A Russian Fairytale Subtitle Transcript
01:59:01
02:02:20 Ksusha Christmas is a time when people shouldn't quarrel.
02:11:16
02:15:00 Ksusha Our life is a fairytale! We are fairytale kids...
02:15:24
02:18:17 Kolya Everything around here seems magic to us.
02:19:03
02:21:24 Kolya That's why we call this place 'Fairytale'.
02:22:13
02:24:14 Ksusha Everyone here has a nickname...
02:24:18
02:27:12 Ksusha Doesn't he look like Shrek?
02:27:18
02:29:19 Off-cam Kolya is called The Swine.
02:30:03
02:33:01 Ksusha This is Chow Chow the doggy.
02:33:16
02:36:06 Ksusha Kolya is a good boy.
02:36:11
02:40:02 Ksusha He always stands up for the girls.
02:41:20
02:44:24 Kolya I'm not the chief but...
02:45:05
02:48:20 Kolya I'm the one with common sense.
02:50:03
02:54:10 Kolya No one here wants to fight me...
02:54:23
02:57:24 Kolya I'm the strongest here, for now.
02:58:06
03:01:24 Vova We get to do what we like here.
03:02:07
03:05:09 Vova On the streets... it's romantic.
03:05:20
03:09:03 Ksusha Yesterday he was telling me that he loves me!
03:09:06
03:12:03 Ksusha He kissed me on the cheek, on the lips!
03:12:09
03:15:00 Ksusha 'Ksusha, I love you!'
03:15:04
03:16:06 Ksusha Denis!
03:16:11
03:18:15 Vova We are all one family.
03:18:21
03:21:20 Vova We're all equal.
03:23:01
03:27:05 Ksusha That's how we live. We're surviving.
03:39:21
03:44:13 Ksusha I miss my mother. If she was alive, I wouldn't be on the streets.
03:44:20
03:48:11 Ksusha I was always at home.
03:50:18
03:55:13 Ksusha She never shouted at me.
03:56:20
04:
04 Ksusha She was very kind, like my grandmother.
04:01:13
04:04:12 Ksusha My brother came home one day...
04:04:16
04:07:20 Ksusha and told us mother was missing.
04:08:22
04:14:04 Ksusha The police found her body near the river. #1
04:14:17
04:17:23 Ksusha I couldn't believe that she was gone.
04:18:04
04:23:19 Ksusha After school I would run towards women shouting 'Mama, Mama'!
04:23:23
04:27:09 Ksusha but then I'd see it wasn't her.
04:27:17
04:31:19 Ksusha For years I didn't believe she was dead.
04:32:02
04:35:08 Ksusha Then my grandmother said to me...
04:35:14
04:39:11 Ksusha 'Look, Ksusha, she's gone'.
04:46:11
04:49:23 Ksusha He's only had 3 years of education!
04:50:06
04:53:19 Kolya Yeah but I've stolen more than you've eaten pies!
04:54:00
04:57:06 Ksusha What's your profession?
04:57:11
05:
07 Kolya I'm a country-house thief!
05:04:16
05:07:00 Kolya I'm used to living on the streets.
05:07:03
05:09:14 Kolya I grew up with my friends and I'm attached to them.
05:09:19
05:13:19 Kolya I can't live at home and I can't work a job.
05:14:18
05:19:05 Kolya Excuse me, do you have two rubles for the bus.
05:20:05
05:22:08 Kolya I used to steal at the market.
05:22:10
05:24:01 Kolya Many of us did.
05:24:03
05:27:02 Kolya You can go through the Chinese market...
05:27:04
05:30:22 Kolya ...grab something, and sell it.
05:31:07
05:34:12 Kolya They just spank you when you're small...
05:34:17
05:38:01 Kolya but now it's not just a spank!
05:40:00
05:42:17 Kolya We divide our work.
05:42:22
05:45:16 Kolya Some work night, some do the day.
05:45:23
05:50:14 Kolya Alek, Kulochok and Sasha beg for money at night.
05:51:03
05:56:00 Kolya We also have girls, Zhanna, Irina, Larisa.
05:57:02
06:
06 Kolya They're working the streets...
06:01:07
06:03:19 Kolya selling their bodies.
06:06:20
06:12:07 Irina I was a baby when my mother went to prison...
06:12:14
06:15:09 Irina for murder.
06:19:14
06:22:06 Irina I'm not in touch with her, but I know where she lives.
06:22:08
06:24:22 Irina Not far from here...
06:25:24
06:29:10 Irina The guards at the hostel call the police.
06:29:16
06:33:18 Irina They try to prevent me from visiting her.
06:34:01
06:37:18 Irina They're afraid that I'm the way my mother is. #2
06:46:02
06:47:12 Irina Be quiet, Mother!
06:47:15
06:49:21 Irina - Just get away from here!
06:54:03
06:56:14 Irina She's drunk.
06:58:10
07:01:03 Irina I'm not talking to you anymore.
07:01:10
07:03:13 Irina If you need a place to stay go and look for it.
07:03:16
07:05:09 Irina But they want to talk to you!
07:05:12
07:08:07 Irina Don't come here again.
07:09:01
07:14:14 Irina My father was always drunk so I was taken away.
07:15:00
07:18:14 Irina Taken to the orphanage...
07:18:19
07:23:23 Irina but I kept running away from there.
07:31:21
07:35:22 Denis I was beaten up and left in the snow for 24 hours...
07:36:11
07:39:13 Denis ...lying unconscious against a hot pipe.
07:39:22
07:42:16 Denis The pipe burnt my frozen fingers.
07:43:00
07:45:23 Denis They stole my jacket and other clothes.
07:46:17
07:51:04 Denis They took everything, including my ID papers,
07:51:11
07:54:13 Denis and the money I had.
07:54:21
07:58:06 Denis I still don't have any ID.
07:59:02
08:03:04 Denis Since I froze my fingers off my memory is very bad.
08:03:17
08:10:02 Denis When I came out of hospital, I couldn't recognise my friends.
08:10:22
08:15:10 Denis They told me we are friends, that I live with them.
08:15:24
08:20:00 Denis I believed them, and now I live with them.
08:22:10
08:24:22 Denis My mother died when I was small...
08:24:24
08:27:06 Denis ...and my father drank.
08:27:17
08:31:14 Denis He sold the apartment and sent me to live with my aunt.
08:32:04
08:36:17 Denis When I had my fingers, my aunt loved me...
08:36:24
08:41:08 Denis but when I lost them she just stopped.
08:42:06
08:45:00 Denis Stopped loving me.
08:48:15
08:50:22 Kolya Everything was going fine...
08:51:09
08:55:00 Kolya We went to a country-house and stole two gas tanks.
08:55:14
08:59:04 Kolya We put them in a car and drove off.
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09:03:11 Kolya Then got stopped by the police.
09:04:06
09:07:01 Kolya Soon will be the court date.
09:07:13
09:09:20 Kolya I'll definitely not steal now. #3
09:10:00
09:11:23 Kolya Well, maybe...
09:12:01
09:14:00 Kolya Only if I'm careful.
09:21:02
09:25:07 Ksusha There's no running water here. It's very dirty.
09:25:14
09:29:12 Ksusha The place we had before was warmer, we had light and we could wash...
09:35:19
09:39:19 Ksusha This is our underground home where we live.
09:41:15
09:43:14 Ksusha Be careful!
09:46:19
09:50:21 Ksusha It's an enormous basement!
09:52:17
09:54:18 Ksusha This is where we wash.
09:54:22
09:56:16 Ksusha There's soap here.
09:56:23
10:
18 Ksusha There's even a bucket to wash clothes in.
10:01:19
10:04:04 Ksusha We can wash our hands.
10:05:21
10:09:07 Ksusha Here's how we clean our clothes and shoes.
10:09:12
10:12:11 Ksusha The other girls wash here.
10:13:01
10:15:16 Ksusha Now I'll show you where we sleep.
10:16:21
10:19:21 Ksusha Along the side is the toilet.
10:21:01
10:23:17 Ksusha Here are our beds!
10:23:22
10:25:17 Ksusha It's comfortable and warm!
10:25:22
10:27:17 Ksusha This is where we sleep!
10:27:23
10:32:04 Ksusha There are the hot water pipes.
10:33:16
10:36:01 Ksusha It's great! You won't get bitten!
10:36:10
10:41:04 Ksusha This is where I slept today.
10:43:02
10:47:19 Ksusha This is our room where we eat,
10:47:23
10:51:17 Ksusha play cards, sniff glue, inject...
10:51:22
10:56:18 Ksusha put make-up on, sleep, hang out!
10:57:05
11:
17 Ksusha The basement was a much better place.
11:01:00
11:03:20 Ksusha Here you get covered with frost when you sleep.
11:03:24
11:06:03 Ksusha It's much worse here.
11:08:20
11:11:19 Girl I want to sleep!
11:12:04
11:15:01 Denis This is pizza from the garbage.
11:15:10
11:18:02 Denis Would you like some?
11:22:05
11:26:05 Denis It's only me going out to beg, bringing food.
11:26:20
11:31:02 Denis I don't know how they don't get bored hanging around all the time.
11:31:21
11:34:13 Ksusha We're now going to visit Zakhar. #4
11:34:20
11:38:03 Ksusha We're going to visit him, and give him some food...
11:38:08
11:41:14 Ksusha and find out how he is doing.
11:43:22
11:47:10 Ksusha He lives by the pipes because he has no apartment.
11:48:19
11:51:08 Ksusha It's like the tundra here!
11:58:03
12:
17 Ksusha Come on!
12:05:21
12:08:17 Ksusha Oh here comes Zakharov!
12:12:16
12:14:22 Ksusha Come here my love!
12:23:05
12:26:24 Ksusha Hi Zakhar, I brought you something to eat.
12:29:17
12:32:11 Ksusha Are you going to spend the whole winter here?
12:32:15
12:35:19 Ksusha You'll freeze and you've already lost weight.
12:37:00
12:40:12 Ksusha No matter where we lived, he would always read books.
12:40:16
12:44:17 Ksusha In the bathhouse, in the shed, everywhere.
12:44:24
12:48:04 Ksusha Even on the pipes he's reading!
12:48:10
12:51:22 Ksusha He's a book worm.
12:53:09
12:56:02 Ksusha I respect him.
12:57:01
12:59:18 Ksusha He's a cool guy.
13:01:15
13:05:06 Ksusha He has Tuberculosis.
13:11:13
13:13:23 Kulochok Hello is that the ambulance?
13:14:07
13:18:10 Kulochok Can you come to 81 Pushkin Street.
13:18:23
13:21:20 Kulochok Yes, we need an ambulance.
13:23:03
13:25:05 Kulochok We're on the street.
13:26:12
13:30:13 Kulochok Alek has turned himself into the HIV clinic many times.
13:31:03
13:34:20 Kulochok To raise his immune cell count.
13:35:04
13:38:18 Kulochok He should go there every 6 months.
13:39:11
13:43:00 Kulochok When he starts to feel bad, we send him there.
13:44:14
13:48:14 Kulochok He stays there a month or two and afterwards they let him go.
13:51:09
13:55:04 Kulochok He can die quickly in this condition.
13:55:16
13:59:06 Kulochok When we get money we buy him medicine,
13:59:16
14:03:15 Kulochok and he gets better, otherwise he just lies there.
14:04:18
14:09:03 Kulochok If we hadn't called the ambulance then he'd die in a few days.
14:20:04
14:23:10 Kolya Nothing happens during the day... #5
14:23:17
14:26:14 Kolya At night, it's more fun.
14:51:07
14:53:19 All My dear mother...
14:53:21
14:56:20 All I don't blame you...
14:57:18
15:
13 All deserting me so young...
15:04:15
15:07:24 Police This is a police search! Everyone line up.
15:16:12
15:18:12 Police Who are those people?
15:18:14
15:20:10 Vova Americans.
15:20:12
15:23:09 Crew (Crew) We're not Americans...
15:25:08
15:30:18 Crew ...we work with a charity called 'Zashita'.
15:33:20
15:37:01 Crew We're filming...
15:37:08
15:40:21 Crew ...how they live.
15:43:02
15:45:17 Police Everybody outside!
15:48:16
15:50:10 Police No filming!
15:54:02
15:58:11 Vova When the cops came in...
15:59:14
16:02:22 Vova I climbed on the roof.
16:04:08
16:10:11 Vova They pick on us because we're homeless.
16:12:22
16:19:03 Vova They don't care about... a child on the streets.
16:20:20
16:24:02 Vova Even if he's floating in the river...
16:24:06
16:28:19 Vova Unless he's being investigated, they don't care.
16:30:06
16:34:05 Ksusha They screamed at us, 'How many times...'
16:34:12
16:37:21 Ksusha They checked if we were wanted.
16:37:24
16:41:12 Ksusha Sometimes they get physical.
16:41:16
16:44:18 Ksusha To them, we're garbage.
16:45:01
16:51:12 Ksusha They tried to hit Denis over the hands...
16:52:18
16:57:07 Ksusha I said no... don't touch him.
17:06:11
17:11:02 Irina I've decided to go to a rehab centre.
17:12:10
17:15:09 Irina I'm sick of living this lifestyle.
17:23:20
17:26:08 Svetlana We will come tomorrow.
17:26:12
17:28:13 Svetlana Her name is Irina.
17:28:16
17:31:12 Svetlana Thank you, see you tomorrow.
17:32:07
17:35:15 Svetlana If you're sure then go for it.
17:35:20
17:41:18 Svetlana It's going to be hard there. But if you hang on, it'll get easier.
17:42:02
17:45:05 Svetlana One thing I'm going to tell you... #6
17:45:09
17:50:23 Svetlana ...if it gets hard or you get nervous, just go outside and shout!
17:56:16
17:59:23 Irina Where is my other shoe?
18:02:10
18:05:07 Irina I don't even have a hair brush.
18:06:24
18:10:17 Irina Irina, leave your glue bag here.
18:11:04
18:13:17 Off-cam Leave her alone!
18:16:22
18:19:23 Irina I started leading this lifestyle when I was ten.
18:20:03
18:23:09 Irina I found this group of friends...
18:23:16
18:27:19 Irina and we just got used to each other.
18:32:22
18:37:06 Irina Sooner or later we're going to part ways,
18:37:11
18:41:04 Irina whether we like it or not.
18:45:18
18:50:09 Rehab person 1 Here are the rules for the rehab centre.
18:50:15
18:56:11 Rehab person 1 It's forbidden to swear, to lie, to steal...
18:56:15
18:59:17 Rehab person 1 ...smoking, drinking and using drugs.
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19:04:11 Rehab person 1 You can't have a large sum of money or a mobile phone.
19:13:08
19:18:17 Irina I'm afraid that after a while I'll go back and see my friends...
19:18:22
19:22:12 Irina and it will start all over again.
19:22:19
19:28:12 Irina I wish my friends would stop using drugs too.
19:33:02
19:35:16 Vova It's a medical spirit.
19:35:24
19:38:19 Vova It's for your heart.
19:38:23
19:41:21 Vova You're meant to have a teaspoon, or less.
19:41:24
19:45:22 Vova We drink it in large quantities.
19:47:06
19:50:12 Ksusha My period is late.
19:51:11
19:54:23 Ksusha I even read it in my horoscope.
19:55:02
19:57:14 Ksusha And it seems that I'm, you know...
19:57:19
20:
00 Ksusha I just need to buy a test.
20:
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20:03:04 Ksusha Or maybe I'm just fat!
20:17:17
20:19:21 Clinic nurse Do you have a delay in your period?
20:20:03
20:22:12 Ksusha Yes two months already.
20:22:24
20:25:19 Ksusha I have dizziness and I have nausea.
20:25:24
20:28:06 Ksusha Mostly nausea.
20:28:12
20:31:02 Clinic nurse Let's do the test now.
20:32:15
20:35:20 Clinic nurse Now you'll go to the toilet. #7
20:36:08
20:40:07 Clinic nurse / Ksusha You need to urinate in the glass. - Oh I can't do that.
20:40:12
20:43:19 Clinic nurse and we will do the test together.
20:45:07
20:48:16 Ksusha I don't need a pee!
20:53:00
20:57:21 Ksusha Could I have experienced a delay because I drink?
20:57:23
21:
04 Clinic nurse Delays can be according to many reasons.
21:
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21:03:10 Clinic nurse What do you use for contraception?
21:03:17
21:11:18 Ksusha I usually have a condom, but this time I didn't have one.
21:12:09
21:15:15 Clinic nurse I want to tell you that your test is negative.
21:15:23
21:21:05 Clinic nurse If there were two lines then it would be positive.
21:22:05
21:25:18 Ksusha If it was positive then of course I would have given birth.
21:26:02
21:28:24 Ksusha I would have changed my lifestyle immediately.
21:29:03
21:32:14 Ksusha I couldn't live in that fairytale with my baby.
21:32:20
21:35:00 Ksusha I still have some brains left!
21:35:03
21:37:23 Ksusha I haven't completely drunk and sniffed my brain away!
21:38:01
21:40:22 Ksusha I know if you live a lifestyle like us...
21:40:24
21:45:16 Ksusha ...you might have a baby with Down's syndrome or with three legs!
21:45:22
21:50:06 Ksusha Or with a tail like a piglet!
21:51:08
21:56:00 Ksusha Everything that mothers do for their children, I will do.
22:01:10
22:05:14 Kolya I'm here to get a referral to the HIV hospital
22:05:18
22:09:12 Kolya because my liver is hurting a lot...
22:10:01
22:12:15 Kolya and also to avoid the police!
22:23:07
22:27:20 Hospital doc You'll need to have more investigations done.
22:29:03
22:32:05 Hospital doc Let me hear your lungs.
22:40:13
22:44:00 Hospital doc I'll give you a referral for the clinic.
22:44:07
22:48:11 Kolya Can I go in three days?
22:48:14
22:51:23 Kolya I have to check in with the police.
22:53:02
22:55:20 Hospital doc - The longer you wait, the worse it will get.
22:56:00
22:58:15 Kolya Can you not put it off for four days?
22:58:24
23:02:20 Hospital doc The sooner we start treating your tuberculosis the better.
23:05:10
23:09:20 Kolya I was given a referral to the tuberculosis ward. #8
23:09:24
23:14:00 Kolya On Monday I will be admitted.
23:15:03
23:18:17 Kolya I didn't know I had it because I feel good.
23:19:11
23:22:11 Kolya I've seen people with tuberculosis. They were sick with a fever.
23:22:18
23:25:17 Kolya But I feel great.
23:26:06
23:30:17 Kolya I'm not afraid because I came to the hospital in time.
23:31:03
23:35:12 Kolya Unlike my friend who died from it.
23:36:12
23:39:09 Kolya My friends will be okay about it.
23:39:21
23:41:24 Kolya They might also have it.
23:56:01
23:59:06 Irina I don't feel good.
24:01:23
24:06:15 Rehab person 2 Here is the house where the girls live.
24:06:18
24:09:23 Irina What a house!
24:23:03
24:25:17 Rehab person 3 Hello.
24:32:01
24:36:17 Rehab person 3 Do you have any money, cigarettes or a phone?
24:39:22
24:45:09 Rehab person 2 This is sister Rimma, sister Yulia and Olyesia.
24:46:03
24:52:19 Rehab person 2 Because there aren't many girls, you can choose where you sleep.
24:53:21
24:57:20 Rehab person 2 / Irina How do you feel here? -Not so good.
24:58:00
25:
22 Rehab person 3 It's okay everybody feels like that at first.
25:01:06
25:03:22 Rehab person 2 Now we're going to a different house.
25:04:02
25:08:08 Rehab person 2 It's shared during the day but the boys stay there at night.
25:09:13
25:12:23 Irina I thought it was a pirate flag!
25:14:04
25:16:21 Rehab person 2 Irina, this is Sasha.
25:17:03
25:19:07 Sasha Come in.
25:31:16
25:34:03 Sasha The only thing I want to tell you Irina,
25:34:07
25:37:13 Sasha different people come here...
25:37:17
25:39:24 Sasha drug users, alcoholics...
25:40:06
25:42:16 Sasha it doesn't matter who you used to be.
25:42:21
25:46:02 Sasha If you want to leave all that behind you,
25:46:09
25:48:17 Sasha then you will be changed here.
25:48:21
25:51:05 Sasha You will be saved here.
25:51:11
25:55:09 Sasha If you don't break the rules,
25:55:17
26:
15 Sasha you will start to realise that you are changing. #9
26:02:02
26:06:03 Sasha We live in the country so you need to bring in the water,
26:06:11
26:10:19 Sasha wood for the stove so we stay warm.
26:11:12
26:14:20 Sasha You will take turns working in the kitchen.
26:15:06
26:18:23 Sasha You take a bath twice a week, on Wednesday and Saturday.
26:19:16
26:23:14 Sasha What was the purpose of your old life?
26:23:19
26:25:24 Sasha You lived like a vegetable.
26:26:09
26:29:11 Sasha You would just get up, sniff glue and shoot up.
26:29:16
26:32:12 Sasha There was no purpose whatsoever, correct?
26:32:15
26:35:07 Sasha Here we learn how to live.
26:35:11
26:38:00 Sasha Learn to live for real.
26:39:17
26:42:20 Sasha Everything depends on your desire.
26:43:02
26:46:10 Sasha Every person can be saved.
27:05:06
27:07:18 Sasha Irina has a big chance.
27:08:17
27:11:13 Sasha I can see it in her eyes.
27:12:19
27:15:08 Sasha God won't leave her.
27:15:15
27:17:15 Sasha That's for sure.
27:18:04
27:20:15 Sasha Neither will we.
27:35:07
27:38:06 Irina Are you filming?
28:01:08
28:05:06 Kolya The firefighters think we burned our place down.
28:09:10
28:13:02 Kolya For hours they were trying to put out the fire.
28:13:11
28:16:22 Kolya I don't feel bad that it burned down...
28:17:01
28:21:07 Kolya I feel bad they think it was us who burnt it down.
28:22:21
28:27:05 Kolya They were afraid that the fires would spread...
28:27:18
28:32:18 Kolya So after the fire they knocked everything down here.
28:35:17
28:40:09 Kolya We told them if you get rid of us...
28:40:18
28:43:18 Kolya ...then we will burn it all down.
28:44:05
28:47:15 Kolya So if we don't get it, nobody gets it.
28:48:08
28:52:17 Kolya So we began to live in this new place.
28:53:11
28:58:03 Kolya It's a smaller place so I don't sleep there.
28:58:08
29:01:05 Kolya It's very stuffy in there.
29:06:06
29:10:07 Kolya Before we all lived together,
29:10:12
29:14:03 Kolya but then I met Lena...
29:14:22
29:18:11 Kolya I feel a bit shy when we're with the others. #10
29:18:18
29:23:08 Kolya because we live like husband and wife.
29:25:11
29:28:17 Kolya I got ill from the toxic substances,
29:28:23
29:32:18 Kolya but I didn't sniff or inject for two weeks so I'm better.
29:39:11
29:45:19 Irina When I got to rehab it was hard for the first two weeks.
29:46:03
29:50:22 Irina I remember thinking about my friends, and about using drugs.
29:51:17
29:54:11 Irina Then they got on my nerves.
29:54:17
29:57:19 Irina I'm very hot tempered.
29:58:08
30:03:06 Irina They asked me why I was leaving.
30:04:01
30:07:08 Irina I told them I was visiting my friends.
30:07:13
30:11:09 Irina They said I would be lost, but I didn't listen.
30:11:16
30:15:02 Irina I never listen to anyone.
30:19:11
30:22:06 Ksusha Let me get it for you.
30:24:04
30:26:07 Ksusha Over there.
30:35:15
30:38:04 Ksusha Hurry up!
30:42:02
30:47:10 Ksusha I used to climb the fence and steal cabbage here.
30:48:03
30:53:07 Ksusha that's how I met the old folks, and they said I could live here.
30:54:22
30:57:08 Ksusha It's an old hut.
30:58:14
31:01:02 Ksusha I've lived here for about a month and a half.
31:01:08
31:03:24 Ksusha I can't understand why it's such a mess!
31:10:07
31:14:15 Ksusha Did you see my cat anywhere?
31:16:03
31:20:24 Ksusha I planted cucumbers but the moles took them.
31:21:12
31:25:07 Ksusha I planted onions and they were fine.
31:25:13
31:28:18 Ksusha We already ate the onions and the dill.
31:31:05
31:33:04 Crew Do you miss the guys?
31:33:06
31:35:24 Ksusha No, not at all. I'm fine here.
31:36:14
31:38:19 Ksusha I don't want to be friends with them.
31:38:22
31:41:06 Crew What do you think about Irina?
31:41:11
31:44:17 Ksusha She's an idiot. She ran away from the rehab centre.
31:44:23
31:48:12 Ksusha She will sink to a lower level and get acne again.
31:48:19
31:51:10 Ksusha She will begin to sniff glue a lot.
31:52:03
31:54:06 Ksusha I began to forget about them.
31:54:13
31:59:07 Ksusha Before I would worry about people...
31:59:20
32:02:08 Ksusha Now if someone dies I won't even visit the grave, #11
32:02:14
32:05:23 Ksusha They don't care about me, so why should I?
32:07:15
32:11:01 Kolya I came to the court with a packed bag.
32:11:12
32:14:12 Kolya The judge said that it's good that you brought your bag with you.
32:14:19
32:18:17 Kolya So I thought I was done for.
32:19:04
32:24:01 Kolya I thought it would be a year or two in prison,
32:24:04
32:28:02 Kolya or in a settlement, which is better.
32:28:06
32:34:20 Kolya so they read the judgement...
32:35:22
32:40:22 Kolya I crossed my fingers and prayed to the devil.
32:41:02
32:45:08 Kolya I asked him please, please give me a conditional sentence,
32:45:13
32:48:06 Kolya because I have a girlfriend.
32:48:10
32:52:19 Kolya Then I stood up...
32:53:02
33:01:00 Kolya They said 'Kolya, born in 1988, and living at this address',
33:01:05
33:05:16 Kolya 'single, no children...
33:05:21
33:09:08 Kolya ...infected with HIV',
33:09:12
33:13:18 Kolya 'is sentenced to three years'...
33:13:20
33:17:01 Kolya I felt really bad, my heart was beating fast.
33:17:06
33:19:22 Kolya My mother started crying.
33:20:03
33:23:06 Kolya ...'suspended for three years with probation'.
33:23:09
33:26:07 Kolya I had such a joy in my heart!
33:26:13
33:29:22 Kolya I said thank you comrade...
33:29:24
33:33:16 Kolya ...I promise I will get a job.
34:
08
34:04:21 Kolya I come here often.
34:05:07
34:08:00 Kolya Come and kiss your daddy!
34:08:07
34:12:24 Kolya I like this place because of it's height.
34:13:23
34:20:14 Kolya There's a sense of freedom when I'm alone and nobody’s bothering me.
34:20:24
34:26:21 Kolya You can shout and look at the city from above.
34:29:12
34:34:16 Kolya So I sniff some glue and jump around and nobody's interfering.
34:40:16
34:44:10 Kolya I thought about jumping when I was little,
34:44:15
34:48:03 Kolya when I lived at home and my mother was drinking.
34:48:21
34:57:00 Kolya I told her that if you don't stop drinking and screwing around I will jump.
35:
15
35:07:19 Kolya I don't have a reason to jump yet, it's scary to lose your life this way. #12
35:09:02
35:11:14 Crew Do you like your life?
35:11:17
35:15:04 Kolya Yes I like it, I like it very much.
35:16:11
35:19:19 Kolya That I exist, that somebody loves me.
35:20:03
35:24:08 Kolya This HIV will cut me down.
35:24:12
35:28:12 Kolya I will suffer from it, and it will do me in...
35:29:01
35:32:15 Kolya ...but what can you do about it?
35:41:08
35:44:12 Crew You told me that you don't shoot up.
35:45:04
35:48:07 Kolya They're old marks.
35:50:18
35:54:14 Kolya These are scars. They're not going away.
35:57:05
35:59:16 Kolya I shot up for such a long time.
35:59:22
36:03:00 Kolya You can ask anybody.
36:03:04
36:06:09 Kolya I'll get Vova.
37:24:20
37:30:07 Crew You just told us that the last time you did it was 2-3 months ago.
37:31:11
37:33:24 Kolya Well I shot up yesterday.
37:34:08
37:37:03 Kolya I was ashamed to say it.
37:39:05
37:46:09 Kolya If me and Lena worked, we wouldn't mind having a baby.
37:47:17
37:51:01 Kolya That's my greatest dream.
37:51:07
37:55:06 Kolya I would give everything I've got to a child.
37:57:04
38:01:18 Kolya I will go to my Mum's dacha and overcome the addictions.
38:02:06
38:07:00 Kolya When I come back I won't be using any drugs.
38:08:01
38:12:07 Kolya I already gave up sniffing glue.
38:12:21
38:18:15 Kolya Well I sniffed some polish yesterday, but I don't really sniff anymore.
38:19:08
38:24:06 Kolya But for a child I would do everything. Everything.
38:25:20
38:28:07 Kolya I decided to have a rest for a week.
38:28:11
38:31:12 Kolya get a rest from the city...
38:32:02
38:35:20 Kolya and from all my habits.
38:36:23
38:40:01 Kolya - Bad habits.
38:40:17
38:43:20 Kolya’s Mum I invite everybody to sit at the table.
38:44:01
38:47:04 Crew How is all this?
38:50:10
38:55:19 Kolya’s Mum Kolya being the only boy was spoiled by everyone.
38:56:09
39:
00 Kolya’s Mum We allowed him to do anything.
39:
19
39:06:19 Kolya’s Mum He liked to misbehave and joke around. #13
39:07:07
39:10:09 Kolya’s Mum He liked to run around on the streets with the other boys.
39:10:22
39:14:04 Kolya’s Mum They would sniff glue and hang around the market.
39:14:15
39:18:13 Kolya’s Mum Some of the kids were not even from our city...
39:19:02
39:22:02 Kolya’s Mum ...they were runaways.
39:22:10
39:26:15 Kolya’s Mum I don't know where they stayed at night.
39:27:05
39:31:10 Kolya’s Mum Kolya saw it all and that's how he met them.
39:33:15
39:36:09 Crew Where is Kolya's father?
39:36:15
39:39:07 Kolya’s Mum Kolya's father died.
39:39:13
39:42:12 Kolya’s Mum Let's not talk about it.
39:46:01
39:49:22 Kolya’s Mum We didn't used to have these problems.
39:50:06
39:53:09 Kolya’s Mum No homeless, no glue sniffers.
39:53:15
39:56:04 Kolya’s Mum Now we have a lot of homeless.
39:56:15
40:
00 Kolya’s Mum When the Soviet Union fell apart, life became harder.
40:
06
40:03:05 Kolya’s Mum People get drunk and don't watch over their children.
40:03:09
40:06:00 Kolya’s Mum Life became like that.
40:06:04
40:10:05 Kolya’s Mum We have to get out of it somehow.
40:11:22
40:15:04 Kolya Maybe it's time for me to start a normal life.
40:15:08
40:17:12 Kolya Drop all of this.
40:17:21
40:21:21 Kolya It will be better when I have a job.
40:22:03
40:25:16 Kolya When I have a job and a family...
40:26:24
40:29:05 Kolya ...everything will be fine.
40:39:14
40:42:08 Crew What happened to your arm?
40:44:04
40:46:14 Denis I fell down.
40:48:02
40:50:07 Crew What really happened?
40:50:11
40:53:21 Denis I was shooting up with pain killers.
40:55:07
40:59:17 Denis They took some tweezers and began to cut.
41:01:02
41:03:19 Denis Began to cut the arm.
41:04:09
41:09:10 Crew Did they know about your lifestyle?
41:10:20
41:14:21 Denis Yeah I told them that I live on the street.
41:27:22
41:30:20 Ksusha It's hard to lose a person.
41:31:00
41:33:19 Ksusha You get used to them.
41:39:11
41:43:21 Ksusha I have a different circle of friends now.
41:44:18
41:48:04 Ksusha I pay more attention to my life now.
41:48:11
41:51:19 Ksusha I'm looking at how people around me live. #14
41:53:22
41:59:02 Ksusha If I continued the way I lived, continued to drink,
41:59:09
42:02:18 Ksusha shoot up and continue visiting those guys,
42:02:22
42:06:21 Ksusha then in a couple of years I will be lying here.
42:07:16
42:11:24 Ksusha I want to become an old lady, sit on a bench and gossip.
42:17:10
42:22:17 Ksusha If it wasn't for Denis, they wouldn't have anything to eat.
42:23:12
42:28:15 Ksusha They beat him up if he doesn't beg for money.
42:29:05
42:32:11 Ksusha They use the poor invalid and take everything.
42:33:10
42:35:24 Crew You're the main provider here?
42:36:02
42:37:20 Denis Yes.
42:38:00
42:40:22 Crew How do you feel about it?
42:41:07
42:43:19 Denis I'm already tired of it.
42:44:01
42:47:03 Denis To be honest with you I am tired of it.
42:47:19
42:50:02 Denis I feel worn out.
42:50:07
42:53:08 Denis This life has worn me out.
43:02:06
43:05:18 Denis Do you know 'The Swine'?
43:06:18
43:12:07 Denis He comes to the market and takes my money.
43:25:07
43:26:18 Denis How much?
43:26:20
43:28:20 Kolya Three hundred.
43:29:09
43:32:06 Kolya Half now and half later.
43:35:14
43:38:23 Kolya Do you have anything to eat?
43:41:08
43:44:10 Crew Who is it?
43:44:24
43:48:03 Denis 'The Swine' - You know him.
43:48:10
43:50:19 Denis Kolya.
44:18:11
44:22:21 Crew Who is making you beg most of all, Kolya?
44:23:09
44:26:16 Denis All of them.
44:27:16
44:30:22 Denis Everybody.
44:34:20
44:38:24 Kolya Denis made 80 rubles and some change.
44:47:02
44:49:24 Kolya 150 rubles altogether.
44:51:10
44:54:11 Denis I told you I will give it to you in the evening.
44:56:00
44:59:06 Kolya I have to give back what I owe by eight o'clock!
45:07:08
45:12:20 Denis Listen to what I tell you, it's a secret.
45:13:19
45:17:01 Denis For a long time I've wanted to die.
45:17:06
45:20:22 Denis I don't want to live this life. #15
45:21:11
45:24:08 Denis I want a normal life, a place to stay.
45:24:13
45:27:16 Denis I want a girlfriend.
45:31:04
45:33:22 Denis I want a child.
45:34:02
45:37:01 Denis But it's not happening.
45:37:10
45:40:19 Denis It's not happening.
45:57:22
46:02:10 Crew Don't you think about running away?
46:02:19
46:06:19 Denis I thought about it, but I don't know where to.
46:07:03
46:11:07 Denis I don't have an apartment or a place to stay.
46:12:06
46:16:06 Denis I have no place to spend the night.
46:16:24
46:21:00 Denis Otherwise I would have left them a long time ago.
46:21:12
46:25:08 Denis A long time ago I would have left them.
46:49:05
46:52:16 Crew Did you take his money?
46:52:22
46:56:08 Kolya No, he gave me what he owed.
46:58:05
47:04:05 Kolya Sometimes we take his money, even when he doesn't owe anything.
47:05:03
47:07:22 Kolya Well we ask and he gives it.
47:14:07
47:17:04 Ksusha It's dangerous with them.
47:17:12
47:22:08 Ksusha If someone over uses drugs or drinks too much...
47:22:16
47:30:05 Ksusha It might turn out that one of the guys is a maniac.
47:30:17
47:34:14 Kolya I'm cunning like a fox.
47:38:18
47:41:08 Ksusha They're all wild eyed there!
47:42:06
47:45:06 Ksusha Everybody is for himself.
47:45:18
47:50:04 Ksusha I don't get how you hit someone you live with,
47:50:16
47:55:11 Ksusha Just because he didn't give you a cigarette or a drink.
47:55:22
47:59:04 Ksusha Or because he didn't go out and beg...
47:59:09
48:02:01 Ksusha To hit and degrade him...
48:02:05
48:04:20 Ksusha You live with him, in the same place.
48:04:23
48:07:19 Ksusha I don't understand these people.
48:08:06
48:10:22 Ksusha My heart goes for Denis,
48:11:22
48:13:24 Ksusha He has nobody to turn to.
48:14:11
48:17:20 Ksusha Plus he is handicapped.
48:22:23
48:26:02 Irina In time our group is going to disintegrate.
48:26:08
48:29:09 Irina Some will go to prison, some will return home.
48:32:16
48:36:24 Denis When will I stop living with them?
48:37:07
48:40:00 Denis When? #16
48:49:04
48:51:19 Denis I want to find an apartment.
48:52:11
48:54:20 Denis Or live in a shelter.
48:59:04
49:01:22 Denis Sleep inside a warm bed...
49:02:13
49:05:20 Denis Eat something hot every day... #17
01:59:01
02:02:20 Ksusha Christmas is a time when people shouldn't quarrel.
02:11:16
02:15:00 Ksusha Our life is a fairytale! We are fairytale kids...
02:15:24
02:18:17 Kolya Everything around here seems magic to us.
02:19:03
02:21:24 Kolya That's why we call this place 'Fairytale'.
02:22:13
02:24:14 Ksusha Everyone here has a nickname...
02:24:18
02:27:12 Ksusha Doesn't he look like Shrek?
02:27:18
02:29:19 Off-cam Kolya is called The Swine.
02:30:03
02:33:01 Ksusha This is Chow Chow the doggy.
02:33:16
02:36:06 Ksusha Kolya is a good boy.
02:36:11
02:40:02 Ksusha He always stands up for the girls.
02:41:20
02:44:24 Kolya I'm not the chief but...
02:45:05
02:48:20 Kolya I'm the one with common sense.
02:50:03
02:54:10 Kolya No one here wants to fight me...
02:54:23
02:57:24 Kolya I'm the strongest here, for now.
02:58:06
03:01:24 Vova We get to do what we like here.
03:02:07
03:05:09 Vova On the streets... it's romantic.
03:05:20
03:09:03 Ksusha Yesterday he was telling me that he loves me!
03:09:06
03:12:03 Ksusha He kissed me on the cheek, on the lips!
03:12:09
03:15:00 Ksusha 'Ksusha, I love you!'
03:15:04
03:16:06 Ksusha Denis!
03:16:11
03:18:15 Vova We are all one family.
03:18:21
03:21:20 Vova We're all equal.
03:23:01
03:27:05 Ksusha That's how we live. We're surviving.
03:39:21
03:44:13 Ksusha I miss my mother. If she was alive, I wouldn't be on the streets.
03:44:20
03:48:11 Ksusha I was always at home.
03:50:18
03:55:13 Ksusha She never shouted at me.
03:56:20
04:
04 Ksusha She was very kind, like my grandmother.
04:01:13
04:04:12 Ksusha My brother came home one day...
04:04:16
04:07:20 Ksusha and told us mother was missing.
04:08:22
04:14:04 Ksusha The police found her body near the river. #1
04:14:17
04:17:23 Ksusha I couldn't believe that she was gone.
04:18:04
04:23:19 Ksusha After school I would run towards women shouting 'Mama, Mama'!
04:23:23
04:27:09 Ksusha but then I'd see it wasn't her.
04:27:17
04:31:19 Ksusha For years I didn't believe she was dead.
04:32:02
04:35:08 Ksusha Then my grandmother said to me...
04:35:14
04:39:11 Ksusha 'Look, Ksusha, she's gone'.
04:46:11
04:49:23 Ksusha He's only had 3 years of education!
04:50:06
04:53:19 Kolya Yeah but I've stolen more than you've eaten pies!
04:54:00
04:57:06 Ksusha What's your profession?
04:57:11
05:
07 Kolya I'm a country-house thief!
05:04:16
05:07:00 Kolya I'm used to living on the streets.
05:07:03
05:09:14 Kolya I grew up with my friends and I'm attached to them.
05:09:19
05:13:19 Kolya I can't live at home and I can't work a job.
05:14:18
05:19:05 Kolya Excuse me, do you have two rubles for the bus.
05:20:05
05:22:08 Kolya I used to steal at the market.
05:22:10
05:24:01 Kolya Many of us did.
05:24:03
05:27:02 Kolya You can go through the Chinese market...
05:27:04
05:30:22 Kolya ...grab something, and sell it.
05:31:07
05:34:12 Kolya They just spank you when you're small...
05:34:17
05:38:01 Kolya but now it's not just a spank!
05:40:00
05:42:17 Kolya We divide our work.
05:42:22
05:45:16 Kolya Some work night, some do the day.
05:45:23
05:50:14 Kolya Alek, Kulochok and Sasha beg for money at night.
05:51:03
05:56:00 Kolya We also have girls, Zhanna, Irina, Larisa.
05:57:02
06:
06 Kolya They're working the streets...
06:01:07
06:03:19 Kolya selling their bodies.
06:06:20
06:12:07 Irina I was a baby when my mother went to prison...
06:12:14
06:15:09 Irina for murder.
06:19:14
06:22:06 Irina I'm not in touch with her, but I know where she lives.
06:22:08
06:24:22 Irina Not far from here...
06:25:24
06:29:10 Irina The guards at the hostel call the police.
06:29:16
06:33:18 Irina They try to prevent me from visiting her.
06:34:01
06:37:18 Irina They're afraid that I'm the way my mother is. #2
06:46:02
06:47:12 Irina Be quiet, Mother!
06:47:15
06:49:21 Irina - Just get away from here!
06:54:03
06:56:14 Irina She's drunk.
06:58:10
07:01:03 Irina I'm not talking to you anymore.
07:01:10
07:03:13 Irina If you need a place to stay go and look for it.
07:03:16
07:05:09 Irina But they want to talk to you!
07:05:12
07:08:07 Irina Don't come here again.
07:09:01
07:14:14 Irina My father was always drunk so I was taken away.
07:15:00
07:18:14 Irina Taken to the orphanage...
07:18:19
07:23:23 Irina but I kept running away from there.
07:31:21
07:35:22 Denis I was beaten up and left in the snow for 24 hours...
07:36:11
07:39:13 Denis ...lying unconscious against a hot pipe.
07:39:22
07:42:16 Denis The pipe burnt my frozen fingers.
07:43:00
07:45:23 Denis They stole my jacket and other clothes.
07:46:17
07:51:04 Denis They took everything, including my ID papers,
07:51:11
07:54:13 Denis and the money I had.
07:54:21
07:58:06 Denis I still don't have any ID.
07:59:02
08:03:04 Denis Since I froze my fingers off my memory is very bad.
08:03:17
08:10:02 Denis When I came out of hospital, I couldn't recognise my friends.
08:10:22
08:15:10 Denis They told me we are friends, that I live with them.
08:15:24
08:20:00 Denis I believed them, and now I live with them.
08:22:10
08:24:22 Denis My mother died when I was small...
08:24:24
08:27:06 Denis ...and my father drank.
08:27:17
08:31:14 Denis He sold the apartment and sent me to live with my aunt.
08:32:04
08:36:17 Denis When I had my fingers, my aunt loved me...
08:36:24
08:41:08 Denis but when I lost them she just stopped.
08:42:06
08:45:00 Denis Stopped loving me.
08:48:15
08:50:22 Kolya Everything was going fine...
08:51:09
08:55:00 Kolya We went to a country-house and stole two gas tanks.
08:55:14
08:59:04 Kolya We put them in a car and drove off.
09:
19
09:03:11 Kolya Then got stopped by the police.
09:04:06
09:07:01 Kolya Soon will be the court date.
09:07:13
09:09:20 Kolya I'll definitely not steal now. #3
09:10:00
09:11:23 Kolya Well, maybe...
09:12:01
09:14:00 Kolya Only if I'm careful.
09:21:02
09:25:07 Ksusha There's no running water here. It's very dirty.
09:25:14
09:29:12 Ksusha The place we had before was warmer, we had light and we could wash...
09:35:19
09:39:19 Ksusha This is our underground home where we live.
09:41:15
09:43:14 Ksusha Be careful!
09:46:19
09:50:21 Ksusha It's an enormous basement!
09:52:17
09:54:18 Ksusha This is where we wash.
09:54:22
09:56:16 Ksusha There's soap here.
09:56:23
10:
18 Ksusha There's even a bucket to wash clothes in.
10:01:19
10:04:04 Ksusha We can wash our hands.
10:05:21
10:09:07 Ksusha Here's how we clean our clothes and shoes.
10:09:12
10:12:11 Ksusha The other girls wash here.
10:13:01
10:15:16 Ksusha Now I'll show you where we sleep.
10:16:21
10:19:21 Ksusha Along the side is the toilet.
10:21:01
10:23:17 Ksusha Here are our beds!
10:23:22
10:25:17 Ksusha It's comfortable and warm!
10:25:22
10:27:17 Ksusha This is where we sleep!
10:27:23
10:32:04 Ksusha There are the hot water pipes.
10:33:16
10:36:01 Ksusha It's great! You won't get bitten!
10:36:10
10:41:04 Ksusha This is where I slept today.
10:43:02
10:47:19 Ksusha This is our room where we eat,
10:47:23
10:51:17 Ksusha play cards, sniff glue, inject...
10:51:22
10:56:18 Ksusha put make-up on, sleep, hang out!
10:57:05
11:
17 Ksusha The basement was a much better place.
11:01:00
11:03:20 Ksusha Here you get covered with frost when you sleep.
11:03:24
11:06:03 Ksusha It's much worse here.
11:08:20
11:11:19 Girl I want to sleep!
11:12:04
11:15:01 Denis This is pizza from the garbage.
11:15:10
11:18:02 Denis Would you like some?
11:22:05
11:26:05 Denis It's only me going out to beg, bringing food.
11:26:20
11:31:02 Denis I don't know how they don't get bored hanging around all the time.
11:31:21
11:34:13 Ksusha We're now going to visit Zakhar. #4
11:34:20
11:38:03 Ksusha We're going to visit him, and give him some food...
11:38:08
11:41:14 Ksusha and find out how he is doing.
11:43:22
11:47:10 Ksusha He lives by the pipes because he has no apartment.
11:48:19
11:51:08 Ksusha It's like the tundra here!
11:58:03
12:
17 Ksusha Come on!
12:05:21
12:08:17 Ksusha Oh here comes Zakharov!
12:12:16
12:14:22 Ksusha Come here my love!
12:23:05
12:26:24 Ksusha Hi Zakhar, I brought you something to eat.
12:29:17
12:32:11 Ksusha Are you going to spend the whole winter here?
12:32:15
12:35:19 Ksusha You'll freeze and you've already lost weight.
12:37:00
12:40:12 Ksusha No matter where we lived, he would always read books.
12:40:16
12:44:17 Ksusha In the bathhouse, in the shed, everywhere.
12:44:24
12:48:04 Ksusha Even on the pipes he's reading!
12:48:10
12:51:22 Ksusha He's a book worm.
12:53:09
12:56:02 Ksusha I respect him.
12:57:01
12:59:18 Ksusha He's a cool guy.
13:01:15
13:05:06 Ksusha He has Tuberculosis.
13:11:13
13:13:23 Kulochok Hello is that the ambulance?
13:14:07
13:18:10 Kulochok Can you come to 81 Pushkin Street.
13:18:23
13:21:20 Kulochok Yes, we need an ambulance.
13:23:03
13:25:05 Kulochok We're on the street.
13:26:12
13:30:13 Kulochok Alek has turned himself into the HIV clinic many times.
13:31:03
13:34:20 Kulochok To raise his immune cell count.
13:35:04
13:38:18 Kulochok He should go there every 6 months.
13:39:11
13:43:00 Kulochok When he starts to feel bad, we send him there.
13:44:14
13:48:14 Kulochok He stays there a month or two and afterwards they let him go.
13:51:09
13:55:04 Kulochok He can die quickly in this condition.
13:55:16
13:59:06 Kulochok When we get money we buy him medicine,
13:59:16
14:03:15 Kulochok and he gets better, otherwise he just lies there.
14:04:18
14:09:03 Kulochok If we hadn't called the ambulance then he'd die in a few days.
14:20:04
14:23:10 Kolya Nothing happens during the day... #5
14:23:17
14:26:14 Kolya At night, it's more fun.
14:51:07
14:53:19 All My dear mother...
14:53:21
14:56:20 All I don't blame you...
14:57:18
15:
13 All deserting me so young...
15:04:15
15:07:24 Police This is a police search! Everyone line up.
15:16:12
15:18:12 Police Who are those people?
15:18:14
15:20:10 Vova Americans.
15:20:12
15:23:09 Crew (Crew) We're not Americans...
15:25:08
15:30:18 Crew ...we work with a charity called 'Zashita'.
15:33:20
15:37:01 Crew We're filming...
15:37:08
15:40:21 Crew ...how they live.
15:43:02
15:45:17 Police Everybody outside!
15:48:16
15:50:10 Police No filming!
15:54:02
15:58:11 Vova When the cops came in...
15:59:14
16:02:22 Vova I climbed on the roof.
16:04:08
16:10:11 Vova They pick on us because we're homeless.
16:12:22
16:19:03 Vova They don't care about... a child on the streets.
16:20:20
16:24:02 Vova Even if he's floating in the river...
16:24:06
16:28:19 Vova Unless he's being investigated, they don't care.
16:30:06
16:34:05 Ksusha They screamed at us, 'How many times...'
16:34:12
16:37:21 Ksusha They checked if we were wanted.
16:37:24
16:41:12 Ksusha Sometimes they get physical.
16:41:16
16:44:18 Ksusha To them, we're garbage.
16:45:01
16:51:12 Ksusha They tried to hit Denis over the hands...
16:52:18
16:57:07 Ksusha I said no... don't touch him.
17:06:11
17:11:02 Irina I've decided to go to a rehab centre.
17:12:10
17:15:09 Irina I'm sick of living this lifestyle.
17:23:20
17:26:08 Svetlana We will come tomorrow.
17:26:12
17:28:13 Svetlana Her name is Irina.
17:28:16
17:31:12 Svetlana Thank you, see you tomorrow.
17:32:07
17:35:15 Svetlana If you're sure then go for it.
17:35:20
17:41:18 Svetlana It's going to be hard there. But if you hang on, it'll get easier.
17:42:02
17:45:05 Svetlana One thing I'm going to tell you... #6
17:45:09
17:50:23 Svetlana ...if it gets hard or you get nervous, just go outside and shout!
17:56:16
17:59:23 Irina Where is my other shoe?
18:02:10
18:05:07 Irina I don't even have a hair brush.
18:06:24
18:10:17 Irina Irina, leave your glue bag here.
18:11:04
18:13:17 Off-cam Leave her alone!
18:16:22
18:19:23 Irina I started leading this lifestyle when I was ten.
18:20:03
18:23:09 Irina I found this group of friends...
18:23:16
18:27:19 Irina and we just got used to each other.
18:32:22
18:37:06 Irina Sooner or later we're going to part ways,
18:37:11
18:41:04 Irina whether we like it or not.
18:45:18
18:50:09 Rehab person 1 Here are the rules for the rehab centre.
18:50:15
18:56:11 Rehab person 1 It's forbidden to swear, to lie, to steal...
18:56:15
18:59:17 Rehab person 1 ...smoking, drinking and using drugs.
19:
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19:04:11 Rehab person 1 You can't have a large sum of money or a mobile phone.
19:13:08
19:18:17 Irina I'm afraid that after a while I'll go back and see my friends...
19:18:22
19:22:12 Irina and it will start all over again.
19:22:19
19:28:12 Irina I wish my friends would stop using drugs too.
19:33:02
19:35:16 Vova It's a medical spirit.
19:35:24
19:38:19 Vova It's for your heart.
19:38:23
19:41:21 Vova You're meant to have a teaspoon, or less.
19:41:24
19:45:22 Vova We drink it in large quantities.
19:47:06
19:50:12 Ksusha My period is late.
19:51:11
19:54:23 Ksusha I even read it in my horoscope.
19:55:02
19:57:14 Ksusha And it seems that I'm, you know...
19:57:19
20:
00 Ksusha I just need to buy a test.
20:
05
20:03:04 Ksusha Or maybe I'm just fat!
20:17:17
20:19:21 Clinic nurse Do you have a delay in your period?
20:20:03
20:22:12 Ksusha Yes two months already.
20:22:24
20:25:19 Ksusha I have dizziness and I have nausea.
20:25:24
20:28:06 Ksusha Mostly nausea.
20:28:12
20:31:02 Clinic nurse Let's do the test now.
20:32:15
20:35:20 Clinic nurse Now you'll go to the toilet. #7
20:36:08
20:40:07 Clinic nurse / Ksusha You need to urinate in the glass. - Oh I can't do that.
20:40:12
20:43:19 Clinic nurse and we will do the test together.
20:45:07
20:48:16 Ksusha I don't need a pee!
20:53:00
20:57:21 Ksusha Could I have experienced a delay because I drink?
20:57:23
21:
04 Clinic nurse Delays can be according to many reasons.
21:
12
21:03:10 Clinic nurse What do you use for contraception?
21:03:17
21:11:18 Ksusha I usually have a condom, but this time I didn't have one.
21:12:09
21:15:15 Clinic nurse I want to tell you that your test is negative.
21:15:23
21:21:05 Clinic nurse If there were two lines then it would be positive.
21:22:05
21:25:18 Ksusha If it was positive then of course I would have given birth.
21:26:02
21:28:24 Ksusha I would have changed my lifestyle immediately.
21:29:03
21:32:14 Ksusha I couldn't live in that fairytale with my baby.
21:32:20
21:35:00 Ksusha I still have some brains left!
21:35:03
21:37:23 Ksusha I haven't completely drunk and sniffed my brain away!
21:38:01
21:40:22 Ksusha I know if you live a lifestyle like us...
21:40:24
21:45:16 Ksusha ...you might have a baby with Down's syndrome or with three legs!
21:45:22
21:50:06 Ksusha Or with a tail like a piglet!
21:51:08
21:56:00 Ksusha Everything that mothers do for their children, I will do.
22:01:10
22:05:14 Kolya I'm here to get a referral to the HIV hospital
22:05:18
22:09:12 Kolya because my liver is hurting a lot...
22:10:01
22:12:15 Kolya and also to avoid the police!
22:23:07
22:27:20 Hospital doc You'll need to have more investigations done.
22:29:03
22:32:05 Hospital doc Let me hear your lungs.
22:40:13
22:44:00 Hospital doc I'll give you a referral for the clinic.
22:44:07
22:48:11 Kolya Can I go in three days?
22:48:14
22:51:23 Kolya I have to check in with the police.
22:53:02
22:55:20 Hospital doc - The longer you wait, the worse it will get.
22:56:00
22:58:15 Kolya Can you not put it off for four days?
22:58:24
23:02:20 Hospital doc The sooner we start treating your tuberculosis the better.
23:05:10
23:09:20 Kolya I was given a referral to the tuberculosis ward. #8
23:09:24
23:14:00 Kolya On Monday I will be admitted.
23:15:03
23:18:17 Kolya I didn't know I had it because I feel good.
23:19:11
23:22:11 Kolya I've seen people with tuberculosis. They were sick with a fever.
23:22:18
23:25:17 Kolya But I feel great.
23:26:06
23:30:17 Kolya I'm not afraid because I came to the hospital in time.
23:31:03
23:35:12 Kolya Unlike my friend who died from it.
23:36:12
23:39:09 Kolya My friends will be okay about it.
23:39:21
23:41:24 Kolya They might also have it.
23:56:01
23:59:06 Irina I don't feel good.
24:01:23
24:06:15 Rehab person 2 Here is the house where the girls live.
24:06:18
24:09:23 Irina What a house!
24:23:03
24:25:17 Rehab person 3 Hello.
24:32:01
24:36:17 Rehab person 3 Do you have any money, cigarettes or a phone?
24:39:22
24:45:09 Rehab person 2 This is sister Rimma, sister Yulia and Olyesia.
24:46:03
24:52:19 Rehab person 2 Because there aren't many girls, you can choose where you sleep.
24:53:21
24:57:20 Rehab person 2 / Irina How do you feel here? -Not so good.
24:58:00
25:
22 Rehab person 3 It's okay everybody feels like that at first.
25:01:06
25:03:22 Rehab person 2 Now we're going to a different house.
25:04:02
25:08:08 Rehab person 2 It's shared during the day but the boys stay there at night.
25:09:13
25:12:23 Irina I thought it was a pirate flag!
25:14:04
25:16:21 Rehab person 2 Irina, this is Sasha.
25:17:03
25:19:07 Sasha Come in.
25:31:16
25:34:03 Sasha The only thing I want to tell you Irina,
25:34:07
25:37:13 Sasha different people come here...
25:37:17
25:39:24 Sasha drug users, alcoholics...
25:40:06
25:42:16 Sasha it doesn't matter who you used to be.
25:42:21
25:46:02 Sasha If you want to leave all that behind you,
25:46:09
25:48:17 Sasha then you will be changed here.
25:48:21
25:51:05 Sasha You will be saved here.
25:51:11
25:55:09 Sasha If you don't break the rules,
25:55:17
26:
15 Sasha you will start to realise that you are changing. #9
26:02:02
26:06:03 Sasha We live in the country so you need to bring in the water,
26:06:11
26:10:19 Sasha wood for the stove so we stay warm.
26:11:12
26:14:20 Sasha You will take turns working in the kitchen.
26:15:06
26:18:23 Sasha You take a bath twice a week, on Wednesday and Saturday.
26:19:16
26:23:14 Sasha What was the purpose of your old life?
26:23:19
26:25:24 Sasha You lived like a vegetable.
26:26:09
26:29:11 Sasha You would just get up, sniff glue and shoot up.
26:29:16
26:32:12 Sasha There was no purpose whatsoever, correct?
26:32:15
26:35:07 Sasha Here we learn how to live.
26:35:11
26:38:00 Sasha Learn to live for real.
26:39:17
26:42:20 Sasha Everything depends on your desire.
26:43:02
26:46:10 Sasha Every person can be saved.
27:05:06
27:07:18 Sasha Irina has a big chance.
27:08:17
27:11:13 Sasha I can see it in her eyes.
27:12:19
27:15:08 Sasha God won't leave her.
27:15:15
27:17:15 Sasha That's for sure.
27:18:04
27:20:15 Sasha Neither will we.
27:35:07
27:38:06 Irina Are you filming?
28:01:08
28:05:06 Kolya The firefighters think we burned our place down.
28:09:10
28:13:02 Kolya For hours they were trying to put out the fire.
28:13:11
28:16:22 Kolya I don't feel bad that it burned down...
28:17:01
28:21:07 Kolya I feel bad they think it was us who burnt it down.
28:22:21
28:27:05 Kolya They were afraid that the fires would spread...
28:27:18
28:32:18 Kolya So after the fire they knocked everything down here.
28:35:17
28:40:09 Kolya We told them if you get rid of us...
28:40:18
28:43:18 Kolya ...then we will burn it all down.
28:44:05
28:47:15 Kolya So if we don't get it, nobody gets it.
28:48:08
28:52:17 Kolya So we began to live in this new place.
28:53:11
28:58:03 Kolya It's a smaller place so I don't sleep there.
28:58:08
29:01:05 Kolya It's very stuffy in there.
29:06:06
29:10:07 Kolya Before we all lived together,
29:10:12
29:14:03 Kolya but then I met Lena...
29:14:22
29:18:11 Kolya I feel a bit shy when we're with the others. #10
29:18:18
29:23:08 Kolya because we live like husband and wife.
29:25:11
29:28:17 Kolya I got ill from the toxic substances,
29:28:23
29:32:18 Kolya but I didn't sniff or inject for two weeks so I'm better.
29:39:11
29:45:19 Irina When I got to rehab it was hard for the first two weeks.
29:46:03
29:50:22 Irina I remember thinking about my friends, and about using drugs.
29:51:17
29:54:11 Irina Then they got on my nerves.
29:54:17
29:57:19 Irina I'm very hot tempered.
29:58:08
30:03:06 Irina They asked me why I was leaving.
30:04:01
30:07:08 Irina I told them I was visiting my friends.
30:07:13
30:11:09 Irina They said I would be lost, but I didn't listen.
30:11:16
30:15:02 Irina I never listen to anyone.
30:19:11
30:22:06 Ksusha Let me get it for you.
30:24:04
30:26:07 Ksusha Over there.
30:35:15
30:38:04 Ksusha Hurry up!
30:42:02
30:47:10 Ksusha I used to climb the fence and steal cabbage here.
30:48:03
30:53:07 Ksusha that's how I met the old folks, and they said I could live here.
30:54:22
30:57:08 Ksusha It's an old hut.
30:58:14
31:01:02 Ksusha I've lived here for about a month and a half.
31:01:08
31:03:24 Ksusha I can't understand why it's such a mess!
31:10:07
31:14:15 Ksusha Did you see my cat anywhere?
31:16:03
31:20:24 Ksusha I planted cucumbers but the moles took them.
31:21:12
31:25:07 Ksusha I planted onions and they were fine.
31:25:13
31:28:18 Ksusha We already ate the onions and the dill.
31:31:05
31:33:04 Crew Do you miss the guys?
31:33:06
31:35:24 Ksusha No, not at all. I'm fine here.
31:36:14
31:38:19 Ksusha I don't want to be friends with them.
31:38:22
31:41:06 Crew What do you think about Irina?
31:41:11
31:44:17 Ksusha She's an idiot. She ran away from the rehab centre.
31:44:23
31:48:12 Ksusha She will sink to a lower level and get acne again.
31:48:19
31:51:10 Ksusha She will begin to sniff glue a lot.
31:52:03
31:54:06 Ksusha I began to forget about them.
31:54:13
31:59:07 Ksusha Before I would worry about people...
31:59:20
32:02:08 Ksusha Now if someone dies I won't even visit the grave, #11
32:02:14
32:05:23 Ksusha They don't care about me, so why should I?
32:07:15
32:11:01 Kolya I came to the court with a packed bag.
32:11:12
32:14:12 Kolya The judge said that it's good that you brought your bag with you.
32:14:19
32:18:17 Kolya So I thought I was done for.
32:19:04
32:24:01 Kolya I thought it would be a year or two in prison,
32:24:04
32:28:02 Kolya or in a settlement, which is better.
32:28:06
32:34:20 Kolya so they read the judgement...
32:35:22
32:40:22 Kolya I crossed my fingers and prayed to the devil.
32:41:02
32:45:08 Kolya I asked him please, please give me a conditional sentence,
32:45:13
32:48:06 Kolya because I have a girlfriend.
32:48:10
32:52:19 Kolya Then I stood up...
32:53:02
33:01:00 Kolya They said 'Kolya, born in 1988, and living at this address',
33:01:05
33:05:16 Kolya 'single, no children...
33:05:21
33:09:08 Kolya ...infected with HIV',
33:09:12
33:13:18 Kolya 'is sentenced to three years'...
33:13:20
33:17:01 Kolya I felt really bad, my heart was beating fast.
33:17:06
33:19:22 Kolya My mother started crying.
33:20:03
33:23:06 Kolya ...'suspended for three years with probation'.
33:23:09
33:26:07 Kolya I had such a joy in my heart!
33:26:13
33:29:22 Kolya I said thank you comrade...
33:29:24
33:33:16 Kolya ...I promise I will get a job.
34:
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34:04:21 Kolya I come here often.
34:05:07
34:08:00 Kolya Come and kiss your daddy!
34:08:07
34:12:24 Kolya I like this place because of it's height.
34:13:23
34:20:14 Kolya There's a sense of freedom when I'm alone and nobody’s bothering me.
34:20:24
34:26:21 Kolya You can shout and look at the city from above.
34:29:12
34:34:16 Kolya So I sniff some glue and jump around and nobody's interfering.
34:40:16
34:44:10 Kolya I thought about jumping when I was little,
34:44:15
34:48:03 Kolya when I lived at home and my mother was drinking.
34:48:21
34:57:00 Kolya I told her that if you don't stop drinking and screwing around I will jump.
35:
15
35:07:19 Kolya I don't have a reason to jump yet, it's scary to lose your life this way. #12
35:09:02
35:11:14 Crew Do you like your life?
35:11:17
35:15:04 Kolya Yes I like it, I like it very much.
35:16:11
35:19:19 Kolya That I exist, that somebody loves me.
35:20:03
35:24:08 Kolya This HIV will cut me down.
35:24:12
35:28:12 Kolya I will suffer from it, and it will do me in...
35:29:01
35:32:15 Kolya ...but what can you do about it?
35:41:08
35:44:12 Crew You told me that you don't shoot up.
35:45:04
35:48:07 Kolya They're old marks.
35:50:18
35:54:14 Kolya These are scars. They're not going away.
35:57:05
35:59:16 Kolya I shot up for such a long time.
35:59:22
36:03:00 Kolya You can ask anybody.
36:03:04
36:06:09 Kolya I'll get Vova.
37:24:20
37:30:07 Crew You just told us that the last time you did it was 2-3 months ago.
37:31:11
37:33:24 Kolya Well I shot up yesterday.
37:34:08
37:37:03 Kolya I was ashamed to say it.
37:39:05
37:46:09 Kolya If me and Lena worked, we wouldn't mind having a baby.
37:47:17
37:51:01 Kolya That's my greatest dream.
37:51:07
37:55:06 Kolya I would give everything I've got to a child.
37:57:04
38:01:18 Kolya I will go to my Mum's dacha and overcome the addictions.
38:02:06
38:07:00 Kolya When I come back I won't be using any drugs.
38:08:01
38:12:07 Kolya I already gave up sniffing glue.
38:12:21
38:18:15 Kolya Well I sniffed some polish yesterday, but I don't really sniff anymore.
38:19:08
38:24:06 Kolya But for a child I would do everything. Everything.
38:25:20
38:28:07 Kolya I decided to have a rest for a week.
38:28:11
38:31:12 Kolya get a rest from the city...
38:32:02
38:35:20 Kolya and from all my habits.
38:36:23
38:40:01 Kolya - Bad habits.
38:40:17
38:43:20 Kolya’s Mum I invite everybody to sit at the table.
38:44:01
38:47:04 Crew How is all this?
38:50:10
38:55:19 Kolya’s Mum Kolya being the only boy was spoiled by everyone.
38:56:09
39:
00 Kolya’s Mum We allowed him to do anything.
39:
19
39:06:19 Kolya’s Mum He liked to misbehave and joke around. #13
39:07:07
39:10:09 Kolya’s Mum He liked to run around on the streets with the other boys.
39:10:22
39:14:04 Kolya’s Mum They would sniff glue and hang around the market.
39:14:15
39:18:13 Kolya’s Mum Some of the kids were not even from our city...
39:19:02
39:22:02 Kolya’s Mum ...they were runaways.
39:22:10
39:26:15 Kolya’s Mum I don't know where they stayed at night.
39:27:05
39:31:10 Kolya’s Mum Kolya saw it all and that's how he met them.
39:33:15
39:36:09 Crew Where is Kolya's father?
39:36:15
39:39:07 Kolya’s Mum Kolya's father died.
39:39:13
39:42:12 Kolya’s Mum Let's not talk about it.
39:46:01
39:49:22 Kolya’s Mum We didn't used to have these problems.
39:50:06
39:53:09 Kolya’s Mum No homeless, no glue sniffers.
39:53:15
39:56:04 Kolya’s Mum Now we have a lot of homeless.
39:56:15
40:
00 Kolya’s Mum When the Soviet Union fell apart, life became harder.
40:
06
40:03:05 Kolya’s Mum People get drunk and don't watch over their children.
40:03:09
40:06:00 Kolya’s Mum Life became like that.
40:06:04
40:10:05 Kolya’s Mum We have to get out of it somehow.
40:11:22
40:15:04 Kolya Maybe it's time for me to start a normal life.
40:15:08
40:17:12 Kolya Drop all of this.
40:17:21
40:21:21 Kolya It will be better when I have a job.
40:22:03
40:25:16 Kolya When I have a job and a family...
40:26:24
40:29:05 Kolya ...everything will be fine.
40:39:14
40:42:08 Crew What happened to your arm?
40:44:04
40:46:14 Denis I fell down.
40:48:02
40:50:07 Crew What really happened?
40:50:11
40:53:21 Denis I was shooting up with pain killers.
40:55:07
40:59:17 Denis They took some tweezers and began to cut.
41:01:02
41:03:19 Denis Began to cut the arm.
41:04:09
41:09:10 Crew Did they know about your lifestyle?
41:10:20
41:14:21 Denis Yeah I told them that I live on the street.
41:27:22
41:30:20 Ksusha It's hard to lose a person.
41:31:00
41:33:19 Ksusha You get used to them.
41:39:11
41:43:21 Ksusha I have a different circle of friends now.
41:44:18
41:48:04 Ksusha I pay more attention to my life now.
41:48:11
41:51:19 Ksusha I'm looking at how people around me live. #14
41:53:22
41:59:02 Ksusha If I continued the way I lived, continued to drink,
41:59:09
42:02:18 Ksusha shoot up and continue visiting those guys,
42:02:22
42:06:21 Ksusha then in a couple of years I will be lying here.
42:07:16
42:11:24 Ksusha I want to become an old lady, sit on a bench and gossip.
42:17:10
42:22:17 Ksusha If it wasn't for Denis, they wouldn't have anything to eat.
42:23:12
42:28:15 Ksusha They beat him up if he doesn't beg for money.
42:29:05
42:32:11 Ksusha They use the poor invalid and take everything.
42:33:10
42:35:24 Crew You're the main provider here?
42:36:02
42:37:20 Denis Yes.
42:38:00
42:40:22 Crew How do you feel about it?
42:41:07
42:43:19 Denis I'm already tired of it.
42:44:01
42:47:03 Denis To be honest with you I am tired of it.
42:47:19
42:50:02 Denis I feel worn out.
42:50:07
42:53:08 Denis This life has worn me out.
43:02:06
43:05:18 Denis Do you know 'The Swine'?
43:06:18
43:12:07 Denis He comes to the market and takes my money.
43:25:07
43:26:18 Denis How much?
43:26:20
43:28:20 Kolya Three hundred.
43:29:09
43:32:06 Kolya Half now and half later.
43:35:14
43:38:23 Kolya Do you have anything to eat?
43:41:08
43:44:10 Crew Who is it?
43:44:24
43:48:03 Denis 'The Swine' - You know him.
43:48:10
43:50:19 Denis Kolya.
44:18:11
44:22:21 Crew Who is making you beg most of all, Kolya?
44:23:09
44:26:16 Denis All of them.
44:27:16
44:30:22 Denis Everybody.
44:34:20
44:38:24 Kolya Denis made 80 rubles and some change.
44:47:02
44:49:24 Kolya 150 rubles altogether.
44:51:10
44:54:11 Denis I told you I will give it to you in the evening.
44:56:00
44:59:06 Kolya I have to give back what I owe by eight o'clock!
45:07:08
45:12:20 Denis Listen to what I tell you, it's a secret.
45:13:19
45:17:01 Denis For a long time I've wanted to die.
45:17:06
45:20:22 Denis I don't want to live this life. #15
45:21:11
45:24:08 Denis I want a normal life, a place to stay.
45:24:13
45:27:16 Denis I want a girlfriend.
45:31:04
45:33:22 Denis I want a child.
45:34:02
45:37:01 Denis But it's not happening.
45:37:10
45:40:19 Denis It's not happening.
45:57:22
46:02:10 Crew Don't you think about running away?
46:02:19
46:06:19 Denis I thought about it, but I don't know where to.
46:07:03
46:11:07 Denis I don't have an apartment or a place to stay.
46:12:06
46:16:06 Denis I have no place to spend the night.
46:16:24
46:21:00 Denis Otherwise I would have left them a long time ago.
46:21:12
46:25:08 Denis A long time ago I would have left them.
46:49:05
46:52:16 Crew Did you take his money?
46:52:22
46:56:08 Kolya No, he gave me what he owed.
46:58:05
47:04:05 Kolya Sometimes we take his money, even when he doesn't owe anything.
47:05:03
47:07:22 Kolya Well we ask and he gives it.
47:14:07
47:17:04 Ksusha It's dangerous with them.
47:17:12
47:22:08 Ksusha If someone over uses drugs or drinks too much...
47:22:16
47:30:05 Ksusha It might turn out that one of the guys is a maniac.
47:30:17
47:34:14 Kolya I'm cunning like a fox.
47:38:18
47:41:08 Ksusha They're all wild eyed there!
47:42:06
47:45:06 Ksusha Everybody is for himself.
47:45:18
47:50:04 Ksusha I don't get how you hit someone you live with,
47:50:16
47:55:11 Ksusha Just because he didn't give you a cigarette or a drink.
47:55:22
47:59:04 Ksusha Or because he didn't go out and beg...
47:59:09
48:02:01 Ksusha To hit and degrade him...
48:02:05
48:04:20 Ksusha You live with him, in the same place.
48:04:23
48:07:19 Ksusha I don't understand these people.
48:08:06
48:10:22 Ksusha My heart goes for Denis,
48:11:22
48:13:24 Ksusha He has nobody to turn to.
48:14:11
48:17:20 Ksusha Plus he is handicapped.
48:22:23
48:26:02 Irina In time our group is going to disintegrate.
48:26:08
48:29:09 Irina Some will go to prison, some will return home.
48:32:16
48:36:24 Denis When will I stop living with them?
48:37:07
48:40:00 Denis When? #16
48:49:04
48:51:19 Denis I want to find an apartment.
48:52:11
48:54:20 Denis Or live in a shelter.
48:59:04
49:01:22 Denis Sleep inside a warm bed...
49:02:13
49:05:20 Denis Eat something hot every day... #17