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<b>Psychology says that there are three things.</b>

 

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<b>There is long-term memory, short-term memory and core memory.</b>

 

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<b>My core memory has... I have developed as a person in conflict.</b>

 

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<b>In 2010... it was very shocking when I was in high school.</b>

 

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<b>We had just stepped out of school one day.</b>

 

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<b>And we heard gunshots and tear-gas shelling around us.</b>

 

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<b>I was stuck. I just froze, right in the middle of the road.</b>

 

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<b>And I couldn't program all that was happening.</b>

 

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<b>I was just pushed inside a photostat shop.</b>

 

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<b>We were not allowed to carry cellphones back then.</b>

 

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<b>All I could hear were gunshots and tear-gas shelling.</b>

 

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<b>I used to paint landscapes and portraits.</b>

 

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<b>But I don't know what came over me that day. I don't know what happened.</b>

 

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<b>I started painting conflict.</b>

 

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<b>What kind of rivers are these that flow with blood?</b>

 

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<b>What sort of bazaars are these that billow with smoke?</b>

 

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<b>What are these loud cries?</b>

 

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<b>Whose laments are these that fill the streets?</b>

 

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<b>What are these funeral processions that pass by?</b>

 

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<b>Whose young have been killed?</b>

 

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<b>Who is this that keeps wailing?</b>

 

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<b>Whose young have been killed?</b>

 

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<b>Whose motherhoods have been stolen?</b>

 

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<b>Whose young are these that flood the streets?</b>

 

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<b>What kind of rivers are these that flow with blood?</b>

 

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<b>What sort of bazaars are these that billow with smoke?</b>

 

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<b>Revolution is the need of the hour. There is no other way.</b>

 

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<b>It's necessary for the time we live in.</b>

 

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<b>And it's natural to feel this way when you grow up in this environment.</b>

 

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<b>You feel trapped by the chains of subjugation.</b>

 

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<b>I see it as one's duty.</b>

 

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<b>When you face these situations, you feel compelled to act.</b>

 

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<b>You feel compelled to write.</b>

 

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<b>This is called 'A Monster in Distress'.</b>

 

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<b>And this is called 'A Sufi in Distress'.</b>

 

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<b>I was born in Kashmir.</b>

 

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<b>My father was working in Iran at the time.</b>

 

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<b>So, I spent the first five years of my life in Iran.</b>

 

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<b>And then my father decided that he wanted to come back.</b>

 

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<b>It was a curfewed day, the very first day. It was a rainy day.</b>

 

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<b>And there were shoot-at-sight orders in place at that time.</b>

 

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<b>This army guy came into the bus and he was frisking.</b>

 

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<b>And my sister told my mother, "Don't worry."</b>

 

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<b>"If you're scared of him, I'll beat him up."</b>

 

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<b>And the army guy gave a stern look. "Sit your child down!"</b>

 

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<b>[Yeah... early works.]</b>

 

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<b>This was the place I had to grow up in.</b>

 

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<b>It's very clearly evident that</b>

 

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<b>I was also constantly looking at the visual imagery</b>

 

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<b>in terms of the presence of armed forces.</b>

 

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<b>I got an appointment in an art college, and I started teaching.</b>

 

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<b>For 35 years.</b>

 

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<b>And one day, in '89, when the militancy and turmoil started</b>

 

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<b>the whole setup got gutted down in fire.</b>

 

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<b>I lost almost all my paintings.</b>

 

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<b>And I had to re-establish myself.</b>

 

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<b>Then, I started seriously painting.</b>

 

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<b>And I have been painting conflict for the past... so many years.</b>

 

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<b>2016 was another very bad phase that we experienced.</b>

 

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<b>It was after the death of a militant known as Burhan Wani.</b>

 

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<b>At that time, the younger generation,</b>

 

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<b>especially teenagers, 9-year-olds and 10-year-olds.</b>

 

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<b>Very small children were on the streets pelting stones.</b>

 

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<b>And then just to curb these children...</b>

 

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<b>Well, the authorities were initially using tear-gas</b>

 

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<b>and now they started using pellet guns.</b>

 

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<b>One day, I went to the hospital and I saw...</b>

 

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<b>the full hospital filled with all these young boys and girls with pellet injuries.</b>

 

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<b>And some children... they had lost their eyesight.</b>

 

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<b>I did these digital works as a protest.</b>

 

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<b>That's what artists can do.</b>

 

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<b>I witness and record the history. That's all.</b>

 

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<b>One day, I was surfing Facebook</b>

 

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<b>and I got a message from a person who worked for a newspaper that</b>

 

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<b>there is a woman from Australia and she wants to work with you. </b>

 

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<b>And she approached me through my Facebook profile</b>

 

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<b>and she was like, "I have seen your work. You work on conflict."</b>

 

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<b>"I'm planning to come to India and meet many Kashmiri artists."</b>

 

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<b>"Would you like to join us in a core group called 'A Path with Art'?"</b>

 

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<b>She told us to make whatever we wanted. "Whatever comes to your mind." </b>

 

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<b>7 out of 10 artists ended up creating art on Kashmir and violation.</b>

 

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<b>There was no talk of conflict, yet it cropped up in the art. </b>

 

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<b>Like images of burning chinar trees and barbed wires.</b>

 

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<b>So, it made us realise that it is in our head.</b>

 

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<b>Sometimes when we don't speak about certain things, but they are in our head</b>

 

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<b>they find expression through art.</b>

 

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<b>I wasn't even born when the Kunan Poshpora mass rape occurred.</b>

 

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<b>But when I read about it, it brought tears to my eyes.</b>

 

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<b>Because those testimonies were horrifying, they were traumatising.</b>

 

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<b>And me being a woman, I felt helpless.</b>

 

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<b>Because justice was denied to them. Over 80 women were raped.</b>

 

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<b>[This is Tufail Mattoo.]</b>

 

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<b>I have this memory from my childhood.</b>

 

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<b>I was playing with my sister in the backyard.</b>

 

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<b>What happened... we heard a really big bang.</b>

 

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<b>And she fell down.</b>

 

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<b>My mother took me in her arms and we went inside.</b>

 

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<b>And she continuously screamed at us. She was shouting at us.</b>

 

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<b>"Put your head down!"</b>

 

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<b>Because we could hear continuous rounds of gunshots.</b>

 

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<b>And then my grandfather came. He was panting.</b>

 

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<b>He came rushing inside the house and said, "The encounter has started."</b>

 

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<b>"The situation is bad."</b>

 

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<b>And that was the time my sister was to return from her tuition class.</b>

 

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<b>My mother was just scared to death that something might happen to her daughter.</b>

 

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<b>I still have that memory embedded in my heart.</b>

 

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<b>And I was 7 or 6 years old.</b>

 

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<b>So, this is how I have grown up in the conflict.</b>

 

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<b>And when people accuse me of being a traitor, an anti-national...</b>

 

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<b>I insist that I'm not a traitor.</b>

 

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<b>This is what I've seen. I want you to know.</b>

 

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<b>I recall a poem by my grandfather which went</b>

 

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<b>'I have risen from suffering holding a pen drenched with my being,</b>

 

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<b>and I march towards death with the spirit of rebellion.'</b>

 

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<b>My grandfather passed away when I was two years old.</b>

 

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<b>But his fragrance lingered.</b>

 

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<b>The fragrance of his poetry... it filled our home.</b>

 

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<b>And it became a part of who I am.</b>

 

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<b>And here is my grandfather's grave.</b>

 

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<b>I feel that he's always watching over me.</b>

 

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<b>If I'm ever stuck while writing, I read a prayer in his name.</b>

 

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<b>And the words begin to flow.</b>

 

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<b>This is where we grew up.</b>

 

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<b>So all these things, the pond, the trees...</b>

 

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<b>They're like our friends. We live as one. </b>

 

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<b>I remember this one time when the situation got really bad.</b>

 

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<b>But somehow this place remained unaffected.</b>

 

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<b>So we would all come and sit around here.</b>

 

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<b>We would chit-chat. We would share poetry too.</b>

 

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<b>This has been the birthplace of scholars and saints.</b>

 

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<b>And even now you can feel their presence in the breeze.</b>

 

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<b>I am currently working on a portrait of Parveena Ahanger.</b>

 

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<b>She is called the 'Iron Lady of Kashmir'</b>

 

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<b>and has been given numerous awards for her human rights efforts.</b>

 

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<b>She heads the Association of the Parents of Disappeared Persons.</b>

 

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<b>The idea was to try and meet these different women</b>

 

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<b>who are mothers or wives of individuals who were killed,</b>

 

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<b>who were murdered, or hanged, or were disappeared.</b>

 

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<b>But being some sort of an icon herself does not resolve her own crisis.</b>

 

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<b>This is a big concern.</b>

 

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<b>It's a pressing issue in Kashmir.</b>

 

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<b>May this atrocity never happen to anyone else.</b>

 

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<b>If declared dead, at least we would get to see the body.</b>

 

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<b>And if there is a dead body, there's some compensation.</b>

 

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<b>We've searched all jails... searched everywhere.</b>

 

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<b>Whom do we go to? Even the courts aren't delivering justice.</b>

 

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<b>A couple of years ago,</b>

 

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<b>I went to Pratap Park and did an in-solidarity performance.</b>

 

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<b>She would tell me that I looked like her son who was disappeared.</b>

 

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<b>So I took an image, a photograph of her disappeared son that she uses everywhere.</b>

 

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<b>And right next to it, I put my own portrait.</b>

 

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<b>I asked her to strip the paper on top of the image slowly,</b>

 

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<b>and it revealed these two photographs.</b>

 

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<b>And then immediately after that she made a statement,</b>

 

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<b>she was holding that placard, and she was like</b>

 

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<b>'This is my son who has disappeared, and this is my son who is still here.'</b>

 

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<b>At that time, I hadn't thought about how this would make her feel.</b>

 

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<b>This act of keeping my photo alongside her son Javed's, in front of so many people.</b>

 

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<b>I don't know why, but at that time, it felt necessary to do this.</b>

 

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<b>I wanted to tell everyone out there </b>

 

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<b>that this is our shared pain.</b>

 

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<b>That her pain isn't separate from ours, nor is her fight for justice.</b>

 

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<b>Somewhere, amidst all this, is a bond.</b>

 

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<b>There is an empathy towards that pain.</b>

 

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<b>It's a shared suffering.</b>

 

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<b>There are about 8000 to 10,000 families whose family members have been taken away.</b>

 

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<b>They don't know where their relatives are, whether they're dead or alive.</b>

 

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<b>I could have met this fate too. I still could.</b>

 

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<b>I was born and brought up in this same downtown area.</b>

 

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<b>And well, it was really amazing.</b>

 

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<b>The place was calm and close to the river Jhelum.</b>

 

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<b>It was really wonderful to be in those small and narrow lanes.</b>

 

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<b>And all those old houses.</b>

 

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<b>We have a lot of good memories of our childhood.</b>

 

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<b>We used to really enjoy, and go around freely.</b>

 

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<b>Our children haven't really seen much</b>

 

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<b>because they have been brought up in this environment of conflict.</b>

 

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<b>Living on the main road, we have witnessed some very bad incidents.</b>

 

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<b>Like we have even seen</b>

 

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<b>the death of a few militants</b>

 

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<b>just outside our home.</b>

 

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<b>So, that is the difference.</b>

 

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<b>Because we really haven't seen much normalcy</b>

 

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<b>during this period.</b>

 

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<b>The birds, the silence, people walking by...</b>

 

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<b>They share smiles, they're witnessing life...</b>

 

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<b>There is this picture to Kashmir as well.</b>

 

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<b>'Agar firdaus bar roo-e zameen ast'</b>

 

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<b>'Hameen ast-o hameen ast-o hameen ast'</b>

 

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<b>It means, "If there is a paradise on earth, it is here, it is here, it is here."</b>

 

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<b>I do not think that this line suits Kashmir anymore.</b>

 

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<b>There is so much beauty here.</b>

 

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<b>But it's the most dangerous place because it's the most militarized zone.</b>

 

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<b>Over half-a-million troops are in Kashmir.</b>

 

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<b>It is a paradise that has been set ablaze.</b>

 

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<b>When you paint burning chinar leaves</b>

 

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<b>and the smoke, it gives a very beautiful effect.</b>

 

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<b>Especially in water colours.</b>

 

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<b>Wherever you look, every inch is a subject for an artist.</b>

 

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<b>So, I don't paint anything beyond this.</b>

 

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<b>Whether it's realistic or abstract,</b>

 

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<b>this is my inspiration.</b>

 

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<b>As we grew older, motorbikes became a part of our life.</b>

 

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<b>And we would ride without a destination in mind.</b>

 

205

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<b>We'd call one place 'Mountain Top', another place 'Summit'.</b>

 

206

00:18:31,985 --> 00:18:33,779

<b>We simply named places as we saw fit.</b>

 

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<b>Even now, I don't know the actual names of places in Kashmir.</b>

 

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<b>We call this place 'Hideout'.</b>

 

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<b>When someone calls and says, "Come to Hideout," we all land up here.</b>

 

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<b>During the summers, this place would turn completely green.</b>

 

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<b>You felt like you were in paradise.</b>

 

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<b>You'd find berries over there.</b>

 

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<b>And when we were young, my friend and I would hang around eating those berries.</b>

 

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<b>See those bushes? They used to stretch across the entire garden.</b>

 

215

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<b>We spent all our time here.</b>

 

216

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<b>It was great fun.</b>

 

217

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<b>Over there's a temple...</b>

 

218

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<b>Do you know what's special here?</b>

 

219

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<b>You see a temple over there, right?</b>

 

220

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<b>Over there's a mosque, and over there's a gurdwara.</b>

 

221

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<b>So, when you look from here, everyone's together.</b>

 

222

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<b>But the army sits on top of all of us.</b>

 

223

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<b>Sometimes, I'm overcome by frustration... conflict this, conflict that.</b>

 

224

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<b>And in this state of mind, I head to college only to see stone pelting there...</b>

 

225

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<b>I'm like, enough. I can't take it anymore.</b>

 

226

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<b>So, I escape to a jungle like this for some respite.</b>

 

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<b>While coming here, we crossed the house of shahid (martyr) Yawar. </b>

 

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<b>There used to be a Border Security Force (BSF) camp right across his house.</b>

 

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<b>So that man who stayed in that house? One time, his sister came to visit.</b>

 

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<b>And there was an attempt to rape her.</b>

 

231

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<b>So, he went to her rescue.</b>

 

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<b>He was able to save her, but he got shot in the process.</b>

 

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<b>It was his house that we crossed on the way here.</b>

 

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<b>See, I bring this up because... </b>

 

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<b>Whenever you leave your house, you come across this stuff.</b>

 

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<b>This is Tufail Mattoo's house. That is another victim's house.</b>

 

237

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<b>So, naturally, all of this affects you.</b>

 

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<b>People ask me, "Why do you say these things? Why do you write these things?"</b>

 

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<b>Truth be told, I am a peace loving person. </b>

 

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<b>But I can't escape my reality. I can't run away from it.</b>

 

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<b>I mean, sure, I can sit aside for a while and think. Maybe even write something.</b>

 

242

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<b>But how long can I avoid the truth?</b>

 

243

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<b>I mean, I travel through these very alleys everyday.</b>

 

244

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<b>That's why I'm not able to contain this feeling.</b>

 

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<b>It gushes out of me.</b>

 

246

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<b>I'm going to set up art camps. This is the beginning.</b>

 

247

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<b>This is the first session that I'm going to do with the kids.</b>

 

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<b>I hope it turns out good.</b>

 

249

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<b>How does it make you feel when you come across people your age?</b>

 

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<b>Those whom you see on Facebook.</b>

 

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<b>Non-locals, or your own cousins who live in the Gulf or other countries</b>

 

252

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<b>or even Delhi or Jammu.</b>

 

253

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<b>How does it make you feel?</b>

 

254

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<b>Alright, just paint it. Don't tell me - just paint it down.</b>

 

255

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<b>I feel a bit tired.</b>

 

256

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<b>I don't really know why...</b>

 

257

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<b>Emotionally, it's quite a lot of mixed feelings.</b>

 

258

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<b>Thinking about it, it somehow does not resolve her own crisis that she is in.</b>

 

259

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<b>And at the same time, I'm constantly thinking about </b>

 

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<b>what it means for me to make an artwork out of it.</b>

 

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<b>Art... it somehow heals you.</b>

 

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<b>When there are no boundaries, when there are no limits</b>

 

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<b>they will paint what's in their minds.</b>

 

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<b>I do not really have any expectations that</b>

 

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<b>it's going to revolutionalize and change everything.</b>

 

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<b>But I also really believe that these kind of attempts</b>

 

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<b>not just by me, but by a lot of different artists</b>

 

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<b>who are trying to deal with a lot of uncomfortable questions,</b>

 

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<b>it raises and starts some sort of conversation</b>

 

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<b>that hopefully evolves into something positive</b>

 

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<b>not just for people who are suffering directly, </b>

 

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<b>but for everyone else here in Kashmir.</b>

 

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<b>Yeah, there is hope too.</b>

 

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<b>But let us see when.</b>

 

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<b>We have been waiting for better times to come.</b>

 

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<b>So, that's why I always paint one painting on hope.</b>

 

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<b>So when it comes, let us see.</b>

 

278

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<b>Because we have been waiting for the past 27 years.</b>

 

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<b>So, I keep on painting.</b>

 

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<b>I've written a poem, Raqs-e-Inquilab. The Dance of Revolution.</b>

 

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<b>It's a popular one.</b>

 

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<b>And it begins like this:</b>

 

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<b>Rise oh lovers, for now the stars are awake</b>

 

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<b>Hopes and desires are alive, even the defeated feel renewed</b>

 

285

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<b>The taverns are open, serving cups of truth</b>

 

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<b>And everyone is in an intoxicated mood</b>

 

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<b>So then why is this self-hatred strung around you?</b>

 

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<b>Why are you unable to walk the path?</b>

 

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<b>Who has tricked you so?</b>

 

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<b>Why is your heart filled with despair?</b>

 

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<b>Why do you run away from the beat of your heart?</b>

 

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<b>You who have crossed a thousand seas, why worry about a storm?</b>

 

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<b>You who are courage personified, why does your heart betray fear?</b>

 

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<b>Once the mad-in-love Mansur, now you stand timid in front of the world</b>

 

295

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<b>How could you have forgotten your true self and lead such a defeated life?</b>

 

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<b>Why do you gulp down cups of hatred in Satan's lair?</b>

 

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<b>Abandon this hate, and wake up. Feel something!</b>

 

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<b>Feel, if not for yourself, at least for the sake of the great Ahmed</b>

 

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<b>Come, listen to the voices arising from the mosque</b>

 

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<b>Come, see the wounds of your heart take flight</b>

 

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<b>Come, see who will be the true heir to Khyber</b>

 

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<b>All those mothers who lost their sons will soon find their heirs too</b>

 

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<b>The promised day is near, there is yet a ray of hope</b>

 

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<b>Look at the light scattering behind the mountains</b>

 

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<b>Shackles shall break, and the sun will rise again</b>

 

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<b>It will rise, bearing the flag of truth</b>

 

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<b>Our cries will take flight, such is the power of our longing</b>

 

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<b>And these yearning voices will echo in every home of our land</b>

 

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<b>One day, the Dal will sing of our honour</b>

 

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<b>The Jhelum will speak of its depths</b>

 

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<b>One day, the birds will sing to the mountains</b>

 

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<b>The fragrance of truth will pervade as the cuckoo sings the songs of justice</b>

 

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<b>We shall then ask the flowing streams, 'What is the meaning of freedom?'</b>

 

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<b>Rushing past, their ripples shall reply, "La illaha illallah."</b>

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