0001 00:00:42:18 00:00:47:02
Dear Rahma,
this letter is intended just for you.
0002 00:00:48:19 00:00:51:17
Mama wants to tell you
how much she loves you.
0003 00:00:51:20 00:00:57:02
As the only girl in a family with 9 boys
you don't have it easy.
0004 00:00:57:05 00:01:01:02
Love, I am sorry that you
have to grow up without a father.
0005 00:01:01:05 00:01:03:16
I wish things had been different.
0006 00:01:03:19 00:01:07:06
I want a different life for you
than the one I had.
0007 00:01:07:09 00:01:10:16
I want you, Insh'Allah,
to use every opportunity you get.
0008 00:01:10:20 00:01:16:02
I want you to learn to fend for yourself
and make your voice heard.
0009 00:01:16:05 00:01:20:04
I want you to follow your passion
later on, whatever it may be.
0010 00:01:20:07 00:01:25:05
You've gone through a lot and seen
many unpleasant things in your short life.
0011 00:01:25:08 00:01:30:13
It hasn't always been easy,
but these things only make you stronger.
0012 00:01:30:16 00:01:33:06
NAZIHA'S SPRING
0013 00:01:38:08 00:01:45:02
A single mother with 10 children has been
causing problems in her area for years.
0014 00:01:45:05 00:01:50:17
The housing association says complaints
range from bullying to burglary and threats.
0015 00:01:52:24 00:01:58:24
The mother, who got divorced in 2005,
is clearly unable to raise her 10 children.
0016 00:02:00:17 00:02:04:10
He started going his own way
and didn't stick to the agreements
0017 00:02:04:13 00:02:07:03
so his mother lost control over him.
0018 00:02:07:06 00:02:12:02
Stealing, vandalism,
threatening children.
0019 00:02:12:05 00:02:17:19
He'd sneak out at night
and return stoned the next morning.
0020 00:02:19:17 00:02:23:20
Dozens of institutes have been
interfering with the family for years.
0021 00:02:23:23 00:02:27:18
Of course I need help.
I can't do this on my own.
0022 00:02:27:21 00:02:31:06
But there will be a time
when I can manage on my own.
0023 00:02:42:18 00:02:46:19
six years later
0024 00:03:06:05 00:03:08:05
Okay, now you're trapped.
0025 00:03:12:02 00:03:13:17
He's looking at me.
0026 00:03:17:08 00:03:19:22
I'm too afraid. Come, baby.
0027 00:03:20:00 00:03:22:21
Come here. You want your freedom.
0028 00:03:22:24 00:03:25:24
I can't even snatch a guy,
let alone a bird.
0029 00:03:32:20 00:03:34:09
Bastard.
0030 00:03:37:12 00:03:39:10
Come, you're going outside.
0031 00:03:39:13 00:03:41:18
Rahma, do you have any homework?
0032 00:04:32:00 00:04:37:16
Yesterday was Memorial Day
and today we'll have the Liberation meal.
0033 00:04:37:19 00:04:43:12
People gather around the table
to celebrate their freedom.
0034 00:04:43:15 00:04:50:16
Celebrate that so many people
regained their freedom after the war.
0035 00:04:50:19 00:04:55:21
And even today
people are fighting for their freedom.
0036 00:05:00:09 00:05:02:03
Are you free?
0037 00:05:02:06 00:05:04:22
Do you want mum to be honest?
-Yes.
0038 00:05:05:00 00:05:11:10
No, I'm not entirely free
to do whatever I want.
0039 00:05:11:13 00:05:13:23
And to think whatever I want.
0040 00:05:15:01 00:05:20:01
Why not?
-I'm still stuck with social services.
0041 00:05:20:04 00:05:23:10
I'm almost done, but still...
0042 00:05:25:00 00:05:27:23
I don't feel free yet, in any case.
0043 00:05:28:01 00:05:31:19
I feel free
when my brothers are not around.
0044 00:05:32:01 00:05:34:15
Then I don't have to do anything.
0045 00:05:34:18 00:05:38:09
I keep telling you, Rahma,
don't let them use you.
0046 00:05:38:12 00:05:43:15
If they want you to fetch them
something
you tell them, go get it yourself.
0047 00:05:43:18 00:05:48:04
Should you do all the work because
you're a girl? It doesn't work that way.
0048 00:05:48:07 00:05:53:01
1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10,
11, 12, 13, 14.
0049 00:05:53:04 00:05:56:04
Right?
4, 8, 10, 12, 13.
0050 00:05:59:20 00:06:02:14
Only 76 more to go.
-Right.
0051 00:06:10:05 00:06:13:03
This was part of my daily routine.
0052 00:06:13:06 00:06:17:07
I spend the entire day in the kitchen,
preparing large quantities.
0053 00:06:17:10 00:06:22:00
I even fell asleep in the kitchen
a few times. How about that?
0054 00:06:22:03 00:06:25:00
Sometimes I wouldn't leave the house
for two weeks.
0055 00:06:25:03 00:06:28:17
And when I did, the daylight
would really hurt my eyes.
0056 00:06:28:20 00:06:31:00
I was a slave as his wife. Period.
0057 00:06:32:03 00:06:36:01
That's literally what he told me:
'You're worth nothing.'
0058 00:06:36:04 00:06:39:04
'You won't be worth anything without me.'
0059 00:06:39:07 00:06:42:02
How did your ex husband
raise your children?
0060 00:06:42:05 00:06:48:06
They were his product.
He had to kneed them.
0061 00:06:49:23 00:06:54:14
He wasn't a father
who was proud of his children.
0062 00:06:58:04 00:07:03:17
How did he show
that he saw his children as his product?
0063 00:07:03:20 00:07:06:24
'They're my men',
if they pulled another stunt.
0064 00:07:07:02 00:07:11:10
Then they were his men. No wonder
if you teach kids stuff like that.
0065 00:07:13:23 00:07:19:02
What do you mean?
-If they had done something bad again.
0066 00:07:19:05 00:07:23:07
If a ten-year old boy is still out
on the street at midnight...
0067 00:07:23:10 00:07:27:15
I said 'That's not right.
We live in the Netherlands.'
0068 00:07:28:18 00:07:31:12
Being outside at this late hour...'
0069 00:07:31:15 00:07:35:22
'They're men. They're my children.
Nobody tells me what to do.'
0070 00:07:39:14 00:07:42:01
What did he want his men to do?
0071 00:07:47:07 00:07:52:02
Nothing to be proud of or say
in front of a camera, not nice things.
0072 00:07:52:05 00:07:55:12
They were ordered to steal things.
0073 00:07:58:00 00:08:02:08
When you're 8, 9 or 10
you don't know any better.
0074 00:08:03:00 00:08:05:08
He made them do it.
-Made them?
0075 00:08:05:11 00:08:12:02
Yes, but what hurts me the most
is that I was unable to intervene.
0076 00:08:12:05 00:08:15:11
The boys were in shorts...
0077 00:08:15:14 00:08:21:02
We had company and people would
laugh at them while my heart was crying.
0078 00:08:21:05 00:08:24:16
They had to wear shorts
and we were in the living room.
0079 00:08:25:12 00:08:30:14
No matter how young they were,
they had to fight each other.
0080 00:08:30:17 00:08:34:20
Their upper body was naked
and they weren't allowed to cry.
0081 00:08:34:23 00:08:37:17
And sometimes
they would even bleed.
0082 00:08:37:20 00:08:44:01
You see your little children,
Ilyasse, Houde,
Nouh, all still young.
0083 00:08:44:04 00:08:49:04
He was there like a king.
Most of the time he'd be lying down.
0084 00:08:49:07 00:08:52:07
He was the boss.
0085 00:08:53:10 00:08:56:13
You see your children with bleeding lips.
0086 00:08:56:16 00:09:00:09
They weren't allowed to cry.
They had to keep on fighting.
0087 00:09:00:21 00:09:06:22
I called our place an education camp.
A terrorist education camp.
0088 00:09:07:01 00:09:11:18
It was all fighting and blood. They only
learned how to cry after their dad left.
0089 00:09:11:21 00:09:17:09
I kept telling them:
It's okay to cry, it's okay to be sad.
0090 00:09:17:12 00:09:21:09
It's okay to fall in love,
it's okay to express feelings.
0091 00:09:21:12 00:09:25:20
You need to teach them
how to handle feelings and emotions.
0092 00:09:25:23 00:09:32:22
It's a big task. I knew it would be
hard to raise these kids on my own.
0093 00:09:40:11 00:09:42:18
You'll learn this, too.
0094 00:09:42:21 00:09:47:21
One Sunday morning I'll wake up
to the smell of stuffed pancakes.
0095 00:09:47:24 00:09:49:16
Right?
0096 00:09:49:19 00:09:51:22
Insh'Allah.
-Good.
0097 00:09:52:19 00:09:55:21
I don't think they will
appreciate me being this open.
0098 00:09:57:00 00:09:59:03
So why are you?
0099 00:10:01:05 00:10:06:01
Because I hate
that my children, back then,
0100 00:10:06:04 00:10:08:12
were called criminals
while they weren't.
0101 00:10:09:07 00:10:16:10
I think that children
don't misbehave for no reason.
0102 00:10:16:13 00:10:20:02
Something must have happened.
Something must be wrong at home.
0103 00:10:20:05 00:10:21:18
It doesn't just happen.
0104 00:10:21:21 00:10:28:02
When children are born, they're blank.
We turn them into what they are.
0105 00:10:28:05 00:10:32:02
Consciously or unconsciously
0106 00:10:32:05 00:10:35:11
but we shape our children
into what they are.
0107 00:10:54:21 00:10:59:08
I'm sick tomorrow.
-No, you're going to school.
0108 00:11:02:24 00:11:07:15
I can feel it, you know.
-I can feel you're going to school.
0109 00:11:07:18 00:11:10:08
And if you don't, you'll be in trouble.
0110 00:11:12:09 00:11:15:08
How about that?
-I'm really sick.
0111 00:11:15:11 00:11:18:08
Listen, Si Mohammed.
I'm serious.
0112 00:11:19:16 00:11:24:23
Thursday we have a meeting.
It's almost your turn.
0113 00:11:25:01 00:11:28:06
Assisted living.
-You can't kick me out.
0114 00:11:28:09 00:11:30:06
Simo, I'm serious.
-What?
0115 00:11:30:09 00:11:34:05
Who started about moving out?
-You wanted to get rid of me.
0116 00:11:34:08 00:11:40:12
No, don't blame me.
I told you you were too young.
0117 00:11:40:15 00:11:45:23
I wanted to keep you home. I didn't
think you'd go for assisted living
0118 00:11:46:01 00:11:49:02
I wanted to have you here
since it's already quiet.
0119 00:11:49:05 00:11:51:17
The older boys have moved out already.
0120 00:11:51:20 00:11:57:02
If you stick to the rules we're fine.
Who started talking about this? You.
0121 00:11:57:05 00:12:04:00
You told the guardian you wanted
to move out of this neighborhood.
0122 00:12:05:02 00:12:07:02
You're right.
0123 00:12:08:12 00:12:13:00
Give it your best in school.
-That's your department.
0124 00:12:13:03 00:12:15:06
I'm no longer in school.
You're my school.
0125 00:12:15:09 00:12:19:09
Suppose I have to go to school,
who's going to cook my meals?
0126 00:12:19:12 00:12:23:19
Who's going to wash my underwear?
0127 00:12:23:22 00:12:27:06
Why do you think
it's called assisted living?
0128 00:12:27:09 00:12:31:16
Look at your brother.
Do I still cook or clean for him?
0129 00:12:31:19 00:12:33:17
No.
He can do it all on his own.
0130 00:12:33:20 00:12:37:17
The time you were gone for
three weeks you managed just fine.
0131 00:12:37:20 00:12:40:00
With your potatoes,
broccoli and sauce.
0132 00:12:40:03 00:12:42:24
Right, you know what I'm talking about.
0133 00:12:44:16 00:12:49:18
Everything will be fine.
Let's have that meeting on Thursday
0134 00:12:49:21 00:12:54:02
and see what they've
got planned for you.
0135 00:12:54:05 00:12:58:20
What they're thinking of,
what assisted living will be like.
0136 00:12:58:23 00:13:03:06
Okay?
-Undercover police?
0137 00:13:03:09 00:13:07:13
Is today Hugging Day?
Didn't you sleep well?
0138 00:13:07:16 00:13:11:01
That's right.
-Or did you do something bad?
0139 00:13:11:04 00:13:14:20
No, that's not it.
-All will be fine, Insh'Allah.
0140 00:13:14:23 00:13:18:13
Everyone gets a fresh start.
Mum gets a fresh start.
0141 00:13:19:12 00:13:21:05
You get a fresh start.
0142 00:13:21:08 00:13:25:05
At some point you have to
live your own lives anyway.
0143 00:14:00:19 00:14:02:21
Simo.
0144 00:14:07:08 00:14:11:08
Shut up. Mum will be on TV,
leave her. It's her life.
0145 00:14:11:11 00:14:15:08
Shame?
Why would you say that?
0146 00:14:15:11 00:14:18:20
I want to show people
the other side.
0147 00:14:18:23 00:14:21:05
That's why I do this.
0148 00:14:21:08 00:14:24:10
Am I shameful?
What is shameful?
0149 00:14:25:15 00:14:28:04
Is it shameful to show the truth?
0150 00:14:47:13 00:14:52:06
I am having a discussion
with one of my sons.
0151 00:14:52:09 00:14:58:08
He's heard that I'm being filmed
and he doesn't agree.
0152 00:14:59:19 00:15:01:20
He's saying...
0153 00:15:04:22 00:15:09:12
He thinks it's a disgrace
that I'm in this film.
0154 00:15:09:15 00:15:14:06
I am a Moroccan woman, I should wear
a headscarf and no make-up.
0155 00:15:14:09 00:15:17:12
It's wrong to appear
in front of a camera like this.
0156 00:15:17:15 00:15:20:12
'It's disrespectful
because we are Moroccan.'
0157 00:15:21:10 00:15:23:12
But I respond:
0158 00:15:24:12 00:15:27:20
What does a headscarf
have to do with it? I am who I am.
0159 00:15:27:23 00:15:31:13
Only Allah can judge me, nobody else.
0160 00:15:31:16 00:15:33:21
Not even my children.
0161 00:15:57:18 00:16:01:14
Ladies and gentlemen,
welcome to this conference
0162 00:16:01:17 00:16:05:20
on the decentralization
of child services.
0163 00:16:05:23 00:16:11:13
A goal your municipalities have been
working on since June of last year.
0164 00:16:11:16 00:16:15:02
Today we want to present
a specific case study.
0165 00:16:15:05 00:16:17:04
Naziha, come to the front, please.
0166 00:16:18:02 00:16:24:20
Naziha is the mother of 10
children.
0167 00:16:24:23 00:16:28:24
That has to be a very cozy family.
-Not always.
0168 00:16:30:06 00:16:31:22
Not always.
0169 00:16:33:01 00:16:36:22
In Amsterdam West.
She has worked with youth care.
0170 00:16:37:00 00:16:40:18
A lot of social workers.
-A lot of social workers.
0171 00:16:40:21 00:16:43:24
We want to know more
about that experience.
0172 00:16:44:02 00:16:47:09
I'm grateful you're willing
to share it with us.
0173 00:16:47:12 00:16:51:13
I will briefly describe your history.
-That's okay.
0174 00:16:51:16 00:16:55:01
With reference to
what is on the whiteboard.
0175 00:16:55:04 00:17:00:02
Born in Morocco. Spent your years
as a toddler in the Netherlands.
0176 00:17:00:05 00:17:04:05
It wasn't a nice childhood,
but we won't go into that.
0177 00:17:04:08 00:17:06:11
You were married off
to an older Moroccan man.
0178 00:17:06:14 00:17:08:07
He was 30 years older.
0179 00:17:08:10 00:17:11:10
One son from your husband's
previous marriage.
0180 00:17:13:00 00:17:18:14
You had nine children.
You were constantly pregnant.
0181 00:17:18:17 00:17:22:14
The boys got older and went into puberty
which was problematic.
0182 00:17:22:17 00:17:26:20
Police contact,
shoplifting and so on.
0183 00:17:26:23 00:17:31:18
Which led to a supervision order
for some of your children?
0184 00:17:31:21 00:17:34:24
All of them, except the last one.
I was still pregnant with her.
0185 00:17:35:02 00:17:38:05
We don't go that far yet.
0186 00:17:39:17 00:17:41:21
It is possible.
0187 00:17:43:22 00:17:47:03
How did your neighbors feel about
you?
0188 00:17:47:06 00:17:50:00
Not good.
I live in a Moroccan neighborhood.
0189 00:17:50:03 00:17:54:21
And as a woman, regardless of what
your life is like, you just keep
going.
0190 00:17:55:22 00:17:59:13
I try to use my experience
with youth care now, to...
0191 00:17:59:16 00:18:03:12
I speak about my problems openly
0192 00:18:03:15 00:18:10:02
to stimulate people to get help
because there is a lot of shame.
0193 00:18:10:05 00:18:13:00
Admitting to having problems
is not done.
0194 00:18:13:03 00:18:18:22
What was it like at first
with help from social work?
0195 00:18:19:00 00:18:20:18
It was a disaster.
0196 00:18:20:21 00:18:26:21
First there was Jan, then Grietje,
Achmed, and I let everyone in.
0197 00:18:26:24 00:18:30:24
Because I want to get my kids
on the straight and narrow.
0198 00:18:31:02 00:18:34:08
I want to do alone
what I couldn't do with my ex.
0199 00:18:35:08 00:18:37:17
Then a plan is made and they say...
0200 00:18:37:20 00:18:42:10
'We're the social workers, the experts',
but it doesn't work that way.
0201 00:18:42:13 00:18:46:10
I'm their mother and I'm there 24/7.
0202 00:18:46:13 00:18:49:14
You close your agenda and go home,
but I don't.
0203 00:18:49:17 00:18:55:01
I've had many good social workers too.
It wasn't all bad.
0204 00:18:55:04 00:19:00:08
But look at us as a family and as people
and not as a case.
0205 00:19:00:11 00:19:04:05
We're often just seen as a case,
yet another number.
0206 00:19:52:13 00:19:54:22
frequent contact with the police
0207 00:19:55:00 00:19:56:24
a burdened past
0208 00:19:59:12 00:20:04:03
mother loses control over him
0209 00:20:04:07 00:20:06:01
is overburdened
0210 00:20:09:13 00:20:18:12
in 2005, the father returns to Morocco
0211 00:20:29:06 00:20:33:18
Here I have all the people
who have meddled with our family.
0212 00:20:33:21 00:20:38:24
Local authorities, the police,
the housing association, Chain Unit West
0213 00:20:39:02 00:20:43:13
Employee Insurance Agency,
school attendance, school, School2care
0214 00:20:43:16 00:20:51:07
probation, Salvation Army, Spirit, Boppi,
Care Express, home care, you name it.
0215 00:20:52:21 00:20:58:03
There were problems with their
upbringing and with structure at home.
0216 00:20:58:06 00:21:05:02
There were debts. My eldest children
came into contact with the police.
0217 00:21:05:06 00:21:10:03
There were many problems.
-How serious was this contact?
0218 00:21:10:06 00:21:15:17
I had to pick up 1, 2, or 3 of them
from the police station every week.
0219 00:21:15:20 00:21:18:09
I was there three times a week.
0220 00:21:18:12 00:21:23:23
It could be about stealing a bike,
about fighting or something else.
0221 00:21:25:09 00:21:29:18
People ask me how this could happen
to me, since I'm such a strong woman.
0222 00:21:29:21 00:21:34:14
No, I only became strong...
0223 00:21:38:04 00:21:40:18
when I had to fight for my children.
0224 00:21:40:21 00:21:43:04
This is my family.
0225 00:21:44:20 00:21:48:15
These are my children.
That's what made me strong.
0226 00:21:53:05 00:21:56:12
I'd like to just burn them all.
0227 00:21:56:15 00:21:58:12
It's in the past.
0228 00:21:58:15 00:22:03:22
Don't forget there were 10 children
living here. 9 of them were in school.
0229 00:22:04:00 00:22:06:02
One of them was a baby.
0230 00:22:07:23 00:22:12:13
And other people knew everything,
but I had to deal with it.
0231 00:22:12:16 00:22:16:21
People come with one of those
social worker folders
0232 00:22:16:24 00:22:23:20
and then they start writing away
and produce a report with errors.
0233 00:22:23:23 00:22:27:19
In this one, in this one.
0234 00:22:27:22 00:22:35:13
They don't start typing. No, they
copy what was in the previous file.
0235 00:22:35:17 00:22:39:23
Some of the help was mandatory,
but most of it was voluntary.
0236 00:22:40:01 00:22:43:15
So you invited these organizations
into your home yourself.
0237 00:22:45:18 00:22:48:01
I didn't know there were so many.
0238 00:22:49:17 00:22:51:11
I didn't know that.
0239 00:22:51:14 00:22:55:05
They come to your home
and you have to collaborate.
0240 00:22:55:08 00:23:00:12
I didn't care, as long as it worked.
0241 00:23:00:15 00:23:06:00
What about your own responsibility?
-Of course, I was there and didn't act.
0242 00:23:06:03 00:23:09:10
I feel guilty about that to this day.
0243 00:23:09:13 00:23:16:24
To this day. When I see
that my child isn't feeling well
0244 00:23:17:02 00:23:20:08
I feel it's my fault.
I put them in this world.
0245 00:23:20:11 00:23:27:13
Children don't want this.
I'll feel guilty until my dying breath.
0246 00:23:27:16 00:23:33:22
At some point I should
have said 'stop', but I couldn't.
0247 00:23:38:23 00:23:41:11
Now it's all coming back.
0248 00:24:32:21 00:24:35:05
COURSE CONFIDENTIAL ADVISOR
0249 00:24:35:08 00:24:39:19
Sometimes I interfere but then I notice
0250 00:24:39:22 00:24:43:21
that it's the mother's fault,
not the teenager's.
0251 00:24:43:24 00:24:47:04
Good morning, ladies.
-Good morning.
0252 00:24:47:07 00:24:52:11
Today we're going to address
an issue for confidential advisors:
0253 00:24:52:14 00:24:54:08
setting boundaries
and saying 'no'.
0254 00:24:54:11 00:24:58:05
When did you say 'yes'
this past week
0255 00:24:59:12 00:25:01:16
when you really
wanted to say 'no'?
0256 00:25:02:15 00:25:08:09
I'm helping an elderly lady.
I interpret and take her to the doctor.
0257 00:25:09:05 00:25:13:21
She has a daughter in Saudi Arabia
and then she asks me
0258 00:25:13:24 00:25:19:05
if I can go to the Immigration Office
to ask them a few questions.
0259 00:25:19:08 00:25:25:18
I said: 'I'm helping you
and not your daughter far away.'
0260 00:25:25:21 00:25:29:01
She said 'yes, but...'
and so I did it anyway.
0261 00:25:29:04 00:25:33:13
When a confidential adviser
is matched with a client
0262 00:25:33:16 00:25:39:21
you tell them you're bound
by professional secrecy.
0263 00:25:39:24 00:25:43:24
But you clearly define
what you can and can't do.
0264 00:25:44:03 00:25:49:01
You write it down
but in reality it's not always possible.
0265 00:25:49:04 00:25:54:09
We work with Moroccan people.
We're Moroccan ourselves.
0266 00:25:54:12 00:25:57:12
You're not allowed to say 'no'.
-That's hard.
0267 00:25:57:16 00:26:02:13
It's a shame, it's a disgrace,
<hsuma,>to say 'no'.
0268 00:26:02:17 00:26:05:22
But I really learned
to ignore that<hsuma>for a
moment.
0269 00:26:06:00 00:26:09:01
Now they say I've become Dutch.
0270 00:26:09:04 00:26:11:13
She's Dutchified.
That's what they say.
0271 00:26:54:04 00:26:57:06
Child Welfare coming into our family
0272 00:26:57:09 00:27:01:08
was basically my salvation.
0273 00:27:01:11 00:27:05:22
They will either be put in foster homes
or I have to dedicate myself to my kids.
0274 00:27:06:00 00:27:10:22
That's when I decided
to step out of the marriage.
0275 00:27:11:00 00:27:13:00
Enough was enough.
0276 00:27:17:00 00:27:23:10
My kids were put under a supervision order
except Rahma. I was pregnant with
her.
0277 00:27:23:13 00:27:28:03
Three months after she was born
her father left.
0278 00:27:33:07 00:27:37:11
I was determined to get a divorce.
He said 'okay'.
0279 00:27:37:14 00:27:40:24
But he thought I would back down.
0280 00:27:41:02 00:27:46:12
Rahma was sleeping. I was in the
kitchen
and there he was, holding a baseball bat.
0281 00:27:47:12 00:27:51:06
Before I knew what happened,
everything went black.
0282 00:27:52:15 00:27:55:16
He kept hitting me on the head.
0283 00:27:55:19 00:28:00:20
I yelled 'please'.
The only thing I saw in a flash...
0284 00:28:00:23 00:28:05:17
I saw my children and thought
they'd be left behind alone.
0285 00:28:05:20 00:28:11:01
I was on my knees,
kissing his feet and his hands
0286 00:28:11:04 00:28:15:15
while he was hitting me with the bat.
'Please, my children'.
0287 00:28:16:21 00:28:21:16
But he just kept on yelling.
0288 00:28:25:16 00:28:29:11
'You're going to die. You're a whore.'
0289 00:28:29:14 00:28:34:04
That's when something
snapped inside me.
0290 00:28:34:07 00:28:40:07
I got up, looked at him and said:
'Kill me, but I'm never coming back to you.'
0291 00:28:40:10 00:28:45:23
'If that's my fate and you want to
have it on your conscience, then kill me.'
0292 00:28:46:01 00:28:51:14
Suddenly, he looked at me
and he didn't know what to do.
0293 00:28:51:17 00:28:54:07
He turned around and left.
0294 00:28:58:15 00:29:01:21
Show me.
Your hair is clean.
0295 00:29:01:24 00:29:03:17
Mum?
-I'm coming.
0296 00:29:03:20 00:29:06:08
I'm busy with Rahma now.
0297 00:29:07:16 00:29:10:10
Mum?
-I'm busy with Rahma now.
0298 00:29:12:05 00:29:15:14
Mum? Do you know
what I want for my birthday?
0299 00:29:15:17 00:29:18:24
What do you want?
-A dog and a horse.
0300 00:29:19:02 00:29:22:12
A horse won't happen
and a dog is out too.
0301 00:29:22:15 00:29:26:06
Why?
-Horses are very expensive.
0302 00:29:26:09 00:29:29:05
And you need to take care of it.
-And a dog?
0303 00:29:29:08 00:29:35:07
If we have a dog, I will end up
having to take it for walks.
0304 00:29:35:10 00:29:38:11
I don't want that.
A dog needs care as well.
0305 00:29:38:14 00:29:41:00
That's a big responsibility.
0306 00:29:42:09 00:29:44:17
You can't just get a dog like that.
0307 00:29:50:18 00:29:55:01
You always need to take
good care of yourself.
0308 00:29:55:04 00:29:57:21
Then you'll always have beautiful skin.
0309 00:30:04:20 00:30:06:10
Look at me.
0310 00:30:08:13 00:30:10:19
Kiss.
0311 00:30:10:22 00:30:12:16
Off you go.
0312 00:30:17:04 00:30:19:14
Ready?
Throw your hair in the bin.
0313 00:30:22:07 00:30:26:09
It's your hair too.
-That doesn't matter.
0314 00:31:02:01 00:31:07:02
Cook something nice for tonight.
0315 00:31:07:06 00:31:10:10
Can you cut the onion?
0316 00:31:10:13 00:31:14:21
COOKING CLUB
0317 00:31:14:24 00:31:21:01
Is he filming me?
-He won't film your face.
0318 00:31:23:20 00:31:26:05
Flora, how was Tunisia?
0319 00:31:26:08 00:31:30:06
How was your holiday?
-Fantastic.
0320 00:31:30:10 00:31:32:10
When did you came back?
-Last night.
0321 00:31:32:13 00:31:37:03
36 degrees.
Wonderful weather every single day.
0322 00:31:37:06 00:31:41:20
We'll go for a week.
0323 00:31:41:24 00:31:44:00
Say Insh'Allah.
0324 00:31:44:03 00:31:46:02
Insh'Allah.
-Well done.
0325 00:31:48:06 00:31:50:24
I'm 44. I've been here for 41 years now.
0326 00:31:51:02 00:31:55:08
To tell you the truth,
I miss Holland as it used to be.
0327 00:31:56:20 00:32:01:11
You could ride your bike safely
and leave the garden door open.
0328 00:32:01:14 00:32:06:10
The milkman bringing his bottles...
So beautiful.
0329 00:32:06:13 00:32:09:00
You still have that in some areas.
0330 00:32:09:03 00:32:13:12
I think in Morocco you have less...
-Less stress.
0331 00:32:13:15 00:32:16:14
Less paperwork and stress.
That's typically Dutch.
0332 00:32:16:17 00:32:20:17
There men do more than women.
Here it's the other way around.
0333 00:32:20:20 00:32:24:22
We have to take care
of the paperwork and so on.
0334 00:32:25:00 00:32:27:04
It's not like that in Morocco.
0335 00:32:27:07 00:32:31:16
Ladies, next week
we're all going to the police station.
0336 00:32:31:19 00:32:34:14
Are we getting arrested?
0337 00:32:37:22 00:32:40:04
You can stay there.
0338 00:32:40:07 00:32:44:23
No, we're going to get special treatment.
0339 00:32:45:02 00:32:49:20
I will ask the cutest cops to help us,
especially for Flora.
0340 00:32:49:23 00:32:52:02
Flora loves good looking men.
0341 00:32:52:05 00:32:56:22
I want you to see and experience this.
Why?
0342 00:32:57:00 00:33:00:11
We all have children.
I'm a mother too.
0343 00:33:00:14 00:33:04:14
I've gone through this,
and I don't wish it upon anyone.
0344 00:33:04:17 00:33:09:23
You should know your rights.
Also for your child.
0345 00:33:10:01 00:33:15:05
The other day I spoke to someone,
that was in April.
0346 00:33:15:08 00:33:20:03
Her minor child was questioned,
she wasn't allowed to be with him.
0347 00:33:20:06 00:33:23:19
That's against the law.
0348 00:33:23:22 00:33:26:06
It was a different station,
but that's not allowed.
0349 00:33:26:09 00:33:30:13
The problem is that people
do not know their rights.
0350 00:33:36:01 00:33:41:00
Who among us doesn't have
a child that they fight with?
0351 00:33:41:03 00:33:45:08
You try your hardest,
but you're lost when you bring them up.
0352 00:33:45:11 00:33:52:07
Fatiha had many problems
with raising her four children.
0353 00:33:53:03 00:33:59:17
Gadizja, 44. Since her son quit
school
he has been causing problems.
0354 00:33:59:20 00:34:03:07
Fatima, 38 years old.
0355 00:34:03:10 00:34:09:03
She's still worried
about her daughter's rights.
0356 00:34:09:06 00:34:13:09
Welcome everybody
to these true stories.
0357 00:34:19:19 00:34:24:19
Good morning. I'm calling on behalf
of a lady with a leak in her kitchen.
0358 00:34:24:22 00:34:29:09
She's 77 years old
and I went over to have a look.
0359 00:34:29:12 00:34:33:24
To tell you the truth,
I was alarmed by her situation.
0360 00:34:37:01 00:34:41:04
Is there a dentist in Amsterdam
for illegal immigrants?
0361 00:34:41:07 00:34:44:19
He has no insurance
but he needs to go.
0362 00:34:44:22 00:34:48:00
The entire weekend.
It was heartbreaking.
0363 00:34:48:22 00:34:54:15
I called youth care
because I was very worried.
0364 00:34:54:18 00:34:58:12
But who will take care of it?
Nobody.
0365 00:34:58:15 00:35:03:06
He has to work for another 6 hours,
the court is asking if he's done.
0366 00:35:03:09 00:35:09:03
I can only say 'no'.
I want to make an arrangement.
0367 00:35:09:06 00:35:15:05
Okay, wouldn't it be more practical
if I gave you his number?
0368 00:35:15:08 00:35:19:16
Sure, that was my next question.
-That's better.
0369 00:35:19:19 00:35:25:07
I'll give you his number
so you can give him a call.
0370 00:35:26:10 00:35:28:23
He's at a day center.
0371 00:35:33:09 00:35:35:12
Zakery.
-Yes?
0372 00:35:35:15 00:35:40:05
Could you please call Charlie for me?
-Yes.
0373 00:35:40:08 00:35:47:12
I have Simo's money. I asked them
to put it in my account last month.
0374 00:35:48:12 00:35:51:08
But I could only do that once.
0375 00:35:51:11 00:35:53:14
He will get his money soon
0376 00:35:53:17 00:35:56:22
but I couldn't change it.
He doesn't have his ID yet.
0377 00:35:57:00 00:35:59:24
That's why we haven't
arranged his bank account yet.
0378 00:36:00:02 00:36:05:16
Hello, this is Zakery from Spirit.
I'm at home with the mother now.
0379 00:36:05:19 00:36:10:00
We have a question
about Simo's finances.
0380 00:36:15:16 00:36:19:07
I need some stuff for my place.
-What stuff?
0381 00:36:19:10 00:36:24:00
Don't say towels and sheets
because I don't have any left.
0382 00:36:24:03 00:36:26:17
Really?
Then I'll get a new supply.
0383 00:36:26:20 00:36:30:11
Simo, have you practiced?
Let's make music today.
0384 00:36:30:14 00:36:33:14
Are you ready or not?
-Yes, of course.
0385 00:36:33:17 00:36:37:06
I have a GPS.
0386 00:37:00:22 00:37:04:18
First I create a rhythm.
If you think it's good, tell me.
0387 00:37:06:21 00:37:10:04
This will be your song.
0388 00:37:11:16 00:37:13:15
Like this?
-Yes, like that.
0389 00:37:18:18 00:37:23:06
Look closely at the diary of my life
it's not going well but I strive
0390 00:37:23:09 00:37:28:07
I look around, no one to trust
only snakes that act unjust
0391 00:37:30:23 00:37:34:16
That's the feeling.
0392 00:38:05:01 00:38:09:02
What did you do in school?
Was it Open House?
0393 00:38:09:05 00:38:11:19
Shut the door.
0394 00:38:11:22 00:38:13:20
Was it Open House?
-Yes.
0395 00:38:13:23 00:38:18:03
Until when?
-Half past four.
0396 00:38:18:06 00:38:20:21
Were there a lot of people?
-Yes.
0397 00:38:20:24 00:38:23:18
Do you have homework for tomorrow?
Yes, you do.
0398 00:38:23:21 00:38:26:10
I've studied. Topography.
0399 00:38:26:13 00:38:31:19
Where did you study?
You had Open House after school.
0400 00:38:31:22 00:38:37:17
It wasn't immediately after.
I had one hour off.
0401 00:38:37:20 00:38:40:09
And then you did your homework?
-Yes.
0402 00:38:40:12 00:38:43:20
You thought: 'I'll do it now...'
-To work ahead.
0403 00:38:43:23 00:38:46:16
You're lying. Look at me.
0404 00:38:46:19 00:38:49:15
You see?
You didn't do your homework.
0405 00:38:49:18 00:38:51:11
But I did study.
0406 00:38:51:14 00:38:56:17
So why did you put on your coat
to go outside just now?
0407 00:38:57:19 00:39:00:08
Right?
I don't think so.
0408 00:39:00:11 00:39:05:18
I only have one assignment.
-Then you're going to do that.
0409 00:39:08:12 00:39:10:19
Only one assignment...
0410 00:39:10:22 00:39:15:20
It's sad that you're dropping a level.
0411 00:39:15:23 00:39:18:15
I do my homework.
-Yes, but?
0412 00:39:18:18 00:39:23:02
When I'm here I never go outside
because I have to stay in.
0413 00:39:23:05 00:39:28:09
At school I'm not allowed to laugh
because I have to be serious.
0414 00:39:28:12 00:39:31:09
How do you want me to...
0415 00:39:31:12 00:39:34:09
I'm a child and I should be able to play.
0416 00:39:34:12 00:39:38:07
You're right but you can
simply tell me that it's too much.
0417 00:39:38:10 00:39:44:13
I've told you so often.
Why do I have to do all these things?
0418 00:39:44:16 00:39:48:05
I did my homework.
-Yes, sure.
0419 00:39:48:08 00:39:52:21
Okay, listen. How do you want a child
0420 00:39:52:24 00:39:57:11
to enjoy going to school
and doing his homework
0421 00:39:57:14 00:40:00:07
if he doesn't have time to go outside?
0422 00:40:00:10 00:40:04:04
Now and then you do go outside,
so stop nagging.
0423 00:40:04:07 00:40:06:02
Once a week.
0424 00:40:07:14 00:40:09:02
That's enough.
-It's not.
0425 00:40:09:05 00:40:13:08
What will you do outside?
-Play with people my own age.
0426 00:40:14:12 00:40:17:08
I laugh a lot with those guys.
0427 00:40:17:11 00:40:21:10
Because when I go home
we can no longer laugh.
0428 00:40:23:02 00:40:27:13
That's what I know.
-Sometimes you need to persevere.
0429 00:40:27:17 00:40:31:03
Even if you lack spare time
and you can't do things
0430 00:40:31:06 00:40:37:06
sometimes you need to persevere
until you've reached your goal.
0431 00:40:38:24 00:40:42:03
I tell you this all the time.
You have a goal in mind.
0432 00:40:42:06 00:40:45:10
You work towards that goal.
0433 00:40:45:13 00:40:49:22
Once you've reached your goal
there's time for extra things.
0434 00:40:51:24 00:40:57:14
But you can't...
-No other child has what I have.
0435 00:40:57:17 00:41:03:21
No other child goes outside only
once a week to play. No other child.
0436 00:41:03:24 00:41:06:21
Okay, I understand, but...
0437 00:41:23:12 00:41:28:02
Juvenile Moroccan criminals
between 14 and 24
0438 00:41:28:05 00:41:30:22
are over-represented in the statistics.
0439 00:41:31:01 00:41:36:19
We must realize there's a generation
that feels they're third rate citizens.
0440 00:41:36:22 00:41:42:05
The first victims of the Moroccan issue
are the Moroccan Dutch themselves.
0441 00:41:42:08 00:41:45:10
Broken homes,
children who can't go to school.
0442 00:41:45:13 00:41:52:23
Powerless parents who don't speak the
language, this destroys intellectual capital.
0443 00:41:56:00 00:41:59:03
The Court of Amsterdam
0444 00:42:19:19 00:42:24:02
The Child Care Protection Board
requests a supervision order for one year.
0445 00:42:24:05 00:42:28:08
The children have been
under supervision since 2005.
0446 00:42:28:11 00:42:31:02
There are concerns about both boys.
0447 00:42:31:05 00:42:35:02
There are concerns because Omar
dropped a level in school
0448 00:42:35:05 00:42:39:06
and there are concerns
about the mother's parenting skills.
0449 00:42:39:09 00:42:42:11
With respect to the mother's parenting
0450 00:42:42:14 00:42:46:09
there are concerns about
consistency in setting boundaries.
0451 00:42:46:12 00:42:50:01
She has made a lot of progress in this
0452 00:42:50:04 00:42:54:22
but there are still grave concerns
about continuity and consistency.
0453 00:42:55:00 00:42:59:18
The family has received
intensive help for a long of time.
0454 00:42:59:21 00:43:05:18
The Board feels there is
continued need for this help.
0455 00:43:05:21 00:43:10:06
We feel that this
requires a supervision order.
0456 00:43:10:09 00:43:12:05
May I begin?
-Sure.
0457 00:43:12:08 00:43:17:23
Your honor, I'm a bit upset
but I will try my best to remain calm.
0458 00:43:18:01 00:43:23:19
I've struggled for nine years
and I've collaborated with everybody.
0459 00:43:23:22 00:43:28:07
Every year I said
the supervision should be prolonged.
0460 00:43:28:10 00:43:30:03
I never objected.
0461 00:43:30:06 00:43:33:21
Last year I said:
They're entering adolescence now
0462 00:43:33:24 00:43:39:21
but they don't threaten other people
or show anti-social behavior.
0463 00:43:39:24 00:43:44:04
My children are the first
in the entire area to be back home.
0464 00:43:44:07 00:43:50:20
I made a voluntary agreement with the
police to tell me if they notice anything.
0465 00:43:50:23 00:43:56:03
Last year we decided
that the order was no longer necessary.
0466 00:43:56:06 00:43:59:14
Because we don't do much anymore.
0467 00:43:59:17 00:44:03:09
I know your intentions are good,
as does the Board.
0468 00:44:03:12 00:44:06:22
That's not the problem,
but what I'm wondering is:
0469 00:44:07:00 00:44:11:08
how is it that this mother
who's trying so hard
0470 00:44:11:11 00:44:16:05
who's well integrated in society,
who knows her way
0471 00:44:16:08 00:44:21:10
and who has collaborated
intensively with social workers...
0472 00:44:21:13 00:44:25:21
So, how is it that it didn't work out
for the other boys?
0473 00:44:25:24 00:44:32:12
I think these younger boys
haven't been through a lot with their dad.
0474 00:44:32:15 00:44:36:13
The oldest boys
have been damaged by their father.
0475 00:44:36:16 00:44:41:11
Some of them are better off
and I can see the changes.
0476 00:44:41:14 00:44:47:07
But it takes time and these boys
were given better opportunities.
0477 00:44:47:10 00:44:50:05
I've talked to the two boys separately.
0478 00:44:50:08 00:44:54:05
They said they are doing fine
0479 00:44:54:08 00:44:58:12
and they feel this request was made
because of their brothers.
0480 00:44:58:15 00:45:05:09
They said 'We're not our brothers
and we don't intend to go the same road.'
0481 00:45:05:12 00:45:08:11
A supervision order
isn't like a crystal ball.
0482 00:45:08:14 00:45:13:09
We don't know how it will go, but a
supervision order isn't intended for that.
0483 00:45:13:12 00:45:15:13
We need to assess each child individually.
0484 00:45:15:16 00:45:20:20
There are concerns, but they're not
serious enough for a supervision order.
0485 00:45:22:16 00:45:29:16
And this is because your mother
collaborates when there are concerns.
0486 00:45:30:14 00:45:34:00
You're given this opportunity,
so seize it.
0487 00:45:34:03 00:45:38:04
I will live up to your expectations.
0488 00:45:38:07 00:45:40:12
That's it.
0489 00:45:53:22 00:45:56:07
Hello.
-Good morning.
0490 00:45:56:10 00:46:00:06
Are you okay?
I don't know the time of day.
0491 00:46:00:09 00:46:03:13
Are you okay?
-I can't complain.
0492 00:46:08:02 00:46:10:04
Nice, isn't it?
0493 00:46:13:08 00:46:16:05
How are you, rapper?
-I'm okay.
0494 00:46:16:08 00:46:21:00
Great, man.
What can I get you to drink?
0495 00:46:21:03 00:46:24:24
Water, please.
-Now you're talking. You?
0496 00:46:25:02 00:46:28:02
I'm fine, thanks.
-Even better.
0497 00:46:30:05 00:46:32:13
A glass of water.
0498 00:46:32:16 00:46:36:15
You have a song? A cd?
0499 00:46:36:18 00:46:39:22
Yes, we have a rough version.
0500 00:46:40:00 00:46:45:07
We brought the music and a rough
version with the vocals. I sing.
0501 00:46:45:10 00:46:51:24
It's the social worker-client concept.
-You're his social worker, right?
0502 00:46:52:03 00:46:54:10
I help out his family.
0503 00:46:54:13 00:46:56:08
What's the song about?
0504 00:46:57:05 00:46:59:02
Simo, tell him.
0505 00:46:59:05 00:47:04:01
I wrote the lyrics because you know...
0506 00:47:04:04 00:47:09:00
we don't have
a very pleasant past behind us.
0507 00:47:09:03 00:47:12:03
It's about that.
0508 00:47:12:06 00:47:13:23
Their family life.
0509 00:47:14:01 00:47:16:12
About what happened?
-Yes.
0510 00:47:17:24 00:47:23:12
I don't give a lot of information,
but it's about what I feel like
0511 00:47:23:15 00:47:25:08
what I'm striving for.
0512 00:47:25:11 00:47:28:22
I was expecting you
to come with 'La Bamba'.
0513 00:47:31:19 00:47:34:03
No, that's not me.
-It's a compliment.
0514 00:47:34:06 00:47:37:06
Thanks.
-All the women loved him.
0515 00:47:38:14 00:47:41:09
Come, Antonio Banderas.
0516 00:47:54:00 00:47:59:04
Flashback, my brothers all together
missing old times, then it was better
0517 00:47:59:07 00:48:03:21
would you like to be me in my place?
it's not going well, hope it's a phase
0518 00:48:03:24 00:48:09:01
I hope darkness becomes light
it's hard, but we need to fight
0519 00:48:09:04 00:48:14:02
the past is gone, I need to let go
the problems on my mind worry me so
0520 00:48:14:05 00:48:16:20
look my brothers in the eyes
ask 'is it all true?'
0521 00:48:16:23 00:48:19:23
look my dad in the eyes
ask 'was it worth it for you?'
0522 00:48:20:02 00:48:22:07
things go they way they go
0523 00:48:30:06 00:48:34:12
'I asked my dad: was it worth it for you?'
That says so much.
0524 00:48:34:15 00:48:40:24
I don't know your story but you
tell me so much with lines like that.
0525 00:48:41:02 00:48:44:11
You don't go around saying:
I'm pathetic.
0526 00:48:44:14 00:48:48:06
You say:
I can't make it any better than it is.
0527 00:48:48:09 00:48:54:06
That's life and you'd better accept
that life is hard. That feeling.
0528 00:48:54:09 00:48:57:03
Do your thing.
0529 00:49:05:15 00:49:10:15
wake up, the house is a messy zone
the phone rings, caller unknown
0530 00:49:10:18 00:49:15:10
they keep asking 'Simo, where are you?'
I'll be back in a sec or two
0531 00:49:15:13 00:49:20:16
Mum tried hard to keep us at home
dad had left, so we felt alone
0532 00:49:20:19 00:49:23:20
we felt alone
0533 00:49:28:08 00:49:30:18
Can I listen to that one again?
0534 00:49:37:19 00:49:39:19
Just tape it to the ceiling.
0535 00:50:13:00 00:50:16:02
Surprise.
0536 00:50:52:16 00:50:57:09
It's your granny's birthday.
0537 00:50:58:12 00:51:00:12
Hurry.
-Make a wish.
0538 00:51:00:15 00:51:02:11
Hurry.
0539 00:51:03:10 00:51:05:03
Blow.
0540 00:51:10:14 00:51:13:24
Something tells me that this year...
0541 00:51:14:02 00:51:18:00
A new home, fewer kids in the house.
0542 00:51:18:03 00:51:20:16
A new guy in your life, in my life.
0543 00:51:20:19 00:51:23:08
Can you write?
Write it off.
0544 00:51:23:11 00:51:26:14
Fewer kids in the house?
0545 00:51:26:17 00:51:30:23
You're always welcome, but most
of you have their own place now.
0546 00:51:31:01 00:51:34:19
Sure, dream on.
0547 00:51:34:22 00:51:37:20
We'll always come back.
Don't worry.
0548 00:51:37:23 00:51:44:07
Only Rahma can stay with me
until she has settled.
0549 00:51:44:10 00:51:49:09
Until she gets married, has babies.
First she has to get an education.
0550 00:51:49:12 00:51:52:01
Maybe I'll become a cop.
0551 00:51:55:05 00:51:59:02
I made a deal with her.
She'll join the police.
0552 00:52:01:12 00:52:05:15
Enjoy it until you're 16.
Then it's a headscarf and the kitchen.
0553 00:52:05:18 00:52:09:08
I don't think so.
-A headscarf and the police.
0554 00:52:09:11 00:52:13:17
I heard that my father arranged
a marriage for you in Morocco.
0555 00:52:13:20 00:52:15:18
Really.
-No, with that strange guy.
0556 00:52:18:21 00:52:21:16
Suppose, your sister is old enough
to get married.
0557 00:52:21:19 00:52:28:22
Would you, as her older brothers,
arrange a husband for her?
0558 00:52:29:00 00:52:30:12
Of course not.
0559 00:52:30:15 00:52:36:15
Suppose she finds somebody...
He's a good man.
0560 00:52:36:18 00:52:43:01
He has a good job, a good future
but a different background.
0561 00:52:43:04 00:52:47:05
He's not a Moroccan.
-Don't joke around.
0562 00:52:47:08 00:52:51:11
But he wants to become a Muslim.
0563 00:52:51:14 00:52:55:11
I'm flexible and I will accept a lot,
but not that.
0564 00:52:55:14 00:52:58:04
You have a Dutch girlfriend.
-I don't care.
0565 00:52:58:08 00:53:01:16
Then she'll marry
some Simon van Basten.
0566 00:53:01:19 00:53:06:21
Rahma van Basten.
Just imagine, or Rahma Kees.
0567 00:53:06:24 00:53:13:01
You can still keep your own name.
-To avoid problems it's better to...
0568 00:53:13:04 00:53:18:24
Prevention is better than cure. Marry
a Moroccan man to avoid problems.
0569 00:53:19:02 00:53:22:09
If he's rich...
-No, stop that.
0570 00:53:22:12 00:53:26:01
That's not something
you should teach your sister.
0571 00:53:26:04 00:53:28:22
What matters is that he's a good man.
0572 00:53:29:00 00:53:33:05
And if he has a different background,
mum doesn't care.
0573 00:53:33:08 00:53:35:14
But your brothers do.
0574 00:53:35:17 00:53:37:12
Shame on you.
0575 00:54:09:23 00:54:12:24
Actor Jeroen Willems suddenly
died.
0576 00:54:13:02 00:54:20:02
He was rehearsing for a performance
when he felt unwell.
0577 00:54:21:02 00:54:22:16
Other news today.
0578 00:54:23:16 00:54:28:21
A 41-year old linesman dies after
being attacked by soccer players.
0579 00:54:37:04 00:54:43:08
The man was refereeing during the match
between Buitenboys and Nieuw Sloten.
0580 00:54:43:11 00:54:47:20
The linesman walks to the cafeteria
but then feels unwell.
0581 00:54:47:23 00:54:50:19
He was rushed to the hospital.
0582 00:54:52:09 00:54:58:11
The investigation led to the arrest
of three suspects this morning.
0583 00:54:58:14 00:55:02:01
Two of them are boys of 15 and 16.
0584 00:55:08:20 00:55:12:16
I wish he had never visited that game
that Sunday.
0585 00:55:12:19 00:55:17:17
We had a party the night before
0586 00:55:17:20 00:55:21:13
to celebrate his brother's birthday.
It was a sleepover.
0587 00:55:21:16 00:55:27:03
I wish he had overslept,
but that's typically him.
0588 00:55:27:06 00:55:32:22
He's so devoted to soccer that he
will get up and go no matter what.
0589 00:55:35:12 00:55:37:19
He came back and then?
0590 00:55:39:07 00:55:42:23
That's when he told me...
0591 00:55:43:02 00:55:50:12
Two of my sons play soccer and I
always ask them how the game went.
0592 00:55:50:15 00:55:53:16
That's when he told me. He said:
0593 00:55:53:19 00:55:58:23
It wasn't very pleasant
because a fight got out of control.
0594 00:55:59:01 00:56:04:01
Even older people got involved
in the fight. It was absurd.
0595 00:56:04:04 00:56:09:09
I asked him if he had fought as well,
he said 'of course not'. That was it.
0596 00:56:09:12 00:56:16:15
He's been playing for so long and
sometimes things happen on the pitch.
0597 00:56:16:18 00:56:20:13
Of course nothing as serious as this
0598 00:56:20:16 00:56:25:00
but we didn't know any better
than things sometimes getting heated.
0599 00:56:26:15 00:56:32:23
But at night when my children
were in bed and I went online...
0600 00:56:33:01 00:56:37:21
I always check the news
to see what I've missed.
0601 00:56:38:21 00:56:46:02
Suddenly it hit me:
Almere, Nieuw Sloten,
coma.
0602 00:56:46:05 00:56:52:01
That's when I thought: Oh, my God.
I woke him up and got him out of bed.
0603 00:56:53:06 00:56:58:19
'Is this the fight you mentioned?'
He didn't know what I was talking about.
0604 00:56:58:22 00:57:02:18
I explained what I'd read. 'No.'
-What did you read?
0605 00:57:02:21 00:57:09:10
I read that this man had collapsed
at home and was in a coma.
0606 00:57:10:02 00:57:15:08
It happened during the day
and that night he was in a coma.
0607 00:57:15:11 00:57:18:01
He went home and collapsed.
0608 00:57:19:08 00:57:21:23
I couldn't believe my eyes.
0609 00:57:22:01 00:57:26:00
And then?
-But then I...
0610 00:57:26:03 00:57:29:14
He stayed at home.
0611 00:57:29:17 00:57:36:19
The following day I saw in the news
that three people had been arrested.
0612 00:57:36:22 00:57:41:04
They were taken into custody.
Then, in front of him...
0613 00:57:41:07 00:57:44:22
My son was with me and I said...
0614 00:57:45:00 00:57:50:01
He wasn't allowed to play yet because
he didn't have a membership card yet.
0615 00:57:50:04 00:57:55:21
But they asked him
to play in that match anyway.
0616 00:57:57:13 00:58:02:01
That Monday I thought really hard
about what I could do.
0617 00:58:02:04 00:58:05:24
Then I called the police in Amsterdam.
0618 00:58:06:02 00:58:11:22
'I saw something serious happened
in the club my son plays in.
0619 00:58:13:04 00:58:20:04
'He's not officially registered yet,
but you need to know he played too.'
0620 00:58:21:08 00:58:25:12
They said:
'Then you need to call Almere.'
0621 00:58:25:15 00:58:32:19
I called Almere. I gave them his
personal information with him beside me.
0622 00:58:33:20 00:58:38:24
Why did you do that?
-Because whether he did it or not
0623 00:58:39:02 00:58:45:24
I have to take responsibility as a parent.
My child did play soccer there.
0624 00:58:46:02 00:58:48:19
I am very clear about that.
0625 00:58:48:22 00:58:55:17
We'll find out if he was involved,
but I assume parental responsibility.
0626 00:58:56:21 00:59:01:12
And that's what I did.
I told them everything.
0627 00:59:01:15 00:59:06:22
Did you take into account
that he might have been involved?
0628 00:59:09:01 00:59:11:02
Look, I always said...
0629 00:59:13:12 00:59:19:10
I believe my child with 75% certainty.
0630 00:59:20:06 00:59:24:16
But not for those 25%,
because I wasn't there.
0631 00:59:27:00 00:59:34:09
Once I had seen the photographs
that had been made
0632 00:59:34:12 00:59:39:00
and I was there during questioning
and saw how calm he was.
0633 00:59:39:03 00:59:41:20
He calmly explained
what had happened.
0634 00:59:41:23 00:59:44:15
He told them where everybody had been.
0635 00:59:44:18 00:59:50:06
That's when I said:
'I believe him with 90% certainty.'
0636 00:59:50:10 00:59:52:05
I will never say 100%.
0637 00:59:53:05 00:59:58:18
Because I can't guarantee something
for 100% if I wasn't there myself.
0638 00:59:59:24 01:00:03:06
But I believe my son with 90% certainty.
0639 01:00:03:23 01:00:06:03
Are you scared sometimes?
-Absolutely.
0640 01:00:07:24 01:00:11:08
Something very serious has happened.
0641 01:00:14:03 01:00:15:17
But...
0642 01:00:18:00 01:00:22:20
If he's involved he will get
punished.
0643 01:00:22:23 01:00:29:07
My biggest fear is... Something like this
stays with you for the rest of your life.
0644 01:00:29:10 01:00:36:22
This is not like stealing a moped,
this is not candy from a shop.
0645 01:00:37:00 01:00:39:16
A life has been lost.
0646 01:00:39:19 01:00:44:07
So I think he will be punished, but...
0647 01:00:44:11 01:00:51:06
As his mother, I will carry this
with me for the rest of my life.
0648 01:00:51:22 01:00:54:12
If my child was involved...
0649 01:00:55:08 01:00:59:10
Whether he was the one
who kicked or not, if he participated...
0650 01:01:00:20 01:01:05:12
That's horrible for him as well
in that case.
0651 01:01:07:18 01:01:10:13
I really hope it's not the case.
0652 01:01:12:16 01:01:17:08
But time will tell.
0653 01:01:22:04 01:01:26:20
THIS SON WAS NOT FILMED
0654 01:02:04:16 01:02:06:15
Omar, school.
0655 01:02:25:21 01:02:29:10
I'll be at the hearing in Lelystad
later on.
0656 01:02:30:10 01:02:33:12
We'll see.
-Ins'Allah he'll get out.
0657 01:02:33:15 01:02:36:10
I hope he'll come back home.
0658 01:02:57:19 01:03:00:06
Court House
0659 01:03:51:02 01:03:54:18
For the minors...
0660 01:03:55:19 01:04:01:16
From 16 years old they demanded
two years with six months' probation.
0661 01:04:02:17 01:04:05:19
And for one boy who was 15
0662 01:04:06:19 01:04:12:04
they demanded one year and two months
on probation, something like that.
0663 01:04:15:13 01:04:19:23
They still need to prove it.
The prosecutor can demand all he wants
0664 01:04:20:01 01:04:23:20
but the judge,
or in this case the judges
0665 01:04:23:23 01:04:29:15
are going to review the case,
watch the videos and so on.
0666 01:04:30:20 01:04:34:23
Abderezak.
0667 01:04:35:01 01:04:38:01
What is it?
0668 01:04:41:01 01:04:45:23
Just to be clear: you will not
behave towards me like that.
0669 01:04:46:23 01:04:54:09
I've been in hell all day and now
I have to put up with this behavior?
0670 01:04:58:01 01:05:03:09
Today we discussed
the personal circumstances.
0671 01:05:03:12 01:05:08:12
There was no press, no audio
and you're alone with your child.
0672 01:05:15:04 01:05:17:01
My princess
0673 01:05:17:04 01:05:20:22
Don't play soccer in the corridor.
Please don't.
0674 01:05:22:24 01:05:25:12
Don't play soccer here.
0675 01:05:32:04 01:05:37:04
If you're challenging me,
you've picked the wrong day.
0676 01:05:37:07 01:05:42:13
I'm going outside.
-I hope so.
0677 01:05:53:13 01:05:55:06
Can you get the door?
0678 01:06:00:21 01:06:03:15
Who was it?
-Omar.
0679 01:06:03:18 01:06:07:09
I...
0680 01:06:07:12 01:06:09:07
We had multiplications.
0681 01:06:09:10 01:06:11:14
Where were you?
-With Simo.
0682 01:06:11:17 01:06:16:01
I was in the tram but...
I was in the Derkinderen Street.
0683 01:06:16:04 01:06:19:17
I went like this...
-And you fell asleep?
0684 01:06:19:20 01:06:21:24
I fell asleep and then I
woke up on Dijkgraafplein.
0685 01:06:22:02 01:06:25:00
It was the last stop,
so the driver drove me back.
0686 01:06:26:15 01:06:28:23
I'm going to bed.
-No you're not.
0687 01:06:29:01 01:06:34:21
First you're going to make the beds.
You already had your nap in the tram.
0688 01:06:34:24 01:06:40:22
Mum, the teacher quizzed us on
the multiplication tables of 2 and 3.
0689 01:06:41:01 01:06:44:07
Did you do well?
-Yes, I only made one mistake.
0690 01:06:44:10 01:06:46:16
One mistake is okay.
0691 01:06:55:19 01:06:59:14
It was a hard and stressful day.
They all were.
0692 01:06:59:17 01:07:02:15
I was allowed to have my say.
0693 01:07:03:16 01:07:11:16
First I addressed the bereaved.
I told them I am so sorry for their loss.
0694 01:07:11:19 01:07:19:24
And that it's hard to plea for my child,
whether he's guilty or not.
0695 01:07:20:02 01:07:25:22
That it's hard to plea for him
knowing their father is gone forever.
0696 01:07:26:00 01:07:29:08
That's hard, when you know
these people are listening.
0697 01:07:45:03 01:07:50:13
What hurts me the most,
is seeing a couple together.
0698 01:07:50:16 01:07:53:03
They suffer together.
0699 01:07:53:06 01:07:58:24
Together they discuss what to do
and how to help the other children.
0700 01:07:59:02 01:08:05:00
Then I think... I had pictured
a very different life for myself.
0701 01:08:07:20 01:08:13:12
Once you've completed your task
as a parent, then life is over.
0702 01:08:14:21 01:08:19:06
Then you're stuck on your own.
0703 01:08:21:24 01:08:24:12
Oh well.
-What kind of life did you want?
0704 01:08:24:16 01:08:27:10
Just a normal, quiet life.
0705 01:08:29:14 01:08:32:02
I'm not talking about a fairy tale.
0706 01:08:32:05 01:08:37:18
Just a normal life in a normal family,
you know?
0707 01:08:37:21 01:08:41:10
With kids you can handle
and give enough attention.
0708 01:08:41:13 01:08:44:15
I just came back from a hearing
but my tasks here go on.
0709 01:08:44:18 01:08:48:10
'What are you up to', 'and you?'
I have to go on.
0710 01:08:48:13 01:08:54:24
I can't hit the pause button for
a moment. Things just continue.
0711 01:08:57:13 01:08:59:22
What would you like to do now?
0712 01:09:00:00 01:09:05:11
What would you like to do now?
-I'd like to go to my room
0713 01:09:05:14 01:09:10:21
close the door, put on headphones
with music and play solitaire.
0714 01:09:10:24 01:09:14:22
So I can organize my thoughts.
That's all.
0715 01:09:16:13 01:09:22:09
But I can't. The doorbell will ring
20 times, I need to cook and clean.
0716 01:09:25:15 01:09:27:04
I can't.
0717 01:09:31:07 01:09:33:20
That's life.
0718 01:09:43:01 01:09:47:01
Wait, just tell me what to do.
-If you hold it like this...
0719 01:09:47:04 01:09:50:03
Look what happens.
Now it's stable.
0720 01:09:50:06 01:09:52:19
So I need to turn it over?
0721 01:09:52:22 01:09:59:15
If I do this, make a claw,
I can never cut my fingers.
0722 01:09:59:18 01:10:02:04
Got that?
-Thanks.
0723 01:10:02:07 01:10:05:17
That's free advice.
0724 01:10:07:09 01:10:12:05
Is there anything you want to discuss?
-Yes.
0725 01:10:12:08 01:10:14:05
My travel allowance.
-When?
0726 01:10:14:08 01:10:16:22
After dinner when we leave.
0727 01:10:19:00 01:10:24:04
Simo, we cook on there.
-Just for a moment.
0728 01:10:24:07 01:10:26:13
Come on.
0729 01:10:31:11 01:10:33:04
Your mum's here.
0730 01:10:33:07 01:10:35:24
Hi, Charlie.
-Hello.
0731 01:10:49:03 01:10:51:17
List of chores
-No way.
0732 01:10:55:19 01:10:58:12
That's a loud doorbell.
0733 01:10:59:16 01:11:02:12
Hello.
0734 01:11:02:15 01:11:06:02
Hello, Zakery.
-How are you?
0735 01:11:06:05 01:11:10:17
Fine and you?
-Simo. Come on, get up.
0736 01:11:11:17 01:11:14:07
You okay?
0737 01:11:15:07 01:11:18:02
It's finished.
-I'm curious.
0738 01:11:18:05 01:11:22:00
little by little,
I'll show you my life
0739 01:11:23:07 01:11:28:12
wake up, the house is a messy zone
the phone rings, caller unknown
0740 01:11:28:16 01:11:33:00
they keep asking 'Simo, where are you?'
I'll be back in a sec or two
0741 01:11:33:03 01:11:38:07
mum keeps calling, she doesn't stop
since my bro's in jail, life's fucked up
0742 01:11:38:10 01:11:43:09
my days are fucked up
0743 01:11:43:12 01:11:48:20
Flashback, my brothers all together
missing old times, then it was better
0744 01:11:48:23 01:11:54:08
would you like to be me in my place?
it's not going well, hope it's a phase
0745 01:11:54:11 01:11:58:12
I need to stay on the right track
we need to fight and cut no slack
0746 01:11:58:15 01:12:01:20
I have to let go of what happened
0747 01:12:26:17 01:12:32:12
It must be proved that each boy
actually contributed towards the fight.
0748 01:12:32:15 01:12:36:12
But that doesn't mean
he used violence.
0749 01:12:36:15 01:12:43:02
You don't need to be violent yourself
to be legally liable.
0750 01:12:43:05 01:12:49:22
What matters is that you contributed to
the violence, even if others were violent.
0751 01:12:50:00 01:12:55:03
For example by cheering them on
you contribute to the violence
0752 01:12:55:06 01:12:59:13
and then you can be punished
for an act of group violence.
0753 01:12:59:16 01:13:01:19
No matter what the verdict will be
0754 01:13:01:22 01:13:05:13
safety coordinators,
the police, street coaches
0755 01:13:05:16 01:13:09:03
and housing associations
are all working together.
0756 01:13:12:15 01:13:18:20
I don't dare hope that he'll come home,
because during each of the hearings
0757 01:13:18:23 01:13:23:07
it was rejected, so then you lose hope.
0758 01:13:28:00 01:13:30:23
I don't know what I should feel right now.
0759 01:13:31:23 01:13:33:16
It's too much.
0760 01:13:35:18 01:13:40:19
Today I'll find out...
It's either jail or home.
0761 01:13:42:22 01:13:48:00
But at least you know where you stand
and how to carry on.
0762 01:13:48:03 01:13:50:01
It's not easy but...
0763 01:13:53:12 01:13:55:04
If he comes home...
0764 01:13:58:15 01:14:02:23
What should I feel? I'll be happy,
but do I have reasons to be happy?
0765 01:14:04:07 01:14:06:01
Somebody has died.
0766 01:15:13:21 01:15:17:22
Hi, Naziha.
What's the verdict?
0767 01:15:19:14 01:15:21:02
Two years.
0768 01:15:25:04 01:15:30:09
I don't know what to do, what to feel
or what to think. I don't know anymore.
0769 01:15:30:12 01:15:32:02
I'm totally lost.
0770 01:16:02:22 01:16:04:17
Damn.
0771 01:16:09:18 01:16:11:05
Yes...
0772 01:16:11:09 01:16:14:02
Omar isn't home
he slept at his brother's.
0773 01:16:18:22 01:16:21:06
Get dressed so I can comb your hair.
0774 01:16:21:09 01:16:25:04
It's underwear.
-It looks like...
0775 01:16:25:07 01:16:29:19
Women's panties?
You're turning into a woman.
0776 01:16:32:12 01:16:35:03
Hi, Charlie. How are you?
0777 01:16:37:10 01:16:40:10
So he can't go back to Almere yet?
0778 01:16:40:13 01:16:44:03
That means he'll be staying here,
which worries me
0779 01:16:44:06 01:16:48:17
because if Simo's home,
he'll hang out with his old crowd.
0780 01:16:48:20 01:16:51:05
Yes, okay. Thanks.
Bye.
0781 01:16:52:02 01:16:55:07
I want to talk to you, buddy,
because...
0782 01:16:57:02 01:17:02:07
Rahma was playing soccer outside.
Why did she have to leave?
0783 01:17:02:10 01:17:06:12
She shouldn't play with boys, mom.
-Just kids from the area.
0784 01:17:06:15 01:17:09:14
Her brothers were there, too.
-She was all alone.
0785 01:17:09:17 01:17:14:13
So what? She was playing soccer.
-They all play too rough.
0786 01:17:14:16 01:17:18:12
Not one girl plays soccer here.
Just let her play.
0787 01:17:18:15 01:17:23:06
And then you said:
'I'll hit you if you play soccer.'
0788 01:17:23:09 01:17:26:13
Don't you dare.
Just let her play.
0789 01:17:26:17 01:17:29:12
But then I called Nouh.
He also told her to go home.
0790 01:17:29:15 01:17:31:12
What did Nouh say?
0791 01:17:31:15 01:17:35:08
He said 'Rahma, what are you
doing with them? Go home.'
0792 01:17:35:11 01:17:39:12
I'll have a talk with Nouh.
You're all calling each other?
0793 01:17:39:15 01:17:45:22
Listen, she's nine.
If she wants to play soccer, just let her.
0794 01:17:46:00 01:17:49:05
Brothers should protect, not forbid.
0795 01:17:50:05 01:17:56:12
Hey, I'm being raised with boys.
-So, what can you do?
0796 01:18:08:04 01:18:14:16
22, 23, 24, 25.
0797 01:18:14:19 01:18:20:12
26, 27, 28, 29.
0798 01:18:27:00 01:18:31:19
I can't remember my mum
once holding me and cuddling me
0799 01:18:32:01 01:18:35:07
and saying 'I love you.'
Not once.
0800 01:18:36:12 01:18:41:09
We were severely abused at home.
And I caught the brunt of it.
0801 01:18:41:12 01:18:43:09
Because I'm the eldest.
0802 01:18:43:12 01:18:49:20
Being tied up, and being beaten
with an electric cord.
0803 01:18:52:10 01:18:56:15
Just like
'I feel like abusing you today, so I will.'
0804 01:18:57:16 01:19:00:18
Being humiliated, locked up.
0805 01:19:09:16 01:19:12:08
But we're Moroccan,
so we can't talk about it.
0806 01:19:13:15 01:19:16:16
You can't talk about your mum.
I don't say anything bad.
0807 01:19:16:19 01:19:22:02
Regardless. I still love her.
She did put me into this world.
0808 01:19:22:05 01:19:29:03
I'm 45 and I still wish
for one 'sorry', just one.
0809 01:19:29:07 01:19:32:12
Saying once: 'I was wrong'.
That would be enough. But no.
0810 01:19:33:13 01:19:38:10
No, she did her job until I was 19,
humiliating and what not
0811 01:19:38:13 01:19:42:11
and then she handed over the reigns
because I had to get married.
0812 01:19:42:14 01:19:44:17
She basically just sold me.
0813 01:19:44:20 01:19:48:13
That's what happened. I was sold.
0814 01:19:48:16 01:19:51:02
To a guy who was 30 years older.
0815 01:19:54:02 01:19:58:12
Sold?
-They agreed on a price and that's it.
0816 01:20:01:00 01:20:04:18
How much?
-Not much.
0817 01:20:04:21 01:20:08:02
For a 30 year age difference,
it wasn't much.
0818 01:20:08:05 01:20:11:02
It was 10,000 guilders, back then.
0819 01:20:17:18 01:20:22:18
Two years ago, I found out that my ex
already promised Rahma to someone.
0820 01:20:22:21 01:20:26:11
He was 34, Rahma was 7.
0821 01:20:26:14 01:20:30:05
I said: 'Do you really think
I'll give you my daughter?'
0822 01:20:31:08 01:20:34:19
Pedophiles.
Pedophiles, all of them.
0823 01:20:37:08 01:20:40:07
Have my girl go through
what I had to go through?
0824 01:20:40:10 01:20:43:10
With my permission?
Never.
0825 01:21:07:08 01:21:09:12
Hey, how are you?
-Salaam alaikum.
0826 01:21:09:16 01:21:12:13
How's it going, Naziha?
0827 01:21:12:16 01:21:16:18
Is that your son, Yousef?
Oh, Zakaria...
0828 01:21:16:21 01:21:20:12
Drinking chocolate with your mom?
Sweet.
0829 01:21:20:15 01:21:24:09
Did you go to the school already?
-Not yet.
0830 01:21:24:12 01:21:26:02
Why?
-Tomorrow.
0831 01:21:26:05 01:21:31:03
No, you have to register today,
before 10.
0832 01:21:31:06 01:21:33:12
Before 10?
-Before 10 March.
0833 01:21:33:16 01:21:37:08
Go now, so that he can come with you.
0834 01:21:37:11 01:21:40:05
Okay, we will go.
-Yes, he can go with you.
0835 01:21:40:08 01:21:44:02
Maybe he doesn't want to.
-No one's asking him. He's going.
0836 01:21:44:05 01:21:49:08
You're going, okay?
No whining. Go with your mum.
0837 01:21:50:10 01:21:54:02
Did you get your report card today?
-Yes.
0838 01:21:57:00 01:21:59:16
For reading, Rahma is
half a year ahead of her class.
0839 01:21:59:19 01:22:03:14
It's important for her
to keep reading at home
0840 01:22:03:17 01:22:07:08
and that someone asks her
what she has read.
0841 01:22:07:12 01:22:09:18
I'm really proud of you.
0842 01:22:41:02 01:22:43:03
Welcome, everyone.
0843 01:22:43:06 01:22:46:18
Many of you have personally
experienced the value
0844 01:22:46:21 01:22:52:05
of having someone next to you
in difficult times.
0845 01:22:52:08 01:22:54:08
To be able to trust someone.
0846 01:22:54:11 01:23:01:03
And you have experienced
the importance of breaking taboos.
0847 01:23:01:06 01:23:06:08
And getting past
the fear and the shame.
0848 01:23:06:11 01:23:08:18
Because if you do nothing,
nothing will happen.
0849 01:23:09:00 01:23:13:02
So it's important
to not remain a victim.
0850 01:23:13:05 01:23:16:11
But if you did, you wouldn't be here.
0851 01:23:16:14 01:23:23:19
With this certificate, you can call
yourselves confidential advisers.
0852 01:23:24:01 01:23:27:07
Naziha. The moment has really
come.
0853 01:23:30:20 01:23:34:10
You never kept secret
what happened in your life.
0854 01:23:34:13 01:23:36:10
They'll come out anyway.
0855 01:23:36:13 01:23:39:12
Better have it out in the open.
-Better out in the open.
0856 01:23:39:15 01:23:45:17
We know there was an old Naziha
and there's a new Naziha now.
0857 01:23:45:20 01:23:47:12
A younger version.
0858 01:23:50:10 01:23:55:05
And we wish you all the best,
with everything you want to do.
0859 01:23:55:08 01:23:57:14
Thank you.
0860 01:23:58:09 01:24:02:15
I also have a rose for you,
and look here...
0861 01:24:02:18 01:24:06:12
A certificate.
-My first certificate ever.
0862 01:24:06:15 01:24:10:11
I had one for bearing children
but I didn't get a diploma for that.
0863 01:24:13:23 01:24:15:12
Thank you so much.
0864 01:24:18:09 01:24:21:15
Isn't it beautiful?
That's for you.
0865 01:24:41:18 01:24:47:14
When the social workers came
and my husband went
0866 01:24:47:17 01:24:51:20
I always said:
'It's not time for me yet.'
0867 01:24:53:06 01:24:56:20
I know that that pit
is so big, so dark...
0868 01:24:57:18 01:24:59:11
so deep
0869 01:24:59:14 01:25:04:03
that I'm afraid to fall in
if I open it up.
0870 01:25:04:06 01:25:09:02
And I won't be any good
to my children then. I know this.
0871 01:25:16:02 01:25:20:20
I'm my own psychologist sometimes.
That's why I'm always busy for people.
0872 01:25:21:02 01:25:28:00
If you see people running around
and helping, it's also for themselves.
0873 01:25:28:03 01:25:32:10
To not have to face
their own problems.
0874 01:25:32:13 01:25:37:19
When I have a moment's rest,
when I'm not running around
0875 01:25:38:01 01:25:39:18
that's when those things surface.
0876 01:25:40:00 01:25:43:10
So I prefer to occupy myself.
-Escape behavior.
0877 01:25:43:13 01:25:46:02
Escape behavior.
I'm escaping.
0878 01:25:47:15 01:25:51:18
What are you afraid of?
-Of having a breakdown.
0879 01:25:51:21 01:25:56:08
And I can't afford that
with social workers around.
0880 01:25:56:11 01:26:02:15
They're all just waiting to see
that I can't do it. But I can.
0881 01:26:02:18 01:26:06:10
That's the reason why.
Rahma still needs me.
0882 01:26:06:13 01:26:10:18
She doesn't need a mother
popping pills and what not.
0883 01:26:10:21 01:26:15:06
Rahma still needs me. Omar and
Abderezak too. They all need me.
0884 01:26:18:08 01:26:19:21
Let me have a look.
0885 01:26:19:24 01:26:22:15
Can't I stand like this?
This is so dusty.
0886 01:26:22:18 01:26:27:01
Sure, stand however
you feel comfortable.
0887 01:26:34:14 01:26:40:02
We'd like a short text
to accompany your glamour photos.
0888 01:26:40:05 01:26:44:07
How does it feel to be titled
an Amsterdam hero?
0889 01:26:44:10 01:26:46:11
Do you feel like a role model?
0890 01:26:47:20 01:26:55:06
No, I honestly don't see myself
as a role model or as a hero.
0891 01:26:55:09 01:26:58:05
You just have to do what comes along.
0892 01:28:21:13 01:28:26:13
Ladies and gentlemen,
to New West, to Holland, to freedom.
0893 01:28:44:00 01:28:50:02
Dear Rahma, always be proud
of yourself and believe in yourself.
0894 01:28:50:05 01:28:53:12
When you're big,
and have to fight in the big world
0895 01:28:53:16 01:28:55:16
then think of mum's words.
0896 01:28:55:19 01:29:01:00
You can achieve whatever you want,
as long as you fight for it.
0897 01:29:01:03 01:29:05:06
I have a letter for all my kids,
and this one is especially for you.
0898 01:29:05:09 01:29:07:08
Lots of kisses. I love you, champ.
0899 01:29:07:11 01:29:09:03
Your mum.