HAILSTONE’S DANCE
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My bro went out every afternoon
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I mean we went out together and played
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But that day, he didn't let me to go out.
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Just once, I decided to suicide
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I did but it didn't work
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I cut my hand with a piece of glass
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The doctor said it was close to my vessel
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anyway, it passed
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My relatives think that I fell down on a table
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and the glass cut my hand
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Well, no one knows
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Sometimes it comes to my mind to do it again, But...
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I don't have the courage .I don't know. Do I afraid?
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I am afraid of dying
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But, I also love to see what happen to me in the future?
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Also to my future?
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What I will be, what it will be?
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My feelings...
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Well, I was 8 years old and I didn't know what was happening
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and what that behavior is
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I didn't even know what I was afraid of...
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but well, it hurt me very much
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my Mom is a very religious person
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but she doesn't annoy anyone
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She minds her own business
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Sometime she tells me what to do or what not to do
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but she never force me to do something
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The one whose religion is true becomes like this.
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my bro is older than me
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He is...
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around 25, 26 years old
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so nice...
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we are so close.
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I don't have so much girly molarities
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We are more like two brothers
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When my brother found out,
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At first he became furious
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I never saw my mother and my brother angry like that before.
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He wanted to kill him
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But well, after a while he told me:
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You should be patient, should be reasonable
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However his dialectic was very dreamy!
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We'll have a house soon, we'll live independently!
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I don't care so much
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I know everything passes like just this moment
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I am mostly cheerful
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I talk with others, laugh and have fun
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When in a group, I try to make them all laugh
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But...
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day after day, I feel more and more depressed
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if there was no water, I would drown (she has occupied her life with swimming)
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My mom went to shiraz
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hmm...
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my parents had argued a lot
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My dad didn't want my mom to take me with her
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to not to see my mom going, Dad picked me up after school
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When we went home, Mom wasn't there
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We were just dad, my bro and me
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My bro went out every afternoon
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we usually went out together and played
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but that day he didn't let me
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We were alone at home and...
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it's hard!
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He played a movie for me,
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and then he had taken his clothes off
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Once, I wanted to kill him
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He is sick. He uses too much drugs
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I bought potassium cyanide and filled one of his capsules
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but then I felt sorry
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I was afraid and...
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on the other hand...
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I wanted to see him suffer when he is alive
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I thought if I would kill him
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his suffering would be lost in the other world!
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Our whole family's decision is to see him suffer
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as he gets older and older
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we're waiting for it
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[Radio] - "Doctor! Following our discussion during yesterday"
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we reached to the question:
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"what legal steps the raped pass for approving her claim?"
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Please tell to our audience about this
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_ You know, the most important step of these kind of judicial cases,
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especially raping through incest
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is to give proof of your claim
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This step includes three other sub-steps. First is examination.
Second is for testimony and witnesses
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And the last one, offender's confession.
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_ OK, so at the first, the examination should take place, right?
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_ yes. The step of examination as itself includes 72 hours
which we usually skip it.
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Especially for nowadays that furtive activities are
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taking place everywhere in our society.
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I should also mention that according to the statistics,
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we have around 5200 judicial cases.
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_ Doctor! As you said, we have the witnesses and
their testimony for the next step, right?
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_ Yes. And this step is actually one of the most difficult one in these kind of cases.
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_ Why?
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_ because it is the most important evidence for us for proving the claim
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And for this there should be 4 persons. But not everybody.
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They have to have some especial condition. There should be 4 wise and mature men who have seen the crime closely and they must to present in the court for the testimony.
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_ eyewitnesses?
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_ Yes, exactly
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_ don't you think it is a bit irrational?
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Once, I ran away from home
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it lasted 1 month
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but...
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I found out that it would be...
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it would be...
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much more difficult for me to stay somewhere that
my father is not around
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I don't know. Maybe it's because the fact that when he is there
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my mom is also there, my brother is also there
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It is just enough for me to have a home
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It is just enough for me to have a home, a place for myself
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No one wants something from me in lieu of this house
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Maybe he wants. But I don't care.
His thoughts and his behaviors are not important for me at all
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He made himself totally worthless for me. So...
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I don't believe in future
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because in my opinion all disasters are in future.
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Up to now, it has got worse by passing the time,
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nothing good has happened at all
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I think I like it to be done
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If it finishes, I say well, it is finished
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Everything is finished.it is the end.
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it's done and passed.
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But I know in the future, there are all kind of disasters!
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In these years
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I see people around me
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like my mom and my aunt who are married
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who are married
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But thay don't have good lives
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Because of my past... l cant' think of a completely successful marriage
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And also if I marry someone, could I be like my mom?
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Or if I would have a child, a daughter
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does my husband do the same thing to her?