexuality. We have a male packet, we have a packet for pastors, we have a packet for youth pastors - and these come at a discount if you end up buying the whole set. So I just wanted to make sure you were aware of those over in the bookstore
SIMKIN: The reorientation business is big business. At the back of the church, a shop is selling books, videos and audiotapes with titles like You Dont Have to Be Gay.
Haley: One of the myths that we really want to clear up, especially from those that are from the gay community is that you know this is not something that you pray away or that if you read the bible enough, poof, your homosexuality takes care of itself.
MAN ON MEGAPHONE: Lets show Coral Ridge Presbyterian church what real religion looks like.
SIMKIN: Many homosexuals believe the ex-gay movement is about hate, not love.
MAN: Faggots!
MAN IN MARCH: Thats right!
SIMKIN: Outside the church, a small group of protestors is condemning the conference, saying change is neither possible nor necessary.
MAN ON MEGAPHONE: God loves unconditionally.
Besen: Its a fraud. Theyre misleading people for political gain and to make money. Theyre hurting people, theyre destroying families.And its really just a high-financed campaign of misinformation its an absolute tragedy for everybody involved.
SIMKIN: Wayne Besen is conversion therapys fiercest critic. He describes the reorientation techniques as dangerous and laughable.Besen: They tell you to become more masculine as a guy by drinking Gatorade, the sports drink, and calling your friends dude. And they even tell you to wear a rubber band on your wrist and when you see someone youre attracted to, you snap it and its supposed to snap you back into reality.
SIMKIN: Besen was exposed to conversion therapy soon after he told his parents he was gay.CD: Whenever you want to relax
. Whenever you need to relax, just take a deep breath.
SIMKIN: They gave him a CD that claimed to cure homosexuality by self-hypnosis. Its still being sold.
Besen: Completely humiliating for a 18 year old.
CD: You have permission to change. You are changing, You are changing now. You enjoy a womans body in the nude.
Having sex with a woman is wonderful for you. You are truly happy with your new sexuality. You enjoy having sex with women. Your past sexuality is a closed issue. It is over . It has served its purpose.
Besen: The ex-gays say theyre about compassion but theyre really not. They say theyre about conversion but its really about coercion. They say theyre about persuasion but its really persecution.
SIMKIN: But there are people who say they were gay and now say they are straight. Does it work for at least a small group of committed people?
Besen: Reparative therapy works for nobody. What it does is it shames people and creates a stigma so they want to say theyve changed.
SIMKIN: Many American gays are proud of their sexuality, proud to strut their stuff on the streets. For others, though, its a torment.
SIMKIN: Mel White was once a trusted advisor to the religious rights leadership. Christian himself, he married and had children, but was suppressing a secret. He was gay. He spent decades desperately trying to change his sexuality, even enduring exorcisms and electroshock treatment.
White: They had me bring pictures of men, including myself, that I found attractive and then theyd put in pictures of women and mix them up. And they gave me the control so they wouldnt see themselves as abusers, and they said when you see an attractive man, you turn up the power. And then well change it, and when you see an attractive woman well turn down the power. It was jus that simplistic.
SIMKIN: So its almost Pavlovian?
White: Yes. See a man, zap.
SIMKIN: None of it worked. Eventually, Reverend White embraced his homosexuality, reconciling it with his Christianity. He now lives with another man and calls it a happy ending, but it only came after decades of confusion, shame and suffering. At one point, he slashed his wrists in front of his wife.
White: I was bleeding, she was crying. We went to the hospital and after that she said, You know youve been a good husband and a good father, but theres no reason for you to struggle like this. This isnt right I love gay people but didnt want you to be one and you are one. So lets separate.
White: God loves him and it breaks Gods heart to see him so fouled up on this issue and other issues . I mean. the bumper sticker Jesus is coming again and boy is he pissed, that bumper sticker applied here
SIMKIN: Mel Whites experiences have turned him into a vocal critic of the conversion ministries and a campaigner for gay rights. Hes training young people in the art of peaceful protest, warning them what they could face if they confront the religious right.
-Youre obviously a faggot. Youve got big white earrings. -Youre dressed so gay. - Do you like to rape little boys? Its not godly its ungodly You are going to hell. You know that, you know youre going to hell. -Im telling, you are really sad. But I love you anyway.
White: Gays are killing themselves as much as being killed and much of that is because they fail at the ex-gay movement. They feel like such a failure when God doesnt change them, then they feel like, OK, Im a failure and I should die.
We have all kinds of people that I have buried who have left suicide notes that say I didnt know how else to settle this. I couldnt make it right with God and I couldnt make it right with myself. And so I accuse the ex-gay movement of being complicit with murder all over this country and now around the world.
SIMKIN: The ex-gay movement now has a new focus, a new target young people. Memphis, Tennessee is the home of the blues and the oldest reorientation ministry.
Its called Love in Action and offers live-in therapy.
Smid: We could have anywhere from 15 and 20 people here at a time
SIMKIN: We were shown around the campus, but forbidden from filming the clients. A 2 week course here costs $2500. A 6-week program is $6000.
SIMKIN: So how does something like that help change someones sexuality?
Smid: When youre looking at the spider web when youre picking up someone and putting them through the spider web it can bring up insecurities. Are they going to hold me? Are they going to drop me? Whats going to happen?
SIMKIN: John Smid is Love in Actions director. Hes been on a sexual roller coaster.
He married a woman, had a gay affair, got divorced, lived as a homosexual, became a Christian, changed his sexuality and is now married again.
Smid: Its costly to leave homosexuality. Its difficult. Its painful at times to deal with the stuff inside honestly, but Id much rather put my energy in this direction and it has very much paid off, Ive never regretted leaving homosexuality, not for one moment have I ever regretted it.
SIMKIN: At Love in Action, the therapy is intense, the rules incredibly strict. Clients must report all their fantasies to counsellors. For the first few days of the program, the clients arent allowed to speak, make eye contact or even gesture to anybody.
Lance: Basically its very cultish, like a cult. Its just like being incarcerated, being trapped. Its a constant
barrage of this is wrong, this is not right, something is wrong with you, we need to fix you. Their whole therapy is based on the conditioning of shame and thats what every day is centred around.
SIMKIN: Lance Carroll spent two months at Love in Action. Hes still gay, despite being subjected to the extraordinary restrictions listed in Love in Actions rulebook.
Lance: Men must remove all facial hair seven days weekly and sideburns must not fall below the top of the ear. Women must shave legs and underarms at least twice weekly. Clients may not wear Abercrombie and Fitch or Calvin Klein brand clothing, undergarments or accessories.
No television viewing, going to movies or reading, watching or listening to secular media of any kind. So even Beethoven and Bach arent allowed because they arent expressly Christian.
SIMKIN: What makes Love in Action really controversial is the focus on children. People as young as fifteen are brought here some against their will.
Lance Carroll was just eighteen when his mother and father forced him into conversion therapy. Hes no longer living with his parents. His mother in particular, cant handle having a gay son.Lance: My mum went crazy.
She was beating me and hitting me and yelling hateful things like queer and faggot and pussy. All these terrible things. She basically beat me into a corner in my room while I tried to get my last few possessions and my dad had to physically pull her off me out of the room and basically I had to run to my car and locked my self in because she was running right behind me, pounding on the door to get in.
Smid: We believe as Christians that Christian parents have not only the right but they have the obligation to raise their children in the way that they feel is appropriate, right, morally, ethically, and spirituality.
SIMKIN: Gay identity has always been complex and controversial. The cowboy is Americas epitome of masculinity and they breed them particularly tough down in Texas.
SIMKIN: The men who ride bulls and broncos say these are the longest seconds on earth. And yet all of these men are homosexual gay cowboys.
SIMKIN: Tim Kernan and Rich Parker have been together for three years. Tim: Im not here to make a statement to anybody.
Im here because its what I like to do and who I am. Thats the only reason Im here.
SIMKIN: The medical mainstream once classed homosexuals as mentally ill. These days, though, all the major psychiatric and psychological associations reject the idea that homosexuality is a disorder, and some even believe conversion therapy is downright dangerous.
Tim: Well first Im not sick, so theres nothing to cure. I do not feel sick. I live a good life. Im nice to people. I take care of my family, I take care of my mother. I mean I dont see whats wrong with anything.
Rich: To say that its a choice it isnt a choice. Because if I had a choice whod pick this? Why would you want a life with AIDS? Why would you want to be discriminated against? If I could choose, Id be living in a house with a wife and two kids and a white picket fence.
SIMKIN: Homosexuality is a hot political issue. The ex-gay movement is getting bigger, more powerful and more ambitious.
Richard Cohen is one of the leaders of the new campaign and he wants his message heard around the world.
Cohen: Everywhere homosexuality is taught we want to teach healing out of unwanted homosexuality or same sex attraction. Thats our goal.
Here, in Australia, in England, in Europe, all over the world, we want kids to know you can choose to live a gay life or you can choose to change and come out straight.
Besen: The ex gay ministries offer promises they cant deliver, and offer disasters they never promise they destroy families.
And its also wrong for them to say they are just trying to help people when what they are really doing is pass anti gay laws to discriminate and thats my problem with them.
SIMKIN: Even as the debate turns political, its implications are still intensely personal. Tim Kernan and Rich Parker, the gay cowboys, have finished at the rodeo and are home on the range.
Rich: I dont want any right someone else doesnt have. I dont want to be treated differently than anybody else, I just want to be accepted. I am who I am. I want to be accepted, I want to be able to go to a rodeo and not be second guessed. Or I want to be able to walk into a restaurant and sit across from him and not have someone ask me if hes my brother.
SIMKIN: The ex gay debate is becoming a key battleground in the culture wars, a clash between biology and morality. Its not just a fight for hearts and minds but for sexuality and souls as well.
Reporter: Mark Simkin
Camera: Tim Bates, Dan Sweetapple
Research: Janet Silver
Editor: Stuart Miller