Man Made Time Code Character Name Dialogue 00:00:00 Opening Credits 00:00:23 Dominic I’ve been called every name in the book. But I don’t care. 00:00:29 Dominic I am doing what I need to do to be my authentic self. 00:00:34 Dominic ‘Cause this is what I’ve wanted forever. 00:00:47 Rese When I was younger, in middle school I used to tell everybody I was a boy, until they heard my name. 00:00:55 Rese Then, I didn’t really know what I was. 00:01:17 Kennie I think I’ve always known who I am, but I have suppressed that for a very long time, probably my entire life. 00:01:43 Mason So often in my life just surviving was an accomplishment, just taking a shower, just not killing myself, was an accomplishment. 00:02:07 Main Title MAN MADE 00:02:19 Screen Text Trans FitCon Bodybuilding Competition Atlanta, GA 00:02:24 Screen Text Trans FitCon is the only all-transgender bodybuilding competition in the world. 00:02:42 Screen Text It is open to anybody who self-identifies as a transgender male, regardless of physical presentation. 00:02:53 Stage Manager Alright. We are about to start, so everybody get ready. 00:03:00 Stage Manager Lightweights, just so you guys know, you're gonna go on stage first. 00:03:09 Shawn This is it. 00:03:10 Shawn It’s down to the wire. 00:03:16 Shawn It’s showtime. 00:03:18 Screen Text Twelve men from around the country are preparing to compete at this year’s Trans FitCon. 00:03:33 Screen Text Here are four of their stories. 00:03:55 Screen Text Dominic Chilko won third place at last year’s Trans FitCon. 00:04:02 Screen Text DOMINIC CHILKO, 26 St. Paul, MN Lightweight 00:04:21 Dominic What’s up, Twin Cities Pride! 00:04:24 Dominic I just had this conversation with someone the other day. He was like so you're such a good rapper, I was like yeah, but now I'm invisible, and he said why? 00:04:38 Dominic I said well as a female that could rap like that, I was like one in a few. 00:04:46 Dominic Guys out here, I just blend in now. 00:05:07 Dominic Bye. 00:05:09 Dominic Love you. 00:05:10 Thea Bye. 00:05:10 Thea He's more of a person that I could love now because he's himself completely. 00:05:12 Screen Text THEA Dominic’s Partner 00:05:18 Thea Like we'd go out to eat at a restaurant and they'd be like sir to him, and I mean that for me, it was a really good, I would be like yes, yes. 00:05:31 Screen Text Dominic’s and Thea’s Apartment 00:05:40 Dominic Okay, yeah, T, I’m gonna need some help. 00:05:42 T Okay. 00:05:43 Dominic ‘Cause I’m like stuck in this thing right now. 00:05:46 Screen Text T Cooper, Director 00:05:48 T/Dominic One, two, three, pull. 00:05:49 T There you go. 00:05:52 T You got it. 00:05:55 Dominic I'm ready to just throw a shirt on and not have to readjust and be like hold on a second, let me tuck in my binder. Ya know? 00:06:02 Dominic I just wanna be free, man. 00:06:06 Dominic God, I love this city. 00:06:09 Screen Text Saint Paul, MN 00:06:10 Dominic I mean the last couple nights is probably why I haven't been able to sleep 'cause I've been laying and doing one of these on my bare chest, just looking like you know we've had some times, I mean this is all I know. 00:06:30 Dominic I’m not playing with you, jeez. 00:06:33 Dominic I wouldn’t lie. 00:06:33 Receptionist Wouldn’t surprise me. 00:06:35 Dominic I wouldn’t lie. 00:06:36 Dominic The lady today at the clinic was like you are not trans, like I don't believe you. I'm like girl, yes I am. I wouldn't have to be here if I wasn't. 00:06:45 Nurse Tell me in your own words what you’re having done. 00:06:48 Dominic A double mastectomy with nipple graphs. 00:06:55 Screen Text Dr. Marie Buckley Plastic Surgeon 00:06:55 Dr. Marie Buckley You know you have to come in pretty early. 00:06:58 Dr. Marie Buckley Okay, you’ll come at 5:30, I will get my little ass in about 7:15. 00:07:03 Dominic Aw, come on. 00:07:14 T Aw, thank you, I’m T. Nice to meet you. 00:07:16 T Thanks so much. 00:07:17 Kathy Nice to meet you. 00:07:17 Dwayne Dwayne 00:07:18 T Nice to meet you too. Dwayne? 00:07:19 Dwayne Yeah. 00:07:20 Kathy And 00:07:21 Kathy T? 00:07:22 T T, just the letter T. 00:07:23 T Just T. 00:07:24 Screen Text Dwayne and Kathy Dominic’s Parents 00:07:24 Kathy That's two years old, and let me tell you the child was a handful, that's all I can tell you. This is, I think Nicky was 18 months. 00:07:33 Kathy But then I gotta show you one other picture. 00:07:36 Kathy That’s not the one. 00:07:40 Kathy Cutest little thing. Always had a smile, always had a smile. Always. 00:07:47 Kathy It was earlier than that, like fifth grade. Wanted to wear boys clothes all the time. 00:07:48 Screen Text Dwayne and Kathy adopted Dominic at the age of one. 00:07:53 Dwayne I’ll be worried, you know that. 00:07:55 Dominic I just got all my work done today. 00:07:57 Dwayne I know, but I’ll still be worried, okay? 00:07:59 Kathy Well you can be worried, you're a dad. I pray for this boy every day. That he gets through his transition without any complications and he gets financially stable and he's able to have a good life, that's what, every morning. I pray for you every day. You probably didn't know that, but I do. 00:08:45 Screen Text Day of surgery 00:08:46 Dominic I'm nervous, I'm anxious, I'm excited, I'm scared, I'm sad, but like in a good way because I've come so far. I was having a moment 'cause she made me... 00:08:59 Thea He tends to be more of a baby at times, especially when he's sick or not feeling well. 00:09:06 Nurse So you want us to refer to you when you're waking up as Dominic right? 00:09:09 Dominic Yeah, Dom or Dominic. 00:09:11 Nurse Okay, I just wanna make sure. 00:09:12 Dominic And if you say Nicky or something like that, I won’t know who you’re talking about. 00:09:15 Dr. Marie Buckley Good morning, hi, how’s it going so far? 00:09:17 Dominic You rested and ready to take my boobs off? 00:09:19 Dr. Marie Buckley I’m ready to wack ‘em off, yeah. 00:09:21 Dr. Marie Buckley Are you? 00:09:22 Dominic Yeah. 00:09:24 Dr. Marie Buckley Okay. 00:09:26 Dominic I care a lot about appearance, you know what I'm saying? I just keep mentally telling myself. Dude, this is what you want, this is what you need to feel complete, so regardless those scars are gonna tell a story. 00:09:38 Thea Love you. 00:09:42 Dominic Oh wow, all right. 00:09:45 Dominic And there's no going back, you can revise it, but you can't go back to what you had. 00:09:50 Dominic The only other option is keeping my chest and I know that that's not gonna make me happy. 00:10:36 Dominic Ow! 00:10:37 Thea Hold on to the railing. 00:10:48 Kathy I’m gonna come tomorrow after work. Me and dad. 00:10:48 Screen Text On the phone: Dominic’s mother 00:10:52 Dominic Yeah. I have no more boobs. 00:10:56 Kathy I know, isn’t that weird? 00:10:57 Dominic It’s crazy mom, I’m so emotional and it’s so weird. 00:11:02 Kathy But you didn't want them, so there you go. 00:11:05 Dominic And Doctor Buckley was… 00:11:07 Dominic The uncertainty of the reveal is really my only fear. 00:11:10 Dominic Let me sit down so I don’t fucking pass out. 00:11:13 Thea Okay. 00:11:15 Thea Ready? 00:11:16 Dominic Time out, you have the before picture don’t you? 00:11:18 Thea I do. 00:11:20 Dominic Grab that real quick. 00:11:26 Thea Here’s before. 00:11:29 Dominic I’m so nervous now. 00:11:32 Dominic Oh my god, I’m about to freak out. 00:11:35 Dominic Oh my God, that’s my chest? 00:11:39 Dominic That’s me? 00:11:40 Dominic Oh my God. It looks so good. Oh my God. 00:11:50 Dominic That’s me? 00:11:52 Thea You did it babe. 00:11:53 Dominic I can’t, I can’t. I’m gonna start freaking out. 00:11:55 Thea You made it. That’s all you. 00:12:00 Dominic That’s so crazy, that’s what’s under here? 00:12:02 Dominic So there’s not boobs under here? 00:12:02 Dominic Really, you didn’t fuck with me? 00:12:03 Thea No boobs. 00:12:09 Dominic Shit. 00:12:14 Thea I love you. 00:12:16 T It was really emotional, I totally like … 00:12:21 T Didn’t expect to get so emotional seeing him see himself 00:12:38 Screen Text Mason Caminiti, 40 Cleveland, OH Lightweight 00:12:49 Mason Bodybuilding has meant a ton for me because it helped me transition and change my body before I could actually get on testosterone. 00:12:59 Mason It gave me a lot of confidence which I lack. 00:13:05 Screen Text This is Mason’s first year training for Trans FitCon. 00:13:09 Screen Text But he is one of few transgender men who participate in mainstream bodybuilding competitions. 00:13:15 Screen Text Cleveland, OH 00:13:34 Mason So I took a urine test last year when I competed, there were no issues, no one knew about me being transgender. 00:13:41 Screen Text Mason recently learned that he has been barred from a local bodybuilding competition because he is transgender. 00:13:46 Mason Hello Mr/Ms Cleveland Competitor. This is a general e­mail to all competitors, but I was the only one on the e­mail. 00:13:56 Jeanette Oh my God, look at that. 00:13:59 Jeanette This guy’s a phenomenal… 00:13:59 Mason So at that point I'm pissed, so I put hello Jerry, yes I am transgender and I do love the sport of bodybuilding. I competed last year and it was a phenomenal experience. 00:14:13 Mason I worked very hard all year, sacrificed and look forward to this competition. 00:14:20 Mason I feel sorry for myself for, I don’t know, half a second, and I’m like no, this is bullshit, I’m gonna find some other competition that’s local. 00:14:28 Mason Right away competition in Columbus comes up and I'm like Columbus, awesome, NPC, I'll do it. 00:14:42 Mason I'm gonna get my man panties to wear while they spray tan me. 00:14:49 Mason What I would normally do is, when you get the notice of who the tanning company is, I would call them up and say hey, I'm transgender, here's the deal. I basically appear male from the waist up and female from the waist down. 00:15:05 Mason Tell me they don’t have it. 00:15:06 Mason This year I just, I don't wanna just say normal, 'cause I'm normal, but I just didn't wanna feel like a circus freak. 00:15:16 Mason I was like, I need your most scandalous, smallest, underwear. 00:15:19 Mason She’s like all right, I’m like, too big. 00:15:23 Mason She’s probably like, what is with this guy? 00:15:26 Jeanette Mason is Mason. 00:15:27 Screen Text Jeanette Mason’s Mother in Law 00:15:27 Jeanette I don’t even think about him being trans at all. 00:15:31 Jeanette He's my son­in­law and we just live next door to each other, we love one another, and we've been through a lot over the last couple of years with my husband passing away. 00:15:44 Mason Hey, look who’s home! 00:15:45 Screen Text Anne Mason’s Wife 00:15:45 Anne Hi. 00:15:49 Anne Stop it. 00:15:50 Mason She’s one of the smartest people I know. 00:15:51 Anne One of my favorite things to do in Cleveland… 00:15:54 Mason She’s very kind and compassionate. 00:15:56 Mason She’s always open to learning new things. 00:16:01 Mason I’m starting to get teary-eyed now. 00:16:03 Mason I mean, those are the things I’m attracted to and I found that in one woman. 00:16:10 Mason Yeah, so this is kinda awkward. 00:16:13 Anne To be in the wrong gendered body for thirty two years, and being in the correct gendered body for eight years, I mean, it’s just, old habits die hard of wearing baggy clothes and walking slouched. 00:16:36 Jeanette My only thing that I don’t like is his strict regimen. 00:16:43 Jeanette It’s like, obsessive to me. 00:16:46 Mason I have my coffee that I’m supposed to drink today. 00:16:49 Jeanette That's just the way it is with bodybuilders. Their trainer is their God. 00:16:52 Mason So all he said was, and Anne I didn't tell you this, so this is what he said. 00:16:57 Mason I mean it can be stressful, and I know it drives my wife nuts. And me nuts, I gets a little stressed, but I love it. 00:17:06 Anne Over the past few months, he’s be hangry. 00:17:11 Anne And exhausted. 00:17:13 Anne To be at four percent body fat is not a pleasant experience I’m sure. 00:17:19 Mason Why are you looking at me like that? 00:17:21 Anne It’s just interesting. 00:17:23 Mason I know. 00:17:24 Anne I want to support him, and I want to do whatever he needs, but it's hard when that also brings stress in our relationship. 00:17:43 Screen Text Columbus, OH 00:17:51 Screen Text Friend’s house 00:17:59 Mason I’m nervous. Oops. 00:18:02 Anne I thought you were gonna put your sheets on, so I didn’t have him put sheets on. 00:18:12 Mason We were together for about three years, and she broke it off, and I was crushed. 00:18:20 Mason We ran into each other at The Gay Games it was like oh my God, I got butterflies in my stomach, and she was like do you wanna grab a coffee and it was like yeah, sure. Time for me to bury this hatchet, get it over with. 00:18:31 Mason So I said what are we doing, what's going on, and she said the last three years without you have been horrible. 00:18:49 Mason And l’ll… I’ll do anything to have you in my life again in any way possible. 00:18:56 Mason So… 00:19:01 Mason It takes a really strong person to be vulnerable like that. 00:19:12 Mason I can't imagine being a kid and feeling one way, and then having your family say that's not appropriate. 00:19:21 Mason I've never even been naked in front of my wife, but I've been naked in front of people who tan. 00:19:28 Mason That’s kinda like how extreme this sport is and how I feel about it. 00:19:32 Anne Like what the hell man? 00:19:35 Anne It's just he's so touchy about it that it's just not worth pushing anymore, and trust me, I have. 00:19:42 Anne It's like you're married, you shouldn't have to wear underwear around your wife, it's just sad. 00:19:48 Anne It’s one of those things where it’s not perfect, but that’s the way it is and I still choose him. 00:20:01 Spray-tanner Jordan, Jordan? 00:20:08 Spray-tanner Mason? 00:20:40 Mason I’ve never been in a room like this. 00:20:42 Mason Usually they have a separate tent for drying. 00:20:45 T I can’t say I’ve ever been a room like this either. 00:20:49 Mason I’m so glad you’re here right now. 00:21:11 Screen Text Rese Weaver did not place in last year’s Trans FitCon. 00:21:19 Screen Text Rese Weaver, 23 Atlanta, GA Middleweight 00:21:36 Rese It's mostly about just eating, where your next meal's gonna come from. 00:21:43 Screen Text A few months after last year’s Trans FitCon, Rese became homeless. 00:21:45 Rese Spare change for a meal today? Thank you. 00:21:59 Rese You have to have some type of hustle to make it, or you won't. 00:22:22 Rese I was 16 when I first came out as trans. 00:22:28 Rese My mom doesn't approve the lifestyle, so I was sent to the pastor and called out in the middle of church. 00:22:37 Rese Dabbed some holy oil on his hand and start slapping me on the head and praying for demons to come out and for me to be straight and raise a family. 00:22:48 Homeless Person 1 Well he just got jumped a few days ago so he’s been… 00:22:50 Rese Again? 00:22:52 Rese He prayed for literally thirty-five minutes. 00:22:54 Screen text Since his transition, Rese is not accepted in his mother’s house. 00:23:03 Homeless Person 2 What’s up, what’s going on? 00:23:05 Rese There's no housing for trans people. Shelters you can't even stay there because they don't know whether to put you on the male side or the female side, so you're just out here. 00:23:20 Rese They can't put me on the female side 'cause they will feel uncomfortable with the way I look, and for safety reasons they can't put me on the male side because you may get raped or blah blah blah this or that. 00:23:34 T So what do they tell you? 00:23:36 Rese Here's a granola bar, here's an orange, and we wish you best of luck. 00:23:55 T So you have a son. 00:23:57 Rese Yeah. 00:23:58 T How old is he? 00:23:59 Rese He’s four about to be five. 00:24:02 T Is he your biological kid? 00:24:03 Rese Yeah, yeah, it’s my twin. 00:24:06 Screen Text Rese is picking up his son De’montae from preschool. 00:24:10 Screen Text De’montae stays at Rese’s mother’s house. 00:24:28 Screen Text Mommy. 00:24:28 De’montae Mommy. 00:24:29 Rese You not gonna tell me hey? 00:24:31 Rese No hug? 00:24:33 Pre-School Teacher Hey there Tiffany, how you doing? 00:24:35 Rese You happy to see me? 00:24:35 Screeen Text De’montae Rese’s son 00:24:36 De’montae Yes. 00:24:37 Rese Where you wanna go? 00:24:38 De’montae McDonalds 00:24:40 Rese I want a big hug. Give me a big hug. 00:24:45 Rese I missed you. 00:24:46 De’montae I missed you too, mommy. 00:24:52 Rese What kind of workout you wanna do today? 00:24:55 De’montae I wanna do… 00:24:58 Rese Pushups? 00:24:58 De’montae Muscles 00:24:59 De’montae Yeah, pushups 00:25:00 Rese And what else? 00:25:01 De’montae And muscles 00:25:03 Rese Don't you need to go upstairs and change, put some shorts on then? 00:25:07 Rese And a t-shirt? 00:25:15 De’montae It’s a little itchy 00:25:17 Rese A little itchy? 00:25:20 Rese You gonna compete in October? 00:25:21 De’montae What’s compete? 00:25:24 Rese Like what I did last year? 00:25:25 Rese Remember when mommy went to that competition? 00:25:29 Rese You forgot? 00:25:30 De’montae The bodybuilding competition? 00:25:33 Rese Do some pushups. 00:25:35 Rese Use two hands 00:25:36 De’montae How many do I need to do? 00:25:38 Rese Do three 00:25:39 Rese Count them off. 00:25:40 De’montae One. 00:25:41 Rese Loud. 00:25:42 De’montae Two! 00:25:43 De’montae Three! 00:25:47 Rese You gotta do an angry face. 00:26:15 Kennie This competition, I felt like part of something and I felt like I belonged, which I haven't felt in a very long time. 00:26:25 Screen Text Kennie Story, 34 Conway, AR Lightweight 00:26:33 Kennie I wasn't really sure if I was gonna do it until I actually walked into the doors. 00:26:39 Screen text Kennie did not place at last year’s Trans FitCon. 00:26:45 Kennie This is actually the first venue I've used Kennie, and it's been nice. 00:27:00 Kennie It’s just nice being called what I want to be called. 00:27:13 Screen text Conway, AR 00:27:16 Kennie Maybe later 00:27:18 Kennie Let me go cool off first! 00:27:19 Driver Okay! 00:27:22 Kennie To my coworkers here I'm still known as Arian. 00:27:26 Kennie I work here at the University of Central Arkansas in Conway as the Assistant Director of the fitness center. 00:27:33 Kennie It's definitely a passion, it's more than a job to me. 00:27:40 Kennie I couldn't really transform my own body, so maybe that was a way of me being able to transform someone else at the least. 00:27:51 Vendor Can I offer you a free cookie? 00:27:53 DJ I’m okay. 00:27:54 Vendor You’re okay? 00:27:55 DJ We’re okay, thank you though. 00:27:56 Vendor We have several free samplings down here. 00:27:59 Kennie Sounds good. 00:28:01 DJ We met online. 00:28:08 DJ It’ll be four years in September. 00:28:14 Screen Text D.J. Kennie’s Partner 00:28:14 DJ He had this picture on there of him in a cowboy hat and it was super cute. 00:28:20 DJ Made him look like he was one of those bad boy lesbians that thinks they're all that. 00:28:27 DJ Those types usually don't go for girls like me. 00:28:31 DJ I'm a lesbian and I asked him is this gonna be a problem because I still identify as lesbian, but I'm with you and you're a man, and he said he didn't have a problem with it. 00:28:44 T Do you have a problem with it? 00:28:46 DJ Not yet. 00:28:47 T Do you think you will? 00:28:48 DJ Possibly. 00:28:52 Kennie Yeah, don’t even worry about it. 00:28:54 DJ Is this enough? 00:28:55 Kennie Yeah, just to get warmed up. 00:28:59 DJ He talked about how much he wanted to do a bodybuilding competition for years, and the only platform usually would've been a female bodybuilding competition. 00:29:11 DJ You realize you're gonna have to get up there in stilettos, and a posing costume which consists of a couple of strings, and then I would be the one he'd have to deal with the emotional fallout because it would make him cry. 00:29:33 Screen Text Last year’s competition 00:29:33 Kennie I probably would not have gotten up there on stage if it wasn't for her. 00:29:46 DJ He was the bravest because he got up there and showed everything that he had done on his own. 00:29:53 DJ He had no help chemically, nothing. 00:29:58 DJ He had a better body than several of those guys up there. 00:30:03 Kennie I think after the competition I was a little upset with not getting third last year, but to me it's amazing what testosterone can do. 00:30:17 Screen Text Little Rock, AR 00:30:24 Kennie Physically, I've never really been proud of anything. I think I hate most of everything about myself right now. 00:30:34 Screen Text Dr. Mary Roacher OB-GYN 00:30:34 Dr. Mary Roacher I'd really like to get to know you and hear your story and how you got to this place. 00:30:41 Kennie Recently I've come to terms with who it is I am. 00:30:47 Dr. Mary Racher Right. 00:30:50 Dr. Mary Racher So your goal today is to do what? 00:30:54 Kennie To start the hormone treatment hopefully. 00:30:59 Dr. Mary Racher This form says that we're gonna make some changes to your body. 00:31:03 Dr. Mary Racher Some of the changes are gonna be permanent. 00:31:07 Kennie I don't like the sound of my voice, so I am hoping that that changes, that it gives me more confidence to actually maybe even speak up in terms of my opinions at work or my political opinions. 00:31:26 Marylynn She has been my trainer for nine years. 00:31:31 Marylynn Okay, see the sweat? 00:31:32 Screen Text Marylynn Kennie’s Client 00:31:33 Marylynn He’s…do I call you he now? 00:31:37 Kennie Yeah, you just did. 00:31:39 Marylynn I just did. 00:31:39 Kennie Good job. 00:31:44 Marylynn I just want Arian to be happy. 00:31:47 Marylynn I’m concerned about what she may be facing in the world. 00:32:02 Kennie So I'm gonna be pushed to say something before people start noticing the changes. 00:32:07 Kennie It'll happen in time I think. I mean it has to, I mean I start T on Friday. 00:32:16 Kennie I wanted to invite you to this little get-together I'm having tomorrow, but I didn't wanna do it without telling you what it was about. 00:31:18 Screen Text Mary Ann Kennie’s Friend 00:32:27 Kennie I’m transitioning from female to male. 00:32:31 Mary-Ann It’s kinda what I figured. 00:32:32 Mary-Ann That’s so cool 00:32:33 Kennie No surprise. 00:32:34 Kennie I can’t seem to surprise anyone. 00:32:35 Mary-Ann How do you feel about it? 00:32:39 DJ It's been a long time coming, so I'm glad he's finally taking steps 'cause I got to used to he at home and she in public. I still slip up. 00:32:50 T How do you think it’ll be here in town? 00:32:53 Mary-Ann Well I think… I don’t know. 00:32:58 Mary-Ann There’s a lot of ignorance in Conway. 00:33:07 Jess I have seen him beaten up severely before for being gay when we were roommates. 00:33:09 Screen text Jess Kennie’s friend 00:33:17 Jess He didn’t tell anyone, I don’t think he left the house for days. 00:33:22 Jess A couple of guys jumped him for how he supposedly looked at their girlfriend. 00:33:28 Jess Woke up the next day with his face just completely beaten in and I was like Arian, what the hell is wrong with your face and he was like don't worry about it, I just got jumped by a couple of guys. 00:33:41 Jess I don't want that kind of thing to happen and be worse with him transitioning. 00:34:11 DJ It's gonna be ‘it's a boy’ tea party, and the theme is gonna be so gendered it's gonna make you sick. 00:34:32 T You ready? 00:34:33 Kennie Not really. 00:34:44 DJ Does it look like the right amount? 00:34:45 T Is it between those two lines? 00:34:46 DJ Yeah. 00:34:47 T Okay, take it out right before you start. 00:34:49 DJ Oh, before I flick it? 00:34:50 T Yeah, ‘cause you’re just bringing more in. 00:34:59 DJ One, two, three. 00:35:16 Kennie Okay, now time for the real shot. 00:35:16 Guest Take two. 00:35:21 Kennie Mmmm, those are good. 00:35:32 DJ I'm just afraid that the testosterone will change his body so much that, yeah, I'm not gonna be attracted to his body physically. 00:35:44 DJ I mean it's his life. 00:35:47 DJ If it's gonna make him happy, that's what he needs to do. 00:35:52 DJ Yeah, I would never wanna hold him back from that. 00:35:55 DJ Just on the offhand chance that I'm not attracted to him after he grows a beard. 00:36:12 Kennie I guess it's just nice to know that I'm cared about and loved despite the decision that I've made to transition. 00:36:24 T Well you did it. 00:36:28 Kennie I’m excited. 00:36:35 Screen text Dominic 00:36:39 Screen text 4 months until Trans FitCon 00:36:43 Dominic Um, I’ll take a little bit of that mac and cheese. 00:36:49 Dominic Wanna do my drain soon, here? 00:36:55 Thea I’m tired, but doing what I can. 00:36:59 Screen Text Thea Dominic’s Partner 00:36:59 Thea I'm emptying the drains and stripping the lines to make sure there's no clotting. 00:37:06 Thea Making sure he’s not reaching above his head 00:37:09 Dominic This ain't gonna be here during competition, this is winter weight. 00:37:56 Dominic I kinda always knew something was different about me, like even when I was younger. 00:38:02 Dominic I'd feel so uncomfortable in my body and I'd feel like everybody was staring at me, and as soon as I came out and started living life as a man and how I wanted to, it's like everything kinda fell into place, my relationship with my parents got better, with my family and friends got better. 00:38:32 Nurse What’s up? 00:38:33 Dominic Yeah, she’s super cool. 00:38:41 Dominic Oh my god, oh my god. 00:38:45 Dominic I wanna fucking kiss Doctor Buckley right now. 00:39:11 Screen text Mason 00:39:14 Anne Your tan line is showing. Do you care? 00:39:14 Screen text 2 months until Trans FitCon 00:39:19 Mason Don’t have that much definition on my legs now. 00:39:21 Mason Does it always look like that, or just now it does? 00:39:23 Anne Just now it does. 00:39:25 Mason I’m curious about how… 00:39:27 Mason Yeah, I feel like it lost definition or something. 00:39:29 Anne Yeah. 00:39:31 Screen Text Mason prepares to step on stage at the NPC Ohio State Championships. 00:39:40 Screen Text Columbus, OH 00:39:50 Official [Announcer] Bodybuilders, we don't wanna see any strippers trunks or tubular extensions, it's horrible, don't do that. We don't wanna see that crap. Trunks are 11 inches for a reason. 00:39:53 Screen Text Mason is competing in two Bodybuliding class: Bantamweight and Masters. 00:39:59 Screen Text Nobody knows he is transgender. 00:40:14 Mason There's an excitement about it, but it's also the nervousness of being like oh my God, I'm trans, these people have no idea. 00:40:22 Mason Good times, good times. 00:40:23 Mason I haven't been on testosterone as long as these people, and getting up here, trying to compete. 00:40:28 Anne They would crap their pants if they knew. 00:40:31 Official Men’s Bantamweight, we're gonna line up in about six, seven minutes! 00:40:35 Anne Essentially he expects to lose. 00:40:37 Anne I think he'll try and play it off like oh no big deal, I just wanna do better than last year, he'll definitely play that. 00:40:45 Official [Announcer] Number 37, Mason Caminiti. 00:40:49 Mason I just remember being obsessed, and doing this like The Hulk does. 00:40:53 Anne Making muscles in the mirror when you're four years old and thinking that's what you're gonna grow up to be. 00:40:59 Anne Making that four year old in the mirror match. 00:41:26 Official [Announcer] 2016 overall figure champ 182, Jezelle Zappata! 00:41:40 Mason For me to feel like okay, I belong on this stage, 'cause I worked hard for it, the shape that I'm in, it's huge. 00:41:46 Official [Announcer] And our third place trophy goes to 37, Mason Caminiti. 00:41:54 Mason So often I didn't feel like I belonged, I didn't have the right to do something, or the respect, or self­respect. To be treated nice, to be spoken to nicely. 00:42:07 Official [Announcer] We're gonna hand out some trophies to this Master's men's bodybuilding category. 00:42:12 Mason To feel like okay, if I work hard for something, I deserve to reap the benefits of that. 00:42:19 Official [Announcer] Mason Caminiti! 00:42:21 Screen Text Mason places 3rd in Bantamweight and 5th in Masters. 00:42:22 Official Nice job, Mason. 00:42:36 Mason’s nephew Jumping jacks! 00:42:45 Screen text Scarlett Mason’s sister 00:42:45 Scarlett Throughout his whole life, it hasn't been about him, it's been about how everyone else sees him. 00:42:51 Scarlett The whole thing is very poetic in a way. I think the intricacies of bodybuilding appeal to the control and getting to the place where he's literally his own man. 00:43:19 Screen text Atlanta, GA 00:43:34 Screen text Rese 00:43:37 Rese That’s me. That’s me. 00:43:40 Julia She was pretty wasn’t she? 00:43:41 Screen text Julia Rese’s grandmother 00:43:42 Julia She was real happy. 00:43:45 Julia Spoiled and happy. 00:43:52 Screen text Rese is staying with his grandparents while he gets back on his feet. 00:44:01 T Is it weird to be called she and stuff, or do you just block it out? 00:44:04 Rese I don't pay attention, they're old. 00:44:06 Julia Must’ve been quite a few years ago though. 00:44:09 Screen text Charlie Rese’s Grandfather 0:44:12 Julia Now she says she wanna be a what? 00:44:16 Rese Bodybuilder. 00:44:17 Julia A bodybuilder, so. 00:44:20 T Are you okay with that? 00:44:21 Julia I’m okay with it. 00:44:30 Rese Psychotic. I'm ready for that shit, man. 00:44:31 Rese Fucking ready for it. 00:44:34 Screen text 7 weeks to Trans FitCon 00:44:58 Rese Hey, you got time to talk? 00:45;03 Screen text Tia Rese’s new partner 00:45:06 Tia We met in a group just for trans women and trans men. 00:45:10 Tia Then we bonded over both of us being single parents. 00:45:14 Screen text Rese and Tia met through a transgender Facebook group. 00:45:21 Screen text Tamarrie Tia’s Daughter 00:45:21 Tia You're gonna break it. 00:45:22 Rese So? 00:45:23 Tia If you break it you have to pay for this shit. 00:45:24 Rese You have to be a chair. 00:45:25 Tia No, I don't wanna be a chair 'cause if I’m a chair you’re going to break me too­­ 00:45:27 Rese Bun’, you like my chair? 00:45:28 Rese You like my chair, Bun? 00:45:31 Rese It's better to date trans women in my opinion 'cause you don't have to explain things to them. 00:45:35 Rese Why are you separating your brother’s hats? 00:45:37 Tia Cis men try so hard to be masculine. Trans men and butch females... 00:45:44 Rese You sure you’re on that seatbelt? 00:45:46 Tia They were at one point in their life a female, so they know how to touch a female, how to treat a female, how to talk to a female, how to look at a female, all that stuff's important to me. 00:45:55 Tia Cis men are not like that. They wanna have sex and that's it. 00:46:00 Screen Text Shortly after meeting, Rese and Tia were married. 00:46:10 Rese Thank you. 00:46:14 Tia We have a legal marriage, husband and wife. They may see it as vice versa, husband and wife, but I know I'm the wife, he knows he's the husband. 00:46:21 Rese Say please. 00:46:23 Rese Well I’ll just keep it on my finger. 00:46:24 Tamarrie Please! 00:46:26 Rese I want a nice please. 00:46:28 Tamarrie Please! 00:46:29 Rese I said… 00:46:34 Tamarrie Help me! Help me! 00:46:36 Rese She cannot help you! 00:46:38 Tia Them two together. 00:46:39 Tia I said, see De'montae may see him as his mother. 00:46:44 Tia She said can he still be my dad? 00:46:46 Tia I said yeah, he's still gonna be your dad, that doesn't take nothing away from him being your dad. 00:46:50 Tia Like his grandma and his sisters may say she, not he. 00:46:56 Screen text Rese and De’montae are moving to Tia’s hometown of Baltimore, where Rese has found work. 00:47:06 De’montae That’s my little sister. 00:47:15 Tia If they ever have the conversation where she says no that's my dad, he says no that's my mom, then we'll have a small talk with them. That's all we can do, we can't force them to do nothing they don't wanna do. 00:47:45 Screen text Dominic 00:47:45 Dominic So I was born in Massachusetts June 21st, 1990, with the name of Dominique Nicole Griffith. 00:47:52 Dominic My birth mother's name was Olga. 00:47:53 Dominic Yeah, if you guys could share this video, I wanna meet my birth mother, I wanna let her know thank you. 00:47:59 Dominic Thank you very much 'cause if it wasn't for you I wouldn't be where I am right now today. 00:48:05 Screen text Woburn, MA 00:48:09 Dominic I really need to know where I came from. 00:48:14 Dominic I got so many questions, I don't even know, man. 00:48:24 Screen text After finding his biological mother via Facebook, Dom is on his way to meet her for the first time. 00:48:32 Screen text 6 weeks to Trans FitCon. 00:48:40 Dominic I was adopted by a predominantly white family, so I don’t know my Puerto Rican roots, I don’t know my black roots, all I know is Italian and German and I'm neither of those things, so it's gonna be really cool to look at their faces and be like wow, we got the same nose, we got the same eyes. 00:49:00 Dominic I don't know, she's probably going crazy. 00:49:05 Dominic But hopefully she's not doubting herself or anything. 00:49:09 Dominic I don't want her to think that I'm not gonna like her, or that I have any ill thoughts about her 'cause I don't. I just wanna know her at this point. 00:49:19 Kathy When he called me on Mother's Day I was taken aback by it on Mother's Day, it was like oh my gosh. 00:49:20 Screen text Kathy Dominic’s mother 00:49:26 Dominic I already have a mom, so what do I call her? 00:49:28 Dominic That’s the biggest thing in my mind right now. 00:49:31 Dominic Are you gonna expect me to call you mom after this? 00:49:33 Dominic 'Cause I don't think I'm gonna be able to do that. 00:46:36 Kathy We went through things that she wouldn't know that we went through, and plus all this transition, this transgender. 00:46:43 Kathy She may have given birth, but we raised the kid. 00:49:46 Kathy That's how I look at it. 00:49:49 Dominic I'm ready to go get some coffee and get on the road. 00:49:53 Dominic I'm ready to meet her, man. 00:49:55 Dominic Ready, cuz? 00:50:03 Screen Text Jessie Dominic’s cousin 00:50:06 Jessie How did you find her? 00:50:08 Dominic Facebook. No bullshit. 00:50:09 Dominic I started looking at her pictures and stuff and I sent her a message. 00:50:12 Dominic She's like your story is so similar to mine, but I had a daughter named Dominique, not a son named Dominic, so I told her you might wanna sit down real quick because you just found your kid. 00:50:24 Dominic I'm about to throw up, G. 00:50:26 Dominic Oh my God, oh shit. 00:50:29 Dominic Fucking god. 00:50:31 Jessie This is crazy. 00:50:32 Dominic I can do this, I'ma do this shit! 00:50:34 Jessie You're gonna do it. 00:50:36 Dominic All right, just like the gym, let's pump pump pump it up. 00:50:38 Dominic No, I’m ready, I’m ready. 00:50:46 Jessie Are you sure? 00:50:41 Dominic Yes, I promise. 00:50:41 Dominic Oh my God, she's right there, she's outside. 00:50:43 Jessie Oh my God. 00:50:44 Dominic Oh my God, oh my God! 00:50:50 Dominic Oh my God, hold on. 00:50:50 Dominic Okay, all right, cool cool cool. 00:50:52 Dominic All right let's go before I fucking change my mind and we drive the fuck off. 00:50:59 Dominic About to freak out, bro. I'm about to freak out, yo. 00:51:00 Dominic I'm about to freak out, yo, come here yo, come here! 00:51:04 Dominic Oh my God! 00:51:10 Dominic It's really you! Oh my God. 00:51:18 Dominic Oh my God. 00:51:21 Dominic You look so good. 00:51:21 Olga Oh my God, look at you. 00:51:27 Olga I said I wasn't gonna do this. 00:51:29 Dominic Oh look at little bro though! 00:51:34 Screen text Manny Dominic’s half brother 00:51:34 Manny How you doing? 00:51:35 Dominic That's that shit Manny, (mumbles). 00:51:38 Dominic Oh fuck. 00:51:40 Dominic Oh my God. 00:51;42 Dominic Yo, whoa! 00:51:51 Dominic This is real though… 00:51:53 Olga This is my baby. 00:51:56 Olga I'm so nervous, I'm gonna pass out. 00:51:58 Dominic Nah, let's go in the house mama, come on. 00:52:01 Dominic You all right, you good. 00:52:06 Dominic You good, I know this a big moment for both of us. 00:52:10 Olga Look at your chest. 00:52:11 Dominic Yeah. 00:52:11 Olga Manly shit. 00:52:17 Dominic Holy fuck yo, I need to sit down, yo. 00:52:21 Dominic Yo, I look like my mom, yo. 00:52:25 Dominic That's what's up. 00:52:27 Olga I got you and E and J in the freezer. 00:52:29 Dominic Oh yeah, I need a shot right about now,I'm telling you, I could use that. 00:52:33 Olga Want a glass of wine? 00:52:34 Dominic Cool. 00:52:37 Olga This one I was smoking before you came in. 00:52:39 Dominic Cool. 00:52:42 Olga My anxiety's like pshew . 00:52:44 Olga Thank God I took a pill before you got here. 00:52:47 Dominic Hell yeah, this my mom for sure. 00:52:49 Olga I may not raised him, but I know he's mine. 00:52:53 Olga I'm very proud of him. 00:52:54 Olga Very proud, couldn't be any prouder. 00:52:57 Dominic That’s what’s up. 00:52:58 Dominic That's good to hear, that's the first, 00:52:59 Dominic that's good to hear for the first time. 00:53:01 Olga Couldn't be any prouder. 00:53:04 Dominic ­ It was like when you first told me 00:53:04 Dominic you love me for the first time on Facebook 00:53:05 Dominic and I cried 'cause I'm like wow, 00:53:07 Dominic I've been waiting for this forever. 00:53:13 Olga Your grandmother's Puerto Rican 00:53:15 Olga and your grandfather's Dominican, 00:53:16 Olga I just recently found that out. 00:53:18 Dominic Wait, so I'm Dominican too? 00:53:20 Olga Yup, you got Dominican in you. 00:53:21 Dominic What the­­ 00:53:22 Olga I just found that out myself. 00:53:25 Dominic ­ So okay, so instead of me being 00:53:27 Dominic African American, Puerto Rican, and white, 00:53:29 Dominic I'm Dominican, Puerto Rican, and white? 00:53:33 Olga Wow. 00:53:35 Dominic Wow! 00:53:38 Dominic I thought I was African American this whole time. 00:53:41 Olga Nope. 00:53:42 Dominic What, hey, about to change the game up, do a little salsa. 00:53:46 Dominic That's just crazy. 00:53:51 Dominic All right, okay mom. 00:53:54 Dominic Let's see what I've been missing, all these years with this food though. 00:54:00 Dominic This beats every fucking moment I've 00:54:02 Dominic ever had, including my top surgery, 00:54:05 Dominic and everybody knows that my top surgery was my shit. 00:54:09 Dominic I got another family, yo. 00:54:13 Dominic I feel like I could fly right now, 00:54:15 Dominic like legit, like superman type shit, 00:54:15 Dominic like I'm on top of the world right now, 00:54:18 Dominic nobody could fuck with my day today. 00:54:21 Dominic My parents always said that there was drugs in my system when I was born, is that true? 00:54:27 Olga No, there shouldn't have been any drugs­­ 00:54:28 Dominic ­ They said that there was cocaine in my system. 00:54:28 Olga I didn't use any drugs when I was pregnant with you. 00:54:32 Dominic Okay, I just wanted to clear that up. 00:54:33 Olga No I didn't, but I tell you one thing, your father used drugs. 00:54:39 Olga He was on that shit, but I wasn't. 00:54:41 Dominic Okay. 00:54:43 Dominic This is how I see it as an all-around picture. 00:54:46 Dominic You could’ve aborted me and you didn’t. 00:54:48 Olga Yeah, and I wasn't going to. 00:54:49 Dominic At the end of the day, all I can do is thank you for everything. 00:54:54 Dominic Legitly, from the bottom of my heart, 00:54:56 Dominic thank you for the family you gave me to 00:54:59 Dominic ‘cause they adopted me, thank you 00:55:01 Dominic For the life that you allow me to live 00:55:03 Dominic type of shit, and thank you for this. 00:55:12 Screen text Kennie 00:55:17 Screen text Kennie and D.J. visit his family for the first time since Kennie started testosterone. 00:55:23 Screen text Fort Worth, TX 00:55:27 Kennie I was thinking and hoping that I would be seeing changes sooner. 00:55:36 DJ He asked me on the way down here, 00:55:37 DJ he's like, do you think anyone in my 00:55:38 DJ family will even notice anything different? 00:55:42 DJ His face looks more square to me now. 00:55:45 DJ He used to smell really good when 00:55:46 DJ he worked out, and he would come home 00:55:47 DJ and it would be salty and it would be a tangy smell I guess, and now it's man sweat. 00:55:56 DJ You can have one taste of whipped cream. 00:55:54 Screen text 4 weeks to Trans FitCon 00:55:58 Kennie It has increased definitely. 00:55:59 Kennie My sex drive. 00:56:08 DJ It's a sad thing because he will be getting hornier as I will be getting less attracted to him. 00:56:20 Screen text Kennie’s childhood home 00:56:24 Screen text Anita Kennie’s Mother 00:56:24 Anita From the time they put them in our arms they were ours even though they weren't biologically ours. 00:56:33 Alejandro We weren't the normal twins. 00:56:33 Screen text Alejandro Kennie’s brother 00:56:35 Alejandro Like oh a lot of people see twins and they're always together. 00:56:38 Alejandro She was quiet and reserved, or he? Should I say he? 00:56:34 Alejandro He was quiet and reserved. 00:56:46 Anita Darvish walked one, he's getting ready to walk another one. 00:56:50 Anita I remember seeing her one day out in the cul-de-sac throwing a football. 00:56:57 Anita Like a guy. 00:57:00 Anita Somebody said, who is that boy over there? 00:57:03 Anita I just thought she was my tomboy. 00:57:08 Alejandro I actually truly believe that I actually have more estrogen in me, and he was born with 00:57:14 Alejandro more testosterone, ever since he said he was a lesbian. 00:57:17 Alejandro That sounds weird, ever since he said he was a lesbian, see, this is why it's fucking confusing! 00:57:04 Alejandro First thing I thought to myself was how do I tell my children? 00:57:30 Alejandro I don't wanna give them permission to go and explore. 00:57:35 Alejandro But why? Why can't they explore? 00:57:39 Anita That was eighth grade. 00:57:42 Anita It was second place. 00:57:45 Anita It was devastating. 00:57:47 Anita It was the second time I got hit in the stomach. 00:57:52 Anita First time when she told me she was gay. 00:57:55 Anita Then the transition. 00:58:01 Kennie I mean it's not a perfect place, but we're in 00:58:04 Kennie a good place considering the circumstances. 00:58:07 Kennie I think it's just hard for her right now. 00:58:09 Kennie I’m gonna let that cool off while I do this shot. 00:58:13 Kennie It is kinda strange being back in this place and growing into what is now her son instead of her daughter. 00:58:33 Anita I'm not completely understanding of it. 00:58:37 Anita But that's not important. 00:58:41 Anita 'Cause Arian's my kid. 00:58:53 Anita Because I love her. 00:59:03 Anita And that trumps everything. 00:59:22 Screen text Kennie’s elementary school 00:59:24 Kennie I guess I went into the girl's bathroom 00:59:27 Kennie and another little girl thought I was a little 00:59:30 Kennie boy and freaked out, went and told the teachers. 00:59:35 Kennie They came in saying is there a little boy in here and I just kinda didn't answer. 00:59:40 Kennie Here I am thinking I'm gonna get in trouble for just going to the bathroom. 00:59:46 Kennie And I still feel like that. 00:59:49 Kennie And I probably will for a while unfortunately. 00:59:55 DJ When we're in a public place together I will always go to the bathroom with him 00:59:59 DJ because a lot of times if people see me with him acting affectionately assume that he's lesbian. 01:00:06 Kennie And this has been my girlfriend since elementary school, she just did not know it. 01:00:12 Anita In the relationship with DJ, DJ knows everything and is accepting, and I would like for 01:00:20 Anita it to continue, but I'm not sure that it will. 01:00:26 DJ We went to the Tegan And Sara concert a couple nights ago for our anniversary. 01:00:30 DJ There was a part of the concert where they're like so give a shout­out if you're gay, lesbians shout­out. 01:00:39 DJ I was clapping, and then they were like and all the straight people, and Kennie 01:00:46 DJ started clapping, and that was a shock I guess. 01:00:51 DJ Being gay is really important to me. 01:00:54 DJ I lost a lot when I came out. 01:00:57 DJ I lost my family essentially. 01:01:01 Anita I know Arian wants to have a person love her, 01:01:04 Anita or him, and I want that for them, for her, for him. 01:01:10 Anita But I think it could be harder to find that. 01:01:15 Anita Someone who wouldn't say oh my gosh, you're a freak. Ya know? 01:01:24 DJ I still find him attractive, but as far as sexually attractive, not so much. 01:01:40 DJ But yeah, I mean it's over and I know it is. 01:01:48 DJ He was my person I thought. 01:01:54 Kennie And I still feel like I can be that person for her. 01:02:02 DJ It makes me feel like a shallow bitch. because he's still the same, and the person that I'm in love with is still there. 01:02:13 Kennie I mean I do really hope that at some point she can see beyond gender and just see me as a person. 01:02:30 Kennie I mean this isn't an easy process for anyone, 01:02:33 Kennie so in a sense everyone is losing a part of their identity as I change my own. 01:03:00 Screen text Rese 01:03:01 Rese I don't even know how to start this video off. 01:03:05 Rese Every day I wake up, I fear for my wife's safety, for my safety, for my children's safety. 01:03:15 Rese I'm tired of waking up looking on Facebook seeing another trans woman die. 01:03:20 Rese I'm tired of all my friends dying just because we just wanna be left alone and live our life as people. 01:03:29 Screen text Rese’s and Tia’s friend Crystal was just killed on a Baltimore street after disclosing her trans status to a man who was interested in her. 01:03:37 Screen text He shot her in the back of the head. 01:03:47 Screen text Crystal is the 21st transgender person murdered in the U.S. this year. 01:03:56 Rese When do I get my right? 01:03:59 Rese When do my brothers and sisters get to live in peace? 01:04:10 Screen text Crystal’s murderer has yet to be found. 01:04:16 Rese If I could just go back and not transition and just be a female, trust me I would. 01:04:25 Rese I think my life would be much more easy. 01:01:29 Rese Much more easy. 01:04:32 Rese But that’s not something I can do. 01:04:34 Rese If it was that easy I would do it. [crowd] No justice, no peace. No justice, no peace… 01:04:50 Rese Besides being trans, I'm an activist, I'm a power lifter, I'm a father. 01:04:56 Rese I'm someone's child, I'm someone's grandchild. 01:05:01 Rese I’m somebody. 01:05:13 Screen text Dominic 01:05:19 Dominic Me and Thea broke up. 01:05:26 Screen text 2 weeks to Trans FitCon 01:05:29 Dominic I'm like the calm one, which kind of makes it feel to her like I'm brushing it off, 01:05:34 Dominic and she's quick to go on the defensive about everything, so it ends up being a huge fight no matter what we talk about. 01:05:45 Dominic It's crazy to think of all the things that we went through just this year. 01:06:00 Dominic Get up. 01:06:02 Dominic You ready to help me bring some stuff in the house? 01:06:05 Dominic I call her my sister, her name's Amanda. 01:06:07 Dominic She has my nephew Emmett, so I'm gonna go bunk it up with those two and save some money 01:06:11 Dominic and hopefully get my own little bachelor pad. 01:06:22 Dominic Can I have a kiss? 01:06:27 Dominic That wasn’t a kiss. 01:06:32 Dominic Definitely sucks sitting here and unpacking all the stuff that used to be our walls to put on my walls, you know what I'm saying? 01:06:40 Dominic I went from living with my parents to living with my ex­fiancée, so it was like 01:06:44 Dominic I never really had my own space. 01:06:52 Dominic I’ve been asked on several dates and asked to come over to people's houses. 01:06:58 Dominic It's cool to know that I still got it I guess because I was out the game 01:07:01 Dominic for a good six, seven years almost with Thea. 01:07:12 Dominic I'm working on a new track, it's called My Mind is Gone. 01:07:14 Dominic ♪ Scenarios in my head like maybe ♪ 01:07:17 Dominic ♪ Maybe if I wasn't here it would be better ♪ 01:07:19 Dominic ♪ Maybe if I would've just treated her better ♪ 01:07:21 Dominic ♪ Nah fuck that, pour another shot ♪ 01:07:23 Dominic ♪ Drown the sorrows out, try to scream for help ♪ 01:07:25 Dominic ♪ Silence is all that's coming out ♪ 01:07:27 Dominic ♪ I'm losing it, I could feel myself slipping ♪ 01:07:29 Dominic ♪ Constant nightmares got me waking up tripping ♪ 01:07:32 Dominic ♪ Like what the fuck is missing ♪ 01:07:34 Dominic ♪ Calling my mama up like damn ma, ♪ 01:07:36 Dominic ♪ I really should've listened ♪ 01:07:38 Dominic ♪ The next time you all alone ♪ 01:07:39 Dominic ♪ Man I hope it's me you missing ♪ 01:07:42 Dominic That's what makes me the happiest, besides fitness. 01:07:47 Dominic It’s fitness and music. 01:07:49 Dominic ♪Thinking out loud, told y’all ideas crazy right now ♪ 01:07:52 Dominic ♪ Everywhere I go I’m the king, hold it down ♪ 01:07:56 Dominic ♪Put this on loud, I ain’t never turn it down ♪ 01:07:56 Dominic ♪ So nigga what’s up? Do you hear me now? ♪ 01:08:03 Dominic ♪ Lil one is the one you need to fear right now ♪ 01:08:06 Dominic ♪ Let’s make it clear b, ain’t another niggas comin’ near me♪ 01:08:06 Dominic Bodybuilding competition’s coming up. 01:08:08 Dominic I still have extra weight in my gut area from surgery, but I've been able to get my arms back. 01:08:19 Dominic I will show the guys don't give up, it's okay if you're not in your tiptop shape. 01:08:26 Dominic It's all about showing your scars, or if you're pre­op like I was last year, showing your chest and being proud of it. 01:08:36 Dominic What matters is that you get up on that stage. 01:08:51 Screen text Ellen DeGeneres HBO Special (1995) 01:08:48 Ellen Yes sir, right there. 01:08:51 Mason Ma’am 01:08:51 Ellen Ma’am sorry, I’m sorry. 01:09:06 Screen text Mason 01:09:16 Ellen Yes, ma’am. 01:09:16 Mason I actually just had a comment. 01:09:18 Mason You were a role model to me both before and especially after you came out. 01:09:22 Mason Excuse me, I'm sorry. 01:09:24 Mason I just wanna thank so much you for coming out because it took so much strength and courage 01:09:32 Mason and you give me so much hope and promise 01:09:34 Mason for my future that I can be normal and fulfill my dreams, and I'm one of the people that you've changed my life by coming out, and I'm living proof, so thank you. 01:09:50 Mason Woo. 01:09:52 Mason Still. 01:09:53 Scarlett When he came out as gay in basically 01:09:56 Screen text Scarlett Mason’s sister 01:09:59 Scarlett late teens, early 20s, that made sense, but there was still, for me, there was still something missing. 01:10:10 Mason I knew I was trans as a kid. 01:10:13 Screen text 6 days to Trans FitCon 01:10:18 Scarlett I mean we’re 15 months apart. 01:10:20 Scarlett We shared a room growing up. 01:10:23 Scarlett Back in the 70s and the 80s when there wasn't a name to it, he was just my brother and that's the way he was. 01:10:32 Screen text Wooster, OH 01:10:34 Mason Look at this place, it's beautiful. 01:10:42 Screen text Mason’s former college campus 01:10:49 Mason They had group showers here, and I didn't want to take a group shower. 01:10:53 Mason I ended up staying up late at night so I could take a shower at 3 in the morning. 01:10:58 Mason I turned nocturnal, then I failed out and came home at 19, my mom asked me again 01:11:04 Mason do you want a sex change and I just told her yeah. 01:11:11 Mason And I was relieved, I thought we were gonna talk about it and we didn’t. 01:11:20 Mason So I took some, I think it was wine and some Tylenol PM, like a bottle of it. 01:11:27 Mason My mom found me, which I know must've been horrible for her. 01:11:31 Mason I couldn't open up my eyes and she kept 01:11:34 Mason screaming my name and my dad came in 01:11:35 Mason and finally I woke up and she was like you wanna kill yourself, I'll kill you. 01:11:46 Mason Then she just ended up beating the shit out of me. 01:11:49 Mason I fell on the floor and when I fell 01:11:51 Mason on the floor she started kicking me. 01:11:54 Mason My dad was trying to restrain her. 01:12:00 Mason Even now it's emotional, I'm getting a pit in my stomach about how, just how lonely I felt. 01:12:28 Screen text Atlanta, GA 01:12:47 Mason I'm just happy and just really lucky 01:12:48 Mason to be in a position to come down here 01:12:50 Mason and travel and be a part of this. 01:12:52 Mason It's just awesome. 01:12:58 Mason It's really great. 01:13:00 Mason All right, pull it together Mason. 01:13:13 Screen text Trans FitCon Begins 01:13:35 Screen text On phone: Rese 01:13:35 T How's it going? 01:13:33 Rese All flights are canceled there are no flights going out. 01:13:38 T So it looks like there's no bodybuilding in your near future. 01:13:41 Rese I’ll keep you posted. 01:13:45 Screen text Rese’s flight to Atlanta was canceled due to Hurricane Matthew. 01:13:49 Screen text He is out of the competition. 01:13:57 Screen text 8 hours to competition. 01:14:13 Mason This reminds me of before my transition. 01:14:17 Mason I did not like shaving. 01:14:25 Screen text Sabastian, 45 Lightweight 01:14:25 Sabastian Well hold on, why don't you just hit some bars for us while we standing in here, how about that? 01:14:29 Dominic ♪ Do you hear me now ♪ 01:14:30 Dominic ♪ Lil One is the one you need to fear right now ♪ 01:14:40 Dominic Stop flexing 01:14:41 Sabastian I’m not flexing. 01:14:48 Screen text Cody, 29 Lightweight 01:14:48 Screen text Rufio, 27 Lightweight 01:15:03 Rufio So can you penetrate with what you have now? 01:15:05 Cody No 01:15:06 Rufio Even with a really flexible person? 01:15:09 Cody Nope 01:15:12 Rufio I mean I know some trans guys who can. 01:15:22 Screen text Registration/Weigh-in 01:15:29 Screen text Bucky Motter Head Judge 01:15:26 Bucky The release forms are right there, and the pens are up there, and then come in after you've signed your release 01:15:32 Bucky form and I'll give you your number. 01:15:37 Screen text Competition break down 01:15:38 Bucky Okay gentlemen, it looks like we have nine lightweights competing, two heavyweights 01:15:42 Bucky and no middleweights because our lone middleweight 01:15:44 Bucky had to withdraw due to some travel issues. 01:15:50 Bucky The winner of the lightweight class will go 01:15:51 Bucky up against the winner of the heavyweight class 01:15:54 Bucky and an overall winner of the show will be selected. 01:16:13 Bucky Thomas Murrell. 01:16:16 Mason The one guy in heavyweight is huge. 01:16:21 Passerby What ‘cha doing? 01:16:22 Tommy Right now eating. 01:16:24 Passerby I mean you a rapper? You a singer? 01:16:26 Tommy No, no, a bodybuilder. 01:16:28 Tommy You're a bodybuilder. 01:16:29 Tommy I came to bring up the competitiveness a little bit, you know? 01:16:33 Screen text Tommy Murrell, 38 Miami, FL Heavyweight 01:16:41 Screen text Miami, FL 01:16:50 Tommy You understand the stuff that we have to go through to be able to do what we do? 01:16:54 Tommy It's not like I'm gonna go up to a doctor and inject myself every week with hormones, 01:16:58 Tommy and I'm gonna go to another doctor and have them chop off my chest. 01:17:03 Tommy Dude, you're an idiot if you think I chose this. 01:17:20 Jamie I believe in Jesus as a lifestyle. 01:17:24 Jamie I spoke to some of my colleagues, my pastor friends 01:17:28 Screen text Jamie Tommy’s father 01:17:27 Jamie and stuff, the advice that they would give me 01:17:30 Jamie was to kick him out, put him out on the streets, and there's no way I could do that. 01:17:35 Verna When I was in church I seen they did a lot 01:17:38 Screen text Verna Tommy’s mother 01:17:38 Verna of mean things to Tommy because a lot of them suspected that Tommy was gay. 01:17:48 Verna When Tommy started to take drugs and stuff like that, those were very bad days for me. 01:17:55 Tommy I started spending more time with my family because I wanted to be able to do that before I left. 01:18:01 Tommy It was the day before I was gonna go buy the gun. 01:18:04 Tommy A nine millimeter Smith & Wesson, it was 450 bucks at this store that was literally right across from my job. 01:18:15 Tommy I'm sitting down and I'm watching TV and my mom's like something is really really wrong with you, and I was like 01:18:21 Tommy aw Mom, I'm fine, whatever, just a little sad. 01:18:25 Tommy She was like no no no no no, I had a dream. 01:18:28 Tommy Your dad found you dead on the bathroom floor. 01:18:31 Tommy She's like I don't know what in the world is going on with you, but stop it. 01:18:40 Tommy There's a time in your life where you just wanna stop hiding and just live 01:18:44 Tommy your life and not care what people think. 01:18:54 Tommy I want the male physique that I've always wanted. 01:18:57 Tommy If I'm gonna do this, I'm gonna go all the way. 01:19:00 Tommy All the way. 01:19:09 Jamie One of the things that I would always tell Tommy 01:19:11 Jamie You know what people think about you. 01:19:12 Jamie Make them liars. 01:19:15 Tommy The more I learn to live my life out loud, 01:19:18 Tommy maybe there's a little kid somewhere 01:19:19 Tommy that won't go through what I went through. 01:19:30 Screen text Some of the bodybuilders attend the nearby Atlanta Trans March, three hours before competition. 01:19:36 Dominic Trans March is taking off at 2 o’clock! 01:19:49 Dominic Out of the closet and into the streets! 01:19:51 Dominic Out of the closet and into the streets! 01:20:06 Dominic When trans rights are under attack, what do we do? 01:20:16 Protestor #1 If you're a Y, you're a guy! 01:20:19 Protestor #1 Real simple! 01:20:20 Protester #1 You were born either male or female! 01:20:30 Protester #2 Turn or burn 01:20:48 Skyler You are beautiful! Your rights matter! You’re beautiful! 01:20:57 Protester #4 You’re gonna burn in Hell! 01:20:59 Protester #4 That’s what you’re gonna do! 01:21:22 Mason This is an alligator. 01:21:27 Mason Caw caw, caw caw! 01:21:30 Screen text 1 hour to competition 01:21:30 Mason If I am lucky to win the lightweight, if I'm fortunate and my hard work pays off, 01:21:35 Mason I'll be really psyched about that. 01:21:37 Rufio Mason? 01:21:39 Rufio I didn't seem him coming. 01:21:41 Rufio He looks pretty boss. 01:21:44 Cody This is a big step for me. 01:21:50 Rufio Let's go win this. 01:21:55 DJ Here we go. 01:21:59 Preston When I came in I was like oh wow, so we got some more people that's really been working out. 01:22:02 Screen text Preston, 30 Lightweight 01:22:05 Dominic They're staring at you and you're like 01:22:07 Dominic what is he looking at, should I turn? 01:22:10 Preston Smile. 01:22:10 Screen text Preston placed 2nd last year. 01:22:12 Preston Try to remember to smile. 01:22:24 Mason It smells buttery and delicious in here. 01:22:32 Screen text Shawn Stinson Judge 01:22:32 Shawn You should be a walking anatomy chart. 01:22:36 Screen text Shawn won the last two Trans FitCon competitions. 01:22:40 Shawn Definition and symmetry, mass, stage presence plays a major role. 01:22:50 Shawn It's definitely gonna be a showdown tonight. 01:22:53 Shawn We got some tight bodies. 01:23:00 Mason Big question is how does my sock look? 01:23:01 Mason I'm just kidding. 01:23:06 Mason It's just a sock. 01:23:07 Mason I have this fear that I pack and then walk out on stage and it just fall down on my leg. 01:23:11 Mason What is, oh my God, where'd that come from? 01:23:14 Screen text Sabastian 01:23:14 Sabastian I have one that's a little bit bigger than the other and I said, I don't want 01:23:18 Sabastian everyone to be like, staring at my, on the stage. 01:23:21 Sabastian I wouldn't be able to look at me, so I'm gonna go a little bit smaller. 01:23:25 Hunter I don’t wear a packer every day. 01:23:26 Hunter I've actually been posing with it for about a month. 01:23:29 Screen text Hunter, 30 Lightweight 01:23:29 Hunter Is it gonna fall out, or am I gonna do this one pose and it's just gonna be like tada? 01:23:35 Cody Does it look like I have a boner? 01:23:37 Screen text Cody 01:23:37 Cody Maybe I'm just not used to it. 01:23:43 Screen text Rufio 01:23:43 Rufio It's not like oh man, I wanna look like I have a dick, it's more like these pants 01:23:47 Rufio really do look weird if I don't have a dick in. 01:23:50 Tommy I feel weird without my packer. 01:23:50 Screen text Tommy 01:23:52 Tommy Like five minutes I have to leave the house, I'm trying to look for it 'cause I don't know where I put it, you know. 01:23:59 T Do you pack all the time and do you pack in the gym? 01:24:01 Paulo No. 01:24:01 T Cause who wants to worry about that falling out on the treadmill? 01:24:04 Paulo I mean it’s fallen out on the floor in the bathroom sometimes. 01:24:06 Paulo Nobody's looking at my dick when I'm bench pressing, who's looking at that? 01:24:06 Screen text Paulo Batista Judge 01:24:09 T Actually a lot of people. 01:24:22 Mason It'll sound corny, but I just feel like all of us should be really proud of ourselves for getting up there. 01:24:28 Dominic That’s not corny at all. 01:24:29 Mason I just feel like we all beat the odds just by being alive if you by statistics. 01:24:34 Mason I'm just excited for everybody. 01:24:37 Bucky Okay everybody. 01:24:39 Bucky The first group of athletes I wanna bring out are the lightweights. 01:24:44 Bucky Y'all give them a big hand. 01:25:13 Bucky Front double biceps. 01:25:48 Bucky Thank you, gentlemen. 01:25:53 Bucky Number three, you can stay on stage. 01:25:58 Screen text Cody 01:26:00 Cody I felt this freedom that I had never had before. 01:26:04 Cody It was like I can't just let this go, like this is my second chance. 01:26:13 Colin I think he's not scared to be himself. 01:26:14 Screen text Colin Cody’s brother 01:26:17 Colin Which I don't know that I could've said that even two years ago. 01:26:24 Screen text Rufio 01:26:30 Rufio I still feel like both. 01:26:36 Rufio I'll wear heels, I will do the most feminine things that you think is 01:26:40 Rufio ridiculous and I feel so masculine doing it. 01:26:51 Screen text Dominic 01:25:53 Dominic It makes me feel really proud of everybody 01:26:57 Dominic to know that all these people came down the same path as you and they all had 01:27:01 Dominic the same courage you had to stand up there, 01:27:03 Dominic to show scars or breast tissue, and have the possibility of being judged by the world and not care. 01:27:19 Screen text Mason 01:27:23 Anna I try and remind him of that four year old boy. 01:27:26 Anna Just remember who that was and be that person right now, and be so proud of yourself, 'cause I am. 01:27:37 Mason Every day you have to manifest your dream and every day you have to step into your dream. 01:27:44 Mason I feel like I step into my dream on stage. 01:27:50 Bucky Thank you. 01:27:57 Screen text Tommy 01:27:58 Tommy You’re like soft clay. 01:28:00 Tommy The only way you're gonna get tough, you gotta go into the fire and you gotta stay in that fire uncomfortable for a little bit, 01:28:05 Tommy you come out this new beautiful piece of art. 01:28:18 Screen text Kennie 01:28:27 Kennie I'm not real proud of obviously what my body looks like because to me it's not manly enough. 01:28:38 Screen text Anita Kennie’s mother 01:28:38 Anita I worry all the time about somebody hurting Arian, harming Arian, especially as he steps out there and becomes more visible. 01:29:01 Hunter Confidence in who I'm supposed to be. 01:29:01 Screen text Hunter 01:29:08 Mara How can you not be okay with your kid being happy? 01:29:08 Screen text Mara Hunter’s mother 01:29:11 Mara Dead kid or kid? 01:29:13 Mara Boy or girl, I don’t care. 01:29:16 Mara That's why this is so cool to me because 01:29:20 Mara I see the kid I always saw, but in that 01:29:22 Mara other body and now it's like he owns it. 01:29:33 Screen text Sabastian 01:29:41 Sabastian You feel trapped for a long time. 01:29:45 Sabastian Real trapped. 01:29:48 Sabastian It feels like nobody understands when you're standing there and you're feeling like you're alone. 01:29:54 Sabastian The world just opened up, just felt free. 01:30:04 Bucky We have a large class and the judges would like to see y'all one more time. 01:30:15 Paulo Who do you want to win? 01:30:17 Paulo This is your chance, yell it! 01:30:26 Bucky Okay, so the judges are gonna need to deliberate for a little while. 01:30:31 Bucky Okay, what are you thinking? 01:30:32 Shawn I don't know. 01:30:33 Bucky Okay, let me show you... 01:30:35 Shawn These two, they're both tied for me. 01:30:40 Mason Anytime I've ever gone up against someone bigger, they always win 01:30:44 Mason 'cause they always pick the muscle mass. 01:30:47 Paulo What got me was his back, he had a better back. 01:30:52 Bucky Next I'd like to bring up C. Michael Woodward and Thomas Murrell in the heavyweight category. 01:31:00 Bucky First place, Thomas Murrell. 01:31:10 Bucky In the lightweight category, please come back to the stage Mason Caminiti, Cody Harmon, and Sabastian Roy Noriega. 01:31:21 Bucky Y'all give them a big round of applause. 01:31:26 Bucky In third place, Sabastian Roy Noriega. 01:31:36 Bucky In second place we have... 01:31:43 Bucky Cody Harmon. 01:31:53 Bucky And our first place winner in the lightweight category is Mason Caminiti. 01:32:04 Bucky Thank you gentlemen, that's a great class. 01:32:08 Bucky Very good class. 01:32:15 Bucky For the overall, which is the whole show, I'd like to bring to the stage Mason Caminiti from the lightweight category and Thomas Murrell. 01:32:35 Bucky The overall winner goes to number 14, Thomas Murrell. 01:33:09 Mason We all bust our ass, we're all putting ourselves out there who have body issues. 01:33:21 Mason You do feel like you're with family. 01:33:21 Dominic I'm proud, the Trans March really changed my whole attitude today. 01:33:56 Jamie Hello? 01:33:57 Tommy Hey dad, I have good news. 01:33:59 Jamie What? 01:34:00 Tommy I won my class and I won the overall. 01:34:04 Jamie Oh lord, yeah? 01:34:05 Tommy Yeah, man. 01:34:06 Jamie And I thank God for the experience because it has shown me to really understand what love is. 01:34:14 Jamie Most people, we talk about love, but we don't know what love is. 01:34:18 Jamie Love hurts and love is kind and love is patient. 01:34:18 Sabastian I'm not alone. 01:34:27 Sabastian Here are my people, they are here. 01:34:31 Shawn We're all different, we all have different stories, we all transition differently. 01:34:36 Shawn We're not monsters, we're not demons. 01:34:39 Shawn We're humans just like everybody else, 01:34:41 Shawn we're just a little different. 01:34:54 Screen text Man Made 01:35:10 Screen text Directed, produced and filmed by T Cooper 01:35:15 Screen text Tommy is fine-tuning his physique in preparation for mainstream competition. 01:35:22 Screen text Written by T Cooper Allison Glock-Cooper 01:35:29 Screen text Rese, Tia, De’montae and Tamarrie are planning a move from Baltimore to Atlanta next year. 01:35:39 Screen text Excutive producer Téa Leoni 01:35:45 Screen text Dominic moved back in with Thea. 01:35:52 Screen text Executive producers John Hirsch Ron Yassen 01:35:57 Screen text Mason had bottom surgery. 01:36:04 Screen text And won his class at the most recent Ohio State Championship. 01:36:10 Screen text Editor Charlene Fisk 01:36:15 Screen text Mason and Anne are starting a family. 01:39:19 Screen text Original music Nick Takénobu Ogawa 01:36:24 Screen text D.J. moved out of Kennie’s house. 01:36:32 Screen text Co-producers Charlene Fisk Allison Glock-Cooper Lauren Griswold 01:36:37 Kennie Hi T, this is Kennie. Four weeks on T. 01:36:41 Kennie 13 weeks. 01:36:42 Kennie Five month update. 01:36:43 Kennie Seven month. 01:36:43 Kennie About eight months. 01:36:44 Kennie Nine months. 01:36:45 Kennie 11 months. 01:36:46 Kennie One year and eight months. 01:36:47 Kennie Two years eight months on T and I'm feeling pretty good. 01:36:54 Screen text For Mary Gonzalez 1933-2016 SCROLLING CREDITS BEGIN